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alrighty... i gotta explain y i'm traumatized.. lolx.. cos on wed, i went to ah neh's (linus) hse to bai nian.. den typically, new yr is gamble ma.. so obviously i gambled.. as u noe, i always gamble small de.. so while playing dis card game called "in-between", i gambled real big cos it's lyk sure-win.. to put it simply, i lost and i had to pay double my bet.. and my bet was over $30.. so u kinda get my drift..


i swear my heart stopped for a second.. i really thot i had a heart attack.. i've nv been so scared all my life and i'm lyk bankrupt.. so yea.. luckily, i kinda won back e money i lost.. so no huge losses.. but dat experience really left me shaken.. i swear i'm nv gonna play in-between.. when u realized u've lost everything, dat feeling u get, u'll rmb it for e rest of ur life.. i noe i will.. so from now on, small bets from me...


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now for a proper update..

studied ytd and today wif hua hua, val, carol, manu, ivan and chua.. e guys nv join us today cos chua has a paper and ivan studied till 4am last nite.. so yea.. chiong my POM cos i really wanna pass.. is shagged de lorx.. actually, study is nth to update de la.. nth interesting.. lolx..


but today, i went to visit db cos she working at airport.. i studying at airport.. yea well.. went up to look for her.. i finally got my alcoholic rush... lolx!! cos db served me so of course a cocktail for me pls!!! i ordered "fishy marine" or sth along dat line.. it's a mixture of tequila, blue curacao, lemon and lime.. pretty gd.. hahaha.. and e tequila's strong.. i'm so happy!!!


anyways, was enjoying my drink and i started studying.. yes, studying cos i got back my mood.. hahaha.. fish and co's a freaking south pole la!! it's so damn cold dere.. brrrr... i was shivering.. plus, i'm wearing shorts or in hua hua's words, "peggy's underwear".. =.= HAHA! anyway, drinking and being in a cold place meant one thing to me.. TOILET!! yea.. so i finished my drink, paid my bill and went to e toilet.. lolx!!


after dat is nth de la.. juz go hm... study, watch tv and use com.. gotta rest early.. so tml can continue.. ciao ppl.. and thks db for e drink!! =) cheerx

i'm traumatized for life..

today is stay-at-hm day.. cos i dun plan on going out.. haha.. some more, my relatives are coming over.. so yea.. i didnt go wif db to mrs wee's hse.. but dey came over to my hse.. played mahjong.. me, bc and kai combined lorx.. haha.. den ben and sq combine.. db and van one team.. poor zh played on his own.. and he kept losing.. so i guess he's kinda stressed.. his facial expression is damn funny de lorx.. HAHA.. overall, i won lyk 60cents from e mahjong session.. yes yes.. we played small.. lolx..


den headed over to bc's hse.. since it's so near, might as well go and bai nian.. hahaha.. but end up his parents not hm.. =.= so we played blackjack.. me and kai combined cos we no money.. hahaha.. lost abt 30cents.. keke.. db, van, zh and sq e big winners, i think.. crazy de.. dun even noe y dey so lucky.. and me, knowing dat i'm rather unlucky at gambling, always kept my bet at 10cents.. but i still lost.. hahaha.. but since it's 30cents.. oh well..


went over to kai's hse to get my books and toys (finally!).. e rest headed over to van's hse.. kai got dinner den me need to go back entertain my relatives.. hahahaha.. went back hm and saw my relatives playing blackjack too!!! keke.. so of course i join in.. lowest bet is 50cents so i bet 50cents all e way.. kekeke.. i'm a careful gambler...


won abt $5.. kekeke.. rather lucky.. =p den eat steamboat.. den i chiong maple a while cos i got 2x exp ma.. lvled twice so i'm lv 45 now.. muahahaha.. after i lvled to 45, i went back out to gamble again.. i maintained without any large wins or losses.. den kai came over cos he wanted to borrow board games from me.. so happens when he came, i played a $1 bet.. and WON!! so i spilt e winnings with kai seeing dat i lost his money at bc's hse.. lolx..


so today's overall win, $5.50.. i'm a happy girl now.. =D dis is gonna ensure my meal for tml!! so happy.. kekeke... i really shld go slp.. having a headache now.. hahaha.. bye bye and gd nitex

alrighty.. dere's going to be quite a few pics today cos everyone's going trigger happy wif our cameras ytd in sch.. lolx!!! mainly cos it's e last day of dis sem and most probably dis class is staying together (god forbids).. so yea, lotsa pics.. sorry abt e blurry pics though.. blame me for not being able to steady my hand.. hahahaha.. 1stly, i present e girls...

me and best fren, manu!!! hahaha.. really do hope we remain in the same class cos i really had a lot of fun wif her.. =D

oh ok.. gotta blog abt today cos i'm so so so happy thks to a certain mr soh.. hahaha!! BUT i think i shld start from dis morning seeing dat today is a very eventful day.. lolx.. here goes..


