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i'm tired, i'm hungry and i'm in sch doing F&B.. oh boy.. looking at all these food makes me super duper hungry!!!!

ok.. dis is creepy man.. haha.. some guy dropped a msg at my youtube acc.. and he said sth lyk, "i lyk ur video".. haha.. e weird thing is, i didnt upload any videos!!! and he sorta gave me a link to some website dat has him in it.. haha.. so being curious, i went la..


and guess where it took me.. no, not porn.. haha.. it's juz some searching soulmate website... =.= why e hell ppl ask me to go dere, i'll nv figure out.. y me sia.. do i look lyk i'm in need of a soulmate? lolx.. i'm doing ok lehx... anyways, so i decided to heck care dat msg.. but if he drops a msg again... i dunno wat i'm gonna do man.. haha


i'm so screwed man.. so many projects.. and here i am, not knowing wat to do.. cos 1stly, i'm plain lazy and 2ndly, i'm so damn tired of projects man.. looking for an econs article but i cant seem to find anything!! so yea, i'm kinda panicking.. shucks..


f&b still ok la.. juz dat i have 2 HUGE recipe books in my possession now.. thks lots to national lib man.. it's heavy la... kaoz... and i had to go all e way to pasir ris cos e book dat i wan's dere... zzzz.. but i took advantage and window shopped a while.. =p


saw a couple of long sleeve shirt which i lyk a lot.. keke.. oh yea.. i'm into long sleeve shirts now.. comfy.. haha.. wat's more, it hides my ugly arms.. heh heh.. i'm kinda vain.. =) oh.. and i went into MORE THAN WORDS and saw a couple of soft toys which i lyk a lot... haha.. so i'm heading over to MORE THAN WORDS soon cos i have 3 discount coupons to use! yeah!!!!


kinda felt weird when i shopped alone.. but i'm getting e hang of it le.. haha.. at least i can take my own sweet time.. but once in a while, i'll turn ard to tok to someone but later find dat dere's no one dere.. haha.. still not very used to it..


end up sitting in e lib for 2 gd hours reading storybook.. haha.. i'm still a bookworm at heart.. keke.. after i did wat i was supposed to do, i went hm and fell aslp.. =.= i'm damn tired la.. but my bro woke me up at 6 and i went out..


another entry on my boring day.. oh ya!! went to pizza hut wif e kukus for lunch today.. haha.. almost forgot.. den e decor got dis lamp hanging by the ceiling ma.. i think hua hua, kuku, carol and val knocked their heads against e lamp.. haha.. i'm so glad i'm short!!!


haha.. really dunno wat to say le.. so stop here ba.. keke.. bye ppl~~

i seriously dun lyk new blogger.. so sux... stupid html so hard to figure out... i thot my blogskin goner le.. lucky still dere.. or else i'll stop blogging... =.=


anyways, muz chiong my projects liao ar... 2 projects deadline.. kaoz.. so stressed lorx... some more still got my CDS.. i haven do lehx.. muz faster do le.. or else i'll die man.. haha..


my room's in a mess and i'm so darn lazy to tidy it up... oh yea.. i cant play maple again.. at least not on my laptop la.. i think is some connection problems.. haiz.. sianz... dunno how long cannot play le... sad ar...


speaking of sad, i was upset ytd.. but let's not go into dat.. cos already got ppl comfort me le.. =) esp when he comforted me.. =D i noe it sounds stupid la.. but yea.. juz a sayang from him oso can make me happy lyk siao.. haha.. he sets my worries aside.. thk u so much for being dere..


manu's threatening to bang her head against e wall.. haha.. i feel lyk a train juz ran over my head.. haha.. everyone's feeling real tired le.. plus i'm being so random now.. toking to him online.. keke..


bought a sticker on my zodiac e other day.. dis is wat it says:
virgoans like to attack back when confronted.
virgoans need to receive a lot of attention, adoration and gratitude. virgoans are accurate, competent and effective. they like raionality. virgoans like to help and solve problems quickly. they do not do it for compliments. (yup, dat's true)
virgoans are not wasteful. being perfectionists, they like order and cleanliness in their home. (haha.. dat's not true cos my room's in a mess!)
virgoans change friends often. they have only a few real friends because they give very special values to friendships to which other people cannot commit.
virgo is ruled by Mercury. virgoans are very bright and educated. they are good scientists, teachers, analysts and planners. (well, i aspired to be a mad scientists when i was young.. haha!!)


anyways, dat my example of me being bored.. time to get back to work... sianx...

alrite.. seeing dat i'm feeling rather bored, i decided to head over to manu's blog and did a couple of quizzes.. keke.. and e results are.. well, interesting.. at least to me.. here dey are:

Your Birthdate: September 20

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move. It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone. Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance. At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower. And at other times, you are wise like an iris. And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

You Are 24% Nerdy

You're a little nerdy, but no one would ever call you a nerd. You sometimes get into nerdy things, but only after they've become a part of mainstream culture.

