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i have dis song which i liked for a very long time.. i was surfing youtube and came across 2 MVs of this song.. sung by diff artists..

Take That:


talk abt weird.. LOL i swear.. it's totally weird.. i lyk dis other version beta..

Bee Gees:


=D enjoy~

i think today i shall try kevin's style of blogging.. lolx

dis is my current favourite song.. as i listened to it, i was overcome by a wave of longing.. as i watched e video.. i nearly cried.. so i'm going to share..

hmm.. i've decided to go for OSIP.. so now, i'm refining my resume.. yup.. going to see my CM dis coming monday to talk abt OSIP.. cos i needed some help in some aspects.. i dunno wat else to type le..

if you ppl are wondering which OSIP i'm trying out for.. go to:
http://www.gloriahotels.com/gloria_en/index.asp

yup.. i guess that's all? sk~ i need help wif my resume!!!

i kind of lost the interest to blog.. again.. so yea.. why am i blogging now? well mayb cos many thots are coursing through my mind and i really cant slp.. all these problems.. sk's rite.. problems wun disappear.. so i've got to cope dun i?

ignore my previous entry.. i think i'm juz a little depressed and i juz yak and yak.. i yakked at sy juz now.. =.= though he didnt seem interested to chat but he was concerned when i... erm.. oki watever.. no one wans to noe.. blah~

formed project group today.. only one word to describe my feeling and dat's erm.. cos the whole thing is really erm.. but at least i got meself a project group so let's work together yea~ attended my 1st public speaking tutorial.. i have problems introducing myself.. how bad can dis get man.. gosh.. so kind of dread public speaking? i was damn nervous even before stepping into the class.. and guess wat.. if i failed dis cds, i need to repeat ONE more sem.. juz for ONE subject.. thks lorx.. i beta pass man..

sch started lyk 4 days already and i've nv really blogged abt it.. monday's.. only one hr lec and it's from 6pm onwards.. =.= tue's a horror.. SSM.. zzz my poor swollen finger and blistered feet... wed's a full tutorial day so i didnt attend any lesson dis wk.. but i still went to sch and did up the mentors notice board.. i hope it's nice.. i'm not a really creative person.. =x thurs, which is today, is a really long day.. from 9-6.. but den again, i think SSM's much worse even though it's one hr shorter..

i'm not sure how fri will be.. but.. it's accounts day.. *screams* horrors of horrors.. i'm going to be squinting over the details again.. )= well dat's cos i'm stupid so i cant really grasp the concept fast enough.. you noe wat dis means? it means a LOT of practice.. sigh..

for a person who doesnt have an interest to blog, i sure blog alot.. =.= dis is sooooo ironic.. but watever man.. i'm not gonna delete it lyk wat i did for my previous entry.. and yes, i'm still thinking whether to submit my resume for the OSIP.. decisions decisions.. stupid sk's coming back on 5 Jan 2008.. i'm counting down wif him.. i'm missing dat perv dat much.. =.= yea anyway, i noe you're reading dis, sk.. i'm still missing my dale~!!!! ROAR

i lyk chip and dale.. cos of the $50++ dollars, me zh bc and sk spent at Downtown.. stupid chip and dale.. i will collect you all!!! ROAR

missing a certain sheep though he doesnt miss me.. zzzz but oh well.. cant expect much anyway.. i mean, who am i to him? juz cos he means sth to me doesnt mean he has to treat me the same way.. grow up QR.. face it.. take it in your stride.. lyk you said, all you wan is to be by his side.. jia you~

u asked me wat happened to me.. i dunno.. i really dun.. it's lyk.. i'm feeling dis uncertainty and sadness deep in my heart.. suddenly, i'm confused.. suddenly, i'm lost.. suddenly, i dunno wat to do wif my life.. perhaps all dis while, i've thinking of you.. i've been thinking abt us.. dat i forgot abt myself..

*i juz deleted a whole chunk of entry due to privacy*

i love you and i wan you to be happy

i wish i wasnt so helpless.. i wish i paid more attention to your thots.. i wish you trusted me..