Morning:
Met up with boss, ivans (big and small), linus, bin, fion, carol, kuku and dhah at harborfront MRT station.. den we went up to meet hua hua for val's big surprise.. hahaha.. finally saw the famous W in person and i would say i'm really glad val's found sucha great guy!!! HAHA


neways, as we wanted to surprise val, we got best fren and dhah to bring her walk ard.. and she was blindfolded.. hahaha.. we brought all our soft toys (tootie, meh meh, charlie, yaya and bibi) placed dem in a circle with a bouquet of flowers in e middle.. so romantic of us rite? but e best part is when W came out, got down on one knee, strummed his guitar and sang a song for val.. it is so touching la!! and e gifts he gave her were so full of (his) meaning.. lolx..


den we went off to lunch, den playground, ate e bday cake and headed back to sch for F&B.. val loved e surprise we gave her cos after F&B, she gave us a hug!!! hahaa!!


Evening:
while e rest heads off to their date, little me is hiding in e lib, reading books again.. =.= actually, i was waiting for kai la... cos we supposed to go out.. and dat idiot did NOT tell me dat we were watching a movie so i didnt being enuff money!!! AND dat zh nv go cos he had to hlp his mom.. thus leaving me alone wif kai.. zzzzz... STUPID ZH!!!!!


while i was in e lib, kai called me and asked me where i was.. so i said lib la.. den he said, "eh, dey now selling flowers at discount lehx.. u wan anot??" $&#^%%#^&$&*&*%^&#^ GO DIE LA!!!! obviously dun wan la!!!! courting death ar!!!!! arsehole.... but seeing dat u paid for my dinner, i'll forgive u...


neways, met kai, den bc oso came along cos he meeting someone else at 8.. hahah.. ate dinner (kai paid for mine =D) den we went to watch movie (without bc).. protege is a gd movie... lotsa meaning in it.. hahaha.. and daniel wu is SOSOSOSOSOSOSO KAWAII!!!!! lolx.. i lyk e movie..
watch movie le den nth to do ma.. so we went hm.. lolx.. i'm kinda sick of seeing ppl holding flowers all ard me.. lolx.. makes me feel so "depressed".. HAHAHAHA... cos i nv receive any flowers dis yr and NO, i dun wan flowers at discounted price.. i swear i'll kill him... =.=


NOW:
i'm currently so blissful dat i could actually fly.. yes, i received his greeting card and after i read it, i was so touched dat i nearly cried.. and boy oh boy, suddenly everything juz feels so rite.. it's suddenly lyk warmth juz suddenly enveloped me and i feel so loved!!!


i love u so much dear baby dat i didnt care when u left me.. cos i noe dat u didnt mean to do dis.. i withstood everyone's misunderstanding cos i really love u and hope dat one day, u wld tell me u love me too.. and today, through ur greeting card, i can feel ur love so deeply dat i noe i'll nv forget dis feeling..


i noe i'll nv hate u cos u've nv done anything dat makes me hate u.. all i could do was to continue standing at e same spot, loving u lyk before and hoping dat u wld turn ard, and juz gif me a smile, an assurance.. haha.. it's funny how i've always loved to see u smile and how i would always try to make u smile..


all i wan to do is to thank you for making dis day so special to me.. love u bao bei.. =)

hmm... V day coming le.. actually, is tml la.. haha.. nv make anything for anyone except best fren, manu!! keke.. sorry kukus!! no time, no money.. >.< and nope, i dun have a special someone to celebrate with.. hur hur.. actually thinking of buying him a gift but i think will b quite weird ba.. so i sorta cancelled e idea.. and i dunno y i so stupid, hoping he would ask me out.. hahaah.. yea, lyk i said, dat's really stupid...


tml oso kuku val's bday lehx!!! we made it very special for you.. haha.. i'm sure u'll love it!!! going to vivo for e 1st time tml too!! so excited la!!! hhahaha... so val, tml we hlp u celebrate ur bday, when september come, dun forget me and hua hua lehx!!!! lolx


hmm.. dis yr quite diff le... cannot ask db out le.. haha.. she has her donut hubby le.. den van and ben dun think can ask out ba.. cos dey need to study, i think.. dunno wat to do.. if really nth, den i juz go hm and play maple... =.= or mayb slp lorx.. hahaha.. sibei no life sia...


db told me dat even though she has gray le, doesnt mean dat i cannot find her.. but for me rite, i think i shld not go find her lorx.. cos after all, bf is more important de.. hahaha.. cos he might be her other half for e rest of her life ma.. so i auto a bit.. keke.. those important days dun find her.. db grow up liao.. more mature le.. ya, i noe u having hard time balancing frenz and bf.. dun worry.. i wun gif u too much trouble de.. hahahaha...