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable. Overall, your true self is passionate and physical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

Your Depression Level: 52%

You seem to have mild depression. A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment. If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help.

Your Hair Should Be Pink

Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun. You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

You Are 57% Passionate, 43% Compassionate

You possess an ideal balance of passion and compassion. You definitely can get swept away and lose your head a little. But you're rarely a fool for love!

You Are Coke

A true original and classic, you represent the best of everything you can offer. Just the right amount of sweet, just the right amount of energy... you're the life of the party. Your best soda match: Mountain Dew Stay away from:Dr Pepper

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect

Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!

You Are 24% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head. You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

woo.. was watching WWE ytd and today.. zh burn e monday nite raw and new year resolution for me.. =D damn shiok la.. i nv buy new year resolution.. JOHN CENA RAWKZ!!!! i love john cena!! haha..


all e matches were damn exciting la.. esp DX de.. a lot of blood spilt... pity triple H tore his knee muscel though.. has to go through surgery and i bet he'll b out for another 9 mths.. juz lyk last time.. come back soon, triple H.. haha.. john cena's match was great!! oh my god la.. he pinned umaga!!! dat's lyk so damn cool la.. and now i'm SOOOOO looking forward to Royal Rumble.. cos john cena's facing umaga again.. dis time, in a last man standing match.. woo.. dat match would be great la.. umaga's lyk strong and all.. no one has ever knocked him out lorx.. i hope cena wins.. *prays*


haha.. plus, shwan micheals prevails.. he won e handicap match la.. pity he didnt bust open randy orton's head.. lolx.. ok.. i'm sick.. =p i juz so love wrestling matches la.. so many drama sia.. haha..


den got e women matches.. mickie james is gd!! victoria's gd too but she's a little too psychotic.. lolx.. i lyk mickie james' style of wrestling a lot.. those kicks of hers.. i wouldnt wan to receive dem man.. i'll b knocked out flat.. haha..


carlito and torries wilson are so cute together la!! sadly, they're juz frenz.. but i guess it wouldnt b long b4 they're together rite? *wink wink*


lolx.. muz be wondering y i'm toking abt wrestling all of a sudden.. haha.. it juz occurred to me dat i'm nv shared wif anyone my one true love.. wrestling.. haha.. no i dun wrestle.. i juz watch e matches.. haha.. since pri sch, i've been watching WWE till now.. from in e past it's called WWF to today's WWE..


alot of drama in all these yrs.. but i love each and every of e matches dat i've watched.. i watched as legends lyk shawn micheals, stone cold steve austin and ric flair fight it out in e matches.. i've watched some wrestlers till dey retired or died.. haha.. it's almost lyk wrestling is in part of my soul le..


i might not watch e matches as frequently as b4.. but i still try to keep up to date wif e happenings.. i've even done research on the superstars so i kinda noe their backgrounds and how dey came into this industry.. vince mcmahon might b a f***ing SOB but he's damn good in dis business.. lolx.. and here i am, surfing e WWE webby and blogging.. haha.. life's great!!


anyway, enuf abt WWE.. let's update..


finally POM and marketing are over!!! left soci, jap, F&B, econs and cs.. psh.. still so many... anyways, i'm so not going to say wat happened during presentation for POM ytd.. u guys noe my presentation sux.. and yes, i laughed again.. *deep sigh*


marketing, dun even noe can pass anot.. all i dunno how to ans lehx.. need hints from tutor some more.. but at least i could say out e key words so i kinda got some marks la.. haha.. i asked my tutor whether i passed and guess wat she said.. mayb.. =.= wat kind of ans is dat sia..


anyway, tagged along wif manu when she went for her SA interview.. haha.. i quite kaypoh sia.. and e guy sorta asked me if i wan to join and gave me an application form.. =.= yea, i filled it up but i'm not sure whether to submit it or anot.. ahahaha..


after dat, manu had to go hm cos her mom fetching her hm.. e rest, namely carol, hua, val, dhah, kuku, fion and me went to century square to take neoprints.. haha.. in our business suit some more.. very fun but very hot!!!


went to eat at e prata stall.. i ate mee siam!! lolx.. my new fave dish man.. keke.. it's gd la.. but a little too ex le.. >.tian ji zhou (frog porridge) ahahaha.. damn gd la!! i think is at geylang dere de... so since we're dere, took a look at those china girls station dere to attract "customers".. thank god i'm not their target market.. HAHAHA!


anyways, gotta go in a few mins.. meeting db and ben to play badminton.. heehee.. my bro's coming too.. cos we cant get a court at sports hall, db suggested soccer dere.. i anything la.. as long as bo dai ji, i happy le.. k la.. i go le... later dey scold me for being late.. =x


adieu~~

i'm so tired of all dis.. hate dis kind of drama.. thank god i'm not involved in it.. juz felt dat all dese are meaningless ba.. mayb i've gotten wiser.. dunno la.. but somehow, i feel dat some ppl are really childish.. either dat or dey juz simply have nth beta to do ba..


dun ask me wat i'm toking abt.. i'm juz being random.. trying to keep up wif my assignments.. sianx.. i juz realised how messed up i am.. gotta buck up le.. really very tired le... haix..

after missing gym session twice (ytd and today), i've decided enuff's enuff.. time to do some exercise.. finally got my adrenaline pumping man.. did a couple of push ups and sit ups.. normal procedures.. den took e 1kg weights and worked on my arms.. woo.. dat strain i feel... so shuang la..


den did some rigorous routines on my leg.. haha.. so my legs felt e strain too.. actually it was quite tough seeing dat i've stopped excercising for quite a long time.. so kinda not used to it.. so i didnt overdo anything.. stopped when my muscels couldnt take it anymore..


after i did e warm ups, turned e music up loud and did a couple of boxing.. woo hoo!! so long nv do liao la.. hard punches towards invisible opponents.. haha.. after i stopped, i can feel e strain all e way to my back la.. which is kinda gd.. i wan my whole body to get used to these routines cos i'm gonna do it every nite man.. oh yea.. i'm totally serious abt losing those fats..


think instead of going gym, i'm juz gonna run a couple of blocks ard my hse.. more feasible.. some more no need to pay money and no need to jio ppl.. haha.. some more tired le can rest.. plan my routine on my own.. keke.. so shiok la.. tml's going to play badminton.. hope dun cancel.. >.<


haha.. anyways, nth much happened la.. only interesting thing was toking to e CP regarding a certain communication tutor who cant communicate.. yea well.. haha.. gtg le.. need to bathe.. ciao~

wah.. i dunno is i today unlucky or wat la.. suppossed to go gym wif van de.. so msg her arrange time ma.. den she nv reply.. lucky kai ask me to call her to confirm la.. turns out she in sch.. =.= said she got lib duty and forgot.. den i was lyk, "DIAO.. now den tell me..." she keep apologising la but lyk i said, sorry no cure.. haha.. not cos i angry.. more lyk she say sorry oso wun get me another person to go gym wif me ma.. lolx.. nvm la.. nxt time lorx.. dun blame u... keke..


den arrange wif db to go gym tml ma.. wah.. dis time is super diao lorx... she msg me juz now ask me wat time i going sch tml.. i said 9 ma.. den she say cos she told her mom she working.. so need to leave hse early.. can meet in e morning to go gym.. =.= wat e hell la.. if i say i'm not pissed, it's a lie lorx..


i mean lyk, if u tell me u cant make it, i wun make such a big fuss.. but den again, i'm not so dumb to kb abt dis kinda stuff.. it'll juz lead to meaningless arguements (sp?).. haha.. i supposed i've gotten smarter le.. it's beta to avoid arguements ba..


sianx lorx.. i think is more sian than pissed ba.. but i cannot expect ppl to always b free de la.. so kan kai yi dian is beta.. e most is i go myself.. i oso noe dun need to say so much.. but i guess i juz wanna voice out my unhappiness ba.. cos wat's e use of having a blog if i dun dare to say anything...


zzz.. anyways, no hard feelings towards db.. but nxt time wan to cancel sth, no need to explain so much.. haha.. makes it easier for me to stomach.. i've got a weak stomach...


so tml i'll b in e sch gym.. asked jo if he wanted to come along.. kai mayb.. but not sure..


on a happier note:
was supposed to meet hua hua at 8 30pm juz now.. but i was out le den it's kinda early.. so me and my bro went to e playground to wait for her.. lolx.. very long nv play le.. so me and my bro started climbing all over e place la.. it's quite weird la.. cos all small kids around.. den e two of us were lyk.. wat.. 16 and 18 years old? lolx.. and we're still playing at e playground..


i kinda developed a new way to play e slides.. u noe.. lying down and sliding down backwards is really fun.. cos lyk ur head would b down so u can feel e blood rushing dere.. den u wld be sliding down real fast.. so fun la! haha.. den got e spiral slide ma.. den turn dat time, i banged my head against e side la!! pain sia... den my bro was calling me stupid cos i didnt noe how to tuck my head in.. haha..


so by e time hua hua came, i've banged my head a couple of times le.. yea.. so i've gotten a little stupid and mayb a slight concussion ba.. haha.. but it was really fun.. wan to play again.. keke.. until i break my head open, i'm nv going to stop.. haha.. cos e feeling of falling is so damn entertaining la...


keke.. gtg slp le.. nitex ppl...

damn la.. i'm so sick and tired of CS2 ok.. so wat if e tutor's praising me and all? my god la.. every week so many pattern de.. i'm so tired ok.. she nv gives specific instructions, always changes wat she says.. how does she expect us to understand?


and now, practically e whole class got marked absent cos NONE of us could understand wat she says.. she said, "i only wan ONE draft for this wk.. so you guys post AS A GROUP." tell me wat does dat make u think? only one posting rite? so we posted only one entry.. but she marked everyone, except those who posted, absent.. wat e hell man...


haix.. i really dunno wat to do liao lorx.. it's lyk gif up le.. complain so many times oso no use.. oh yea.. i noe e lecturers say dun anyhow post things on blog.. but i dun think i did anything by saying all dis.. cos lyk, i've nv felt so sian over a subject la.. and dis tutor really makes me sian until cannot sian liao lorx..


i dun think i shld write anymore lorx.. dun wan to "contaminate" my blog sia..

lolx.. went to e TP Jam n Hop juz now.. super, uber fun ok!! went to meet zh, van, db n gray at soccer.. my bro was dere too!! haha.. convinced him to go.. den we went to TP.. got a scare la.. thot cannot go in.. lucky kai come hlp.. haha..


got free dinner sia.. so we go eat lorx.. hungry ma.. haha.. i think kai and gray had 3 servings.. muz b very hungry i guess.. zh had 2 servings while e rest of us ate only 1 serving.. lolx.. anyways, after eating, went to biz level 5 to slack cos e party haven start.. plus it was raining heavily.. so scared cancelled la...


go level 5 of biz sch.. wah damn lorx.. is cold la.. lol.. went to e sofa dere to sit.. den nth to do ma.. so teach zh soci lorx.. db, van, gray and my bro play dai dee.. again... lolx.. kai running between e 2 grps la..


teach hao zh le.. TIME TO PARRRRTYYYYY!!!! woo hoo!!!!! so fun la.. at 1st we dun dare to dance.. haha.. cos quite shy.. den after a while, zh siao liao, van oso siao.. so i oso join in siao siao lorx.. SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO FUN OK!!! den we were lyk screaming, jumping, singing and dancing all over la!!! haha.. i 1st time so wild sia.. keke.. in a crowd some more wor...


plus, i finally found my clubbing kakis tonite!! presenting to you - VANESSA PWA AND DEBBIE LAU!!!! dey oso very wild la.. wah lao.. i didnt noe dey oso so crazy de lorx.. haha.. so nxt yr, once dey reach THE AGE, we're going clubbing.. it's a date, girlfrenz.. haha....


anyways, i think my bro's real bored.. haha.. cos he's not really into dis kinda stuff.. he's juz accompanying me.. so sweet rite.. keke.. overall, e day's FUN FUN FUN!! lolx.. so tired la.. haha..


and now, almost e whole class is online msn and dey're organising e Linus Fan Club.. lolx!! i'm PR.. haha.. and all our display pic change to linus's pic la.. buay tahan lorx.. all crazy liao.. haha..


anyways, i wanna play maple le.. so ciao ppl~~

was reading e feb issue of LIME mag.. lolx.. and came across e editor's note.. found it really meaningful so i'll share it wif u guys..

"anyone who's ever been in lurve wld tell u it's not all dewy-eyed romance. it's abt mundane stuff lyk hlping ur guy ta pau dinner when he's working late, or typing out her notes for a big sch assignment.


love is when u share a bowl of ice kachang and u save the atap chee for her.


it's when he lets u pick e movie and u choose e war flick instead of the romantic comedy, becos u noe he secretly wants to watch dat.


it's not saying 'hah! i told u so!' when she sprains her ankle wearing killer heels even though u did tell her so.


it's when he dls Lily Allen on his iPod although he cant stand her - just in case u ever feel lyk borrowing his iPod, u'd have sth to listen to.


it's bringing her lingerie shopping and letting her buy comfy cotton PJs if dat's wat she really wants, instead of the crotchless panties u've been eyeing.


it's sweating it out wif him rollerblading even though u'd much rather b shopping.


it's admiring (as sincerely as possible) her fifth pair of black shoes which look juz lyk e other 4.


and most importantly - and this is e hardest thing to do - it's walking away from a fight becos u'd rather keep e peace and show some love than prove dat u're rite."


source: LIME mag Feb edition


i totally agree wif e last point.. it's really beta to keep e peace.. it's oso applicable to friendship.. haha.. so qiao.. now listening to Love, Me by Collin Raye...


well.. hope everyone's filled wif love and all.. cheerx and love all my frenz and family!! muackz~

yea!!! marketing's finally over alrite!!!! i'm so happy la.. today's e presentation.. every thing went on fine la.. juz dat i was very nervous lorx.. den while i was presenting, halfway through i nervous until laugh la.. WTH.. i so useless rite.. feel lyk i've let down e team lorx...


a million sorries to ivan, carol, manu and val... i sorta screwed up e presentation... so so so so sorry!! quite disappointed wif myself lorx.. still cannot do a presentation properly sia.. so useless.. haha.. but i'm still glad dat it's over.. dat's one project down and dunno how many more to go.. =.=


anyways, wore e bloody heels e whole day la.. my legs are SOOOO tired ok... my god la.. i hate heels!!! van came over to TP today.. lolx.. we stayed behind to watch e TP mass dance.. keke.. van say she wan to come TP cos e dance is so fun!! lolx... buck up girl.. i noe u can do it de.. u come in, we shall dance e mass dance to celebrate alrite?? hahah..


db told me ytd dat she's interested in NP.. i'll have to say dat's really gd.. cos she knows wat she wan.. db, all i can tell u is, choose e course dat u wan.. dun care abt e distance.. think of wat u wan and choose.. dun juz because TP's nearer, u choose to come over.. cos i dun wan u to regret.. do wat u think is best for u alrite.. =) all e best!!!


i gtg le.. haha.. wanna play maple le.. keke.. buaixxxx

today's e 1st day of the TP open hse.. i got half day LOA.. cos i volunteered to b the business guides.. lolx.. supposed to gif tours ard business sch.. supposed to clock in 5 tours.. but hor, after my 1st tour, carol dey all jio me and manu go dance.. lolx.. cos we represent business to dance the TP mass dance so dun need to do tour.. keke.. very fun..


in TP for almost a yr le.. can see a lot of diff in my attitude.. ahaha.. i now can proudly say to others, "Come to TP.. it's e best poly.. business is e BEST sch in TP and LRM is e BEST course in business!" lolx.. i guess in dis one yr, i've come to love life in TP.. poly life has changed me alot..


in dis one yr, i've met really great classmates who are e coolest bunch of frenz la.. haha.. dey taught me alot of stuff and i'm more confident of myself le.. can say is e kukus' influence ba.. haha.. i'm really glad to be able to noe dem..


at e start, i rmb dat i kept grumbling abt how i regret getting into LRM and all dat crap.. but today, i'm really LOVING it la!! haha.. after getting used to poly life and all, i'm starting to enjoy myself le.. keke..


screamed my lungs out today la.. but i'm still very happy lorx.. cos very long nv so crazy le.. haha.. anyways, gtg do my project le... adieu~

once again, i've lost control of my emotions again.. was hlping my dad wif him work.. print le den realised typed a couple of wrong stuff.. so i got a little impatient cos i wanna do my projects.. end up my dad not happy, say dun need to hlp le since i'm in such an attitude.. well, can say dat i've lost control of myself cos i sorta said my dad's being very lame.. yea.. i noe i went overboard..


so me and my dad fell out.. and i'm already in a lousy mood cos i noe it's my fault.. den my mom came out and say me.. dat's when i totally lost control and i sorta lyk said, "i didnt even do anything!" and i juz ran into my room and locked myself in.. den oh man, i started crying.. =.=


yea well, i've been feeling miserable these couple of days and was quite stressed.. i noe everyone's stressed too.. but for me, it's lyk opening a floodgate and everything juz sort of gushed out.. it's not only sch work la.. mainly oso got other stuff..


my bad for keeping everything to myself.. den when i couldn't take it anymore, i would juz start cry for a long time.. den i'll be damn tired.. slp le den wake up nxt morning lyk nth happen.. i noe it's kinda unhealthy doing dis but hey, dis is how i am.. i mean, u cant always expect me to go find someone to tok to juz cos i'm unhappy rite.. ppl will b irritated de cos dey oso have their own problems...


i guess i'm beta than others le.. at least i juz cry and tok to my soft toys.. i've read on e net, dere are ppl who actually harbor suicidal thots.. and dey cut themselves.. i had a fren who cuts herself but she has since stopped, i hope... and no, i wun start cutting myself.. i oso wun drink cos i obviously cant find any alcohol in my room..


now sitting here and typing out all dis, i wonder y i cried.. mayb i really feel miserable in dis family ba.. yes, dere are happiness, fun and laughter.. but under it all, i feel dat my family members do not understand me at all.. i mean, dey dunno how i think or feel.. dey dunno wat went on in my life other than those dat i told dem which some are lies to keep them satisfied.. other than dat, dey nv really went out e way to ask how's my day...


mayb it's cos i would gif dem e info automatically.. dat's y dey sorta assumed i told them everything.. i dunno.. dey always point out my bad points.. i noe it's gd cos dey let me noe so i can improve but an occasional praise wun hurt..


mayb dey nv knew.. but i've been living in e shadow of my younger bro for so long dat i started to resent myself for being stupid.. yea, all his academic results surpass me.. he's beta than me in everything minus watching horror movies.. hey, watching horror movies is nth worthy to praise.. i mean, other than telling me i can do it, y can i get e "well done, keep up e gd work"? for years i've yearned to hear these words.. but nv once have i heard dem..


i always rmb how my parents would call me stupid when dey are angry at me.. i guess dey nv knew how much it hurt me.. how much i cared wat dey said.. i dun care abt others calling me an idiot or say i'm stupid.. but when my parents said it, whether in jest or in anger, it cuts deep inside me..


i could nv show dem how unhappy i am.. cos dey will nv understand and when i tell dem e reason, dey'll say i'm being silly.. so even when dey hurt me wif their careless deposition of words, i juz take it in silently and pretended dat i didnt mind.. i cant even cry in front of dem.. cos dey'll ask me wat's wrong.. how to say i cry cos of wat dey said.. isnt crying in front of dem silly enuf.. how silly do i wan to be...


typing out all these makes me cry all over again.. having a terrible headache now.. and so damn tired.. i'm still locked in my room.. dun wan to go out to face dem.. haix.. i think i'll go do my soci project to take my mind off things le...

i looked into the mirror and i said, "i hate you..."

muahaha.. i'm so so so so so bored!!! lolx.. very long nv update le.. so many things happen la.. but i no time.. keke.. anyways, so free now cos i waiting for sk in com lab.. zh and bc sitting beside me.. machiam protecting me from ghost lyk dat... haha..


stupid sk bluff me la.. he say 4pm end sch wor.. but u see now wat time le.. 4 30pm!!!! he cheat my feeling sia.. dat zh oso.. say wan to watch movie.. end up sch com cannot play.. =.= maple oso bully me.. last nite dun let me play.. say wat access denied.. sobs.. so many bad things.. den last wk found out i failed my POM test.. sigh.. quite sad la.. but den again, i won a chicken cutlet rice plus egg!! tee hee.. =)


but still got gd things la.. 1st of all, marketing over le!!! so happy la.. put so much hard work in it.. keke.. plus, i passed my other tests.. keke..


went escape with carol, manu, val and ivan on sat!! haha.. so fun!! but den nv play much... cos rain.. end up go ivan's hse play majong.. lolx.. MJ Inc. playing majong!! haha.. btw, our merketing group is called MJ Inc... keke..


later e day went to soccer dere.. haha.. i stayed all e way la.. dey played until 8pm la.. lolx.. dat zx super bo liao ok.. we were only lyk 5m away, but he called me on my hp.. lolx! and guess wat he say? "mushimushi, can go le ma?" =.= haha.. so lame la.. den he go copy L's method wor.. hold phone use 2 fingers de.. haha... so funny la.. he alot of money lorx.. lyk dat oso call me... =.=


den we go eat vegetarian food la... omg.. i scared of vegetarian food sia.. T-T end up i nv eat dinner.. haha.. go hm eat biscuits.. keke.. zh got new "gf" sia.. haha.. she is water from maple.. keke.. den zh fish ma... so i say, "fish can nv live without water.." pls la.. everytime dey will quarrel de lorx.. lyk xiao fu qi lyk dat.. haha!


lolx.. zh reading le.. hahahahaha!!! he stun tio le... keke.. i think i go le.. muahahaha... so he cannot delete.. keke.. bye~~

i swear... dis is e season for everyone to b sick.. 1st, fion was sick.. and now, me and best fren manu are joining in e list of sick ppl.. manu's got a cold and sore throat.. me.. i woke up dis morning and caught e flu bug, and a little cough...


damn i hate coughs.. last time i had cough, i coughed for abt a mth cos i really dun recover well from it... pshh.. stupid flu made me use up nearly a box of tissue and i've only been hm for 3 hrs? e whole dustbin is full of e tissues dat i've used to blow my nose.. yuckz.. i'll throw it away later.. since morning till now, i've been rubbing my nose raw.. and it's not a gd feeling.. i hate flu.. and cough...


dis morning, had F&B, made some progress in e project.. manu gave me a pig (i named it blub blub) for my bday last yr!! lolx!! so sweet.. THANK YOU BEST FREN!!! =D anyways, it's blub blub, ppl... not burp burp or bird bird.. =.=


went to pasta mania to eat brunch ( a mixture of breakfast and lunch).. after dat went to e arcade.. had fun at e parapara machine.. kuku's damn cute when she's playing.. val's a pro... lolx.. really fun lorx.. den fion, kuku, ivan, linus, bin & hua went hm le.. left me, val, carol and manu.. haha.. went to popular to buy some stuff den i oso go hm le..


so now i'm stuck here, cant do any work cos i dun feel so well.. sigh... think i go rest a while ba... ciao ppl~

even though we're in e same hse.. even though we're less than 5 metres away from each other, it didnt stop me and my bro from communicating through MSN.. i noe it's rather lame.. i think even our convo's lame.. but since i'm damn stress from e web site, here's a little entertainment..


MSN convo wif Lloydlavitz:


me: where's my hp?


bro: here lor. i was abt to throw it into the dustbin


me: bring here lehx..


bro: come take urself


me: zzz.. u bring out la


bro: zzzz. your one tell me bring out.


me: just bring out la.. i go find sweet.. (a min later) oi.. where's my hp?


bro: here lor


me: bring out


bro: i was abt to throw it into the dustbin


me: i gif u hi-chew


bro: zzzz. i can take myself. dun need u gimme


me: i'm finishing it~~


bro: finish lor. haha. sian... cannot hack now (he's been hacking maple). scarly gm come catch. want to play tic tac toe?


me: =.=


bro: haha. eh bring over my chinese chess cd. lol


e convo ended wif me not bothering to reply.. lolx.. halfway through typing dis, my bro came out, read dis, laughed, smacked my head, brought out my hp (finally), took a hi-chew, took his chinese chess cd and went back to his room.. lolx!


i noe it's very lame but it stops here.. back to e web site.. haha.. i'm loving dis little entertainment.. ciao~

lolx.. today, e no. of piercing has increased from 3 to 4.. yup! i went to pierce my ear again!! now my rite ear has 3 holes.. haha.. so fun.. went wif best fren manu to pierce.. keke.. it hurts la.. cos i nv eat bread dis time round.. lolx.. in my whole life i only pierced my ears twice.. today's e 3rd.. 1st 2 times dat i pierced my ears, i was eating bread.. so i didnt notice e pain.. but today no bread... pain.... >.<

manu oso pierced her ear.. lolx.. $4 each.. keke.. quite cheap la.. now my ear not pain le.. i still can play wif it but it's still a little sore.. haha..

zh met us cos he need our hlp on wc's sis's bday prezzie... end up buying a nice bracelet for her... $36 is a gd buy.. lolx.. no one will ever buy me dat kind of bracelet.. lolx.. i oso dunno y.. mayb i dun seem lyk dat kind of girl who wears dat kind of bracelet.. haha..


juz realized i need to buy a necklace.. i dun have nice one le.. not since i broke e really nice one... lolx.. actually, other than bracelets, i dun lyk ppl buying jewellery for me... haha.. no offense to anyone but i think other than myself, no one really knows wat kind of jewellery i go for.. keke... and i oso dunno how to say out.. lolx...


showed my dad my new piercing la.. he called me hiao (vain in hokkien/teochew).. lolx! den he say need so many holes for wat.. i told him dunno.. haha.. juz found it fun and has e urge to pierce.. keke.. my mom oso say i hiao but i think both of dem are ok wif my piercings la.. at least i didnt go for tongue or lips or eye brow or nose.. i think dey'll freak out if i pierced anything other than my ears.. lolx!


so happy marketing project going to settle le.. POM oso reaching e end liao.. stupid CS2 is so confusing as usual.. den F&B is lyk juz started.. econs is underway too.. jap and socie oso underway.. haha.. but i really unsure abt jap.. socie i still can do.. but jap... zzzz.. i think of all my projects, my best project grp would be marketing ba.. it's really great working wif dem except for u noe who... lolx.. not voldermort pls.. =.=


enuf abt projects la.. guild got outing lehx.. dis time i think is eat buffet wor.. if i'm not wrong, i think is sushi.. woo!! i lyk sushi!!! anyways, so dey wan to vote see wat time go eat.. some choose 3-6pm, while e rest chose 6 30 - 10pm.. i dunno lehx.. it's on a wed.. if it's 3 - 6pm, i would have to miss F&B lec lehx.. 6 30pm de i oso need to rush down.. dunno la... see wat dey decide la.. i think i should be able to make it de.. if cannot den no choice lorx.. wat to do...


haha.. i think i go back to read book le... ciao~

how time flies!! holiday's ending.. sigh.. out flies e fun.. at least i had fun today.. haha..


met carol and fion for econs project.. ivan's sick.. get well soon, dude!! we finished up rather quickly so we ended up talking abt a lot of stuff.. haha..


met up wif van at mrt station ard 1pm.. going to marina square to meet db... we going to kbox.. oso have wen.. haha.. wen only came at 3 plus.. sang all e way till 5 30pm.. haha.. so fun!! lolx.. sing until very happy..


van followed me to my dad's workplace cos she didnt wan to go hm yet.. so she ate dinner wif me and my family.. den came over to my hse to get her VCD.. keke..


haiz.. tml sch start le.. so sian.. y cant i have holiday forever.... dat would be gd man.. so many projects! kaoz.. sian la! i go liao... buaix~

lolx.. 1st of all, wish everyone a very happy 2007.. haha.. in 2007, e 1st song i'm listening to is BREAKING FREE by high sch musical.. lolx.. quite meaningful to me.. talks abt my new year resolution ba.. breaking free from all e past unhappiness, speaks of a new future.. i guess it's time i start looking at things in a different perspective le.. haha.. new year, new me.. =)


lets tok abt last nite.. had dinner wif my aunts and cousins.. me, my bro and rui ying toking abt how ppl say when it's new year, u're one year older.. den we add in chinese new year, another year older.. plus our birthdays.. omg.. dat's 3 years older in ONE year!!! lolx.. we were crapping la.. but it was quite funny though.. so let's see.. i'll b abt 17 x 3 = 51 years old.. =.=


age aside.. my bro bought RISK last nite.. it's a board game la.. lolx.. he say he wan to play so buy lorx.. den i teach him how to play.. in e end, we ended up using e rules book lyk a bible.. he won me once and i won him once.. keke.. so it's a draw.. very fun la.. we spent e last mins of 2006 giggling over RISK.. lolx!!


so now stepping into 2007, i hope everyone will b happy and very blessed.. i wish for less drama... haha.. and no, i dun wan a boyfriend dis yr.. concentrate on my studies beta.. if a guy really loves me, i'm sure he'll understand de.. keke.. wat else.. oh yea.. i wish to lose weight to until 48kg ba.. lolx.. juz keep within e 40++ i happy enuff le.. dis yr, i wish to receive money instead of presents for my birthday.. lolx.. cos i got a slight idea wat i wan.. keke.. i dun mind soft toys but money is beta.. =p


i'm going to buy a laptop bag dis yr.. lolx.. so i guess i beta start saving up.. to those who did not receive prezzie from me during xmas 2006, i'm so sorry!! but i'm so broke!!! i'll rmb dis yr..


ppl ask me wat i hope to achieve out of 2007.. i said nth.. i juz wan to b me.. haha.. being e person others wan me to b is really tiring.. so if u guys thinks i'm a little diff dis yr, dat's cos i'm being me.. =)


i guess dat's all ba.. go maple le.. ciao~