So faithfully
Holding tight to every dream i thought our love would ever be
As the scent of hope slips through my fingers plain for me to see
I can feel now in your eyes the changing way you look at me
Where's the love we knew would last us eternally

And will your arms still hold me
And your eyes console me, baby
Please don't turn your back and just pretend
That your heart still needs me
And your soul completes me
Can we find a way to fall in love again

It's hard for you
When your heart has opened up to feelings that you never knew
Never thinking that you'd doubt our love you don't know what to do
I'd give anything, my heart, my soul if i could pull you through
Just to find again my love we hold so true

And will your arms still hold me
And your eyes console me, baby
Please don't turn your back and just pretend
That your heart still needs me
And your soul completes me
Can we find a way to fall in love again

And as every night goes by
With every lonely tears i cry
It's so clear to me
I need you by my side

And will your arms still hold me
And your eyes console me, baby
Please don't turn your back and just pretend
That your heart still needs me
And your soul completes me
Can we find a way to fall in love again

Can we find a way to fall in love again
Oh baby, i need you to love me for the rest of my life
If we fall in love again
Would you love me for the rest of my life

*WAILS* I WANT TO QUIT SCHOOL!!!!! I CANT BUN MY HAIR!!!! *pouts*

BLAH~ BORRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIING~~ SHALL TYPE IN CAPS!!!! ROAR~

TML SCH START LE~~ WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (*gasp* sheepie gone mad?!?!)

HMMMM.. I FORGOT WAT I WANTED TO TYPE AGAIN.. SO HERE'S A RANDOM THOT:

IN THIS WORLD, EVERY MINUTE, MAYB EVEN SECOND, THERE'S A NEWBORN.. AT THE SAME TIME, SOMEONE DIED.. SO RITE HERE RITE NOW, SHEEPIE WISHES ALL THOSE WHO ARE BEING BORN NOW A HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. AND THOSE WHO HAVE DIED TO REST IN PEACE~

DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? I THINK I DO.. HYUK HYUK

today got sth to blog abt le.. i'm SICK! LOL oki so here's wat happened..

woke up in the morning, slight headache.. didnt think much of it.. brushed my teeth den realised my eye sight got some problems.. lyk sth is blocking my vision.. (*gasp* sheepie going blind!?!?) as i stepped out of my hse for breakfast, the headache has developed into a full-blown one.. which is very painful and i had to massage my head..

well, to summarise it, all through breakfast and grocery shopping at NTUC, my headache was pure hell.. to the extend i felt weak, almost fainting.. and according to my mom, i turned pale.. when i reached hm, i took panadol and sat in the living room to watch tv.. after a few minutes, i ran to the toilet and puked.. =x

was rather serious.. rite now, still feeling weak.. bought my shoes for service juz now cos not going out wif bestie tml thks to my "illness".. =( sorry bestie!

o.O sy juz roar at me.. cos i very mafan.. lolx thks for chatting wif me la.. =p

i wan to blog.. but i'm lazy once again.. =x

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i'm ADDICTED to Freecell thanks to zh

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i forgot wat i wanted to type.. but at least i updated.. LOL

back from hong kong.. dun feel lyk blogging abt e trip.. cos it's all shopping, talks and food.. well went to disneyland and ocean park.. would lyk to visit again.. dis time wif my gors and e guys ba.. lolx cos i noe they lyk thrill rides.. =p but mostly is because we did say we wan to go overseas together.. hope can ba.. muz wait for them to serve NS 1st.. zzz still got a few more yrs to go..

truth to be told, halfway through the trip, i called hm, close to crying and i told my mom i wan to go hm.. and it's not because i miss hm.. there are other factors but i wun say wat.. juz dat at some point of the trip, i was unhappy.. very unhappy..

i'll have to thank carol for waking me up every morning.. otherwise i think i'll juz slp past breakfast.. =p thks darling~

ivan made me realise the fun of bargaining.. LOL i had so much fun at the ladies market bargaining prices.. HAHA

wat else ar.. oh.. i lyk the VP of Hong Kong Disneyland.. =D

i oso lyk Willie Chan.. HAHA

one quote stuck in my mind.. Nothing happens until you sell something.

carmen, hui lin and linda very cute.. lolx. they brightened up the hk trip.. =)

dunno wat else i'm going to say le... wrote a song while in hk.. enjoy~

梦。想
茫茫人海中
独自走在街上
感觉有一些孤单

亲人朋友包围
但却很寂寞
这到底是为什么

是不是我又做错了什么
竟会如此的悲伤
不想要频频淡淡的度过
我没有色彩的生活

我只想快快乐乐
活个五彩缤纷
这个愿望可不可能

只想拥有一个
永远爱我的人
难道这个要求太过天真

一直寻寻觅觅
寻找爱的坚定
难道我就值得几分

直到你的出现
才发现爱的可能
我的梦想可以成真

我只想快快乐乐
活个五彩缤纷
这个愿望可不可能

只想拥有一个
永远爱我的人
难道这个要求太过天真

一直寻寻觅觅
寻找爱的坚定
难道我就值得几分

才发现爱的可能
我的梦想
终于成真

ur soul will be e one who accompanies me to hk.. cos seriously, after wat i've witnessed, i feel so damned isolated dat no matter how hard i try, misery has settled in my heart.. YES, I FEEL BLOODY SAD RITE NOW.. HAPPY?!?

juz cos i'm someone whom u can use and throw away.. juz cos i'm someone who doesnt mean anything to anyone.. juz cos i'm so damned forgettable.. i HATE myself.. are you happy now? it's fucking irritating how one stupid comment can create such a HUGE fuss.. wat e fuck man.. juz leave me to rot and die wun ya.. at least i'll feel a DAMNED lot BETTER..

let me get dis straight.. my gors and best fren.. they UNDERSTAND me.. they CARE abt me.. they KNOW me.. i dun owe anything to anyone.. and i swear, i'm one hell of a bitch when i want to.. so dun piss me off!

UPDATE

good thing i read nitika's blog.. here's a quote.. or rather, lots of quotes..

People will not trust you to make your own decisions, they'd rather spy on you. Try and find out who else you're connected with...if there are any scandals about you. If you ever encounter people of the sort , know one thing. They don't respect you or your privacy. And they are judging you, whatever you do. It is precisely that which suffocates, hazes your vision of yourself and you are left wondering the worst...thinking that you ARE the worst.

The next time you think you're protecting someone...you might just be leading them onto a path of mental instability, so don't. No matter who you are, everyone is an individual. Don't let your decisions affect the lives or happiness of others.

and dis is wat i have to say.. THANK YOU NITIKA! (source: http://reigning-mind.blogspot.com/)

fri's steamboat wif guild members was fun~ juz dat i think sl thot i'm tricking him cos we made him wait dere for more than 1 hr.. and before we reached dere, he left.. zh wanted me to call him to explain but he didnt pick up e call so i thot watever.. if dat's wat he wan to think, i oso cannot help it cos it's really my fault dat he's waiting dere for more than 1 hr.. yea, it's my fault dat i had to stay in sch till 6 45 over mentoring stuff..

TP-BP Mentors Award Ceremony was a success.. it was really stressful up in the controls room.. thank god i didnt screw up.. was tiring but it's OVER~ nxt up is e notice board.. mentoring session was fun and short.. =) i lyk

went over to soccer place to help uncle lim wif some songs.. den went hm wif zh and jk.. bathed and met zh den walked to interchange.. met jk, bc and van den off we went to eat at PastaMania.. after eating, walked ard till 9 45pm.. van went off at 9 30.. watched Balls of Fury.. treated bc to e movie.. movie was so-so.. oki la.. got some funny parts.. but not very nice story plot.. i lyk e sex slaves though.. MALE sex slaves.. LOL went hm after watching movie.. was super shagged..

today, i nearly succumb to "depression" again.. to some, it's negative thots.. to some, it's 胡思乱想.. to me, it's juz unnecessary unhappiness.. well but thks to bestie and him, i'm feeling MUCH better~ =D thank you!

now i shall go write up a will in case i die tml or fri.. or whenever..

quick update here..

ytd's kbox session was fun fun fun~! but i still not shuang cos nv sing enough.. lolx sing for 5hrs still not enough sia.. i muz be crazy..

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in tp now.. meeting advisor to show her vid for AC.. very stress sia.. scary.. lucky last nite dun have nitemare of her.. LOL

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你的存在让我对任何事物的想法乐观多了
我已不再像之前那么容易感到悲观
现在的我能开开心心的笑
因为你

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你的微笑 - FIR

喜欢用我的音调
唱出你的味道
这一秒
有种感觉甜蜜的发酵

一百种言语知道
爱有一个声道
才明了
是你眼神传来的暗号

太多的幸福报到
拼凑爱的美妙
笑一笑
投入你怀里然后撒娇

不需要别人来教
把爱紧紧抓牢
这一秒
决定拥抱你给的美好

爱情是你独特的味道
在我的心中围绕
别人都不了
只有你知道
因为你
世界不再单调
我的微笑你明白就很好

你就像月亮绕着轨道
拥抱着地球闪耀
在我的星球写下惊叹号
有了你世界神魂颠倒
你的微笑
编织了每一个奇妙