ben ar ben, when can go out lehx?? o lvls dis yr wor.. van oso... haha.. impt yr wor.. if e 2 of u wan to watch movie, i on de.. hhahahaha.. but muz see when la.. i now going to exams le.. zzzzz


and hor, those kukus ar.. say until separate le wun meet again lyk dat.. will still meet de!!! so everyone dun sad kz!! and hor, our kbox session run where liao ar??? say until now still haven go.. hahaha.. after exams we go hao ma???


i noe i being very random la.. but den again, i'm feeling quite jittery (sp?).. dun even noe y.. hahah.. ppl is wait for guardian angels, me? i dunno wat i wan.. hahaha.. i wan someone who irritates and loves me de lorx.. hahah.. dun ask me abt e irritate part.. i oso dunno y... not irritate until i wan to kill ppl la.. more lyk.. aiya, dunno la!! but i'll noe when i finally find him de.. keke..

it muz be a sign from heaven above for me to NOT do e peer eva for F&B.. so lame la;!!! i tried doing it last nite, i ended up deleting it 3 times.. den now i tried to do again, i deleted it TWICE!!!! wth man.. i cant even complete ONE peer eva la!! so pissed off.. tonite den try again.. zzz...


eh ppl, MUZ VOTE FOR MANU FOR IG ELECTIONS!!!!!!!!! SHE WILL BE A VERY GOOD PRESIDENT.. HOW I NOE? COS I'M HER BEST FREN!!!!! hhahahahha.. manu, dun say i nv help u promote.. =p


dat shld be all ba.. oh, i bought 2 pairs of shoes for CNY.. *happy happy* =D ciao~

i'm finally convinced that dis is definitely a small world.. or rather, s'pore is a very small place... haha.. was toking to clarence (my soci grp mate).. den he suddenly asked me, " by the way, do you know Chua Khar Loo?" HAHAHAHA


yes, clarence my dear, i noe her.. she's my dearest cousin who happens to be sick today (courtesy of clarence).. lolx!!! it is sucha small world la.. i met another one of toilet's fren le.. dis time, is not her pri sch classmate.. now is her cell grp mate.. haha.. clarence got a shock when i said we were cousins la.. lolx..


turns out dat he say my pic while browsing through toilet's friendster profile.. i think another girl in my soci class oso noe toilet la.. i forgot e name though.. >.< toilet ar toilet.. y do u seem to be everywhere?? haha.. i didnt noe dat ur connections so extensive lorx.. lolx!!


looking forward to cousins gathering during CNY.. haha.. 3rd of CNY come my hse play mahjong??? very long nv meet le lehx.. and hor, take care!!!! get well soon alrite!! ahhaha..


i think i go rest le.. damn shagged lorx.. last nite slept late.. keke..

was toking to bc and kai juz now abt relationships.. seeing dat valentine is lyk 9 days away.. (no, i haven got meself a date!! = [ sad.. lolx) anyways, so we were kind of toking abt lyk how a guy shld treat his gf and all.. so bc was toking abt working if he's in a relationship so he can support his gf financially.. haha.. e girl he lyks can spend.. keke.. den kai suddenly spouted out his golden words..


ladies and gentlemen, the words u wld nv hear.. the most meaningfull words from a least expected source...







*drumroll*







"a woman is for you to love, not for you to pamper."



wah.. me and bc got a huge shock la!!! but wat he said was really true lorx.. i mean, i'm a girl myself la.. (yes, i'm a girl.. dun be surprised.. =.=) and i would really wan my bf (if i have one) to juz love me lorx.. i dun need him to pamper and gif in to me all e time de.. juz simple caring love is enuff for me.. =D


lolx.. kai really reminded me of wat being in a relationship means lorx.. as a guy, yea, pampering ur girl once in a while is ok.. but loving her would be beta.. and ladies, dun expect to be pampered all e time.. pamper ur guy too!! dat's a way to maintain e relationship ba.. lolx..


for me, i've loved and lost.. have regrets and heartache but i still moved on.. mayb my latest relationship would require more time for me to move on but i believe i will.. i admit i still have feelings for him.. ahahaha.. but can say i too immature to be in a relationship ba.. psh...


enuff abt dat le.. today is quite an unhappy day.. mainly is cos of someone who decides to take things into his/her own hands and submitted extra work for e F&B report.. and it's lyk dat SOMEONE did it without consulting e rest of e grp.. i dun even wan to care wat has been added.. i'm more concerned of dis person's responsibility.. i think dat person went too far le.. it's lyk showