Monday, February 04, 2008
dun ask me why.. going back dere.. suddenly it all feels so much different.. i feel lyk a bystander now.. i dun feel lyk i belong.. is it a wrong decision? i dunno why but it seems dat everything i say/do, it offends someone.. i cant go on dis way.. and i dunno which way to go.. this is killing me.. all these feelings and vibes dat i get.. makes me wan to hide.. makes me not want to emerge..why pull me out of my solitude and den make me watch a movie? a movie which i swore i would nv be an audience of again.. why cant i be part of dat movie? i used to be but now, i've been cast aside, written off.. perhaps the script ends here.. perhaps i should learn how to let go and move on..
there are so many good things in life.. so why do i yearn for dis? is it because i care too much? of all the times, i've been really happy.. it's all those recent stuff dat really make things unbearable.. i realise i have no one to turn to.. no one to confide in.. pitiful? think i'm asking for pity? get e hell out den.. i will stand alone if need be.. thanks but no thanks i dun wan your pity..
mayb dis time round, i'll stay out.. why stick ard when i'm not needed, not noticed.. it'll only make me feel miserable.. i noe i'm not an important person.. i noe some ppl dun lyk me.. but at least treat me lyk human.. i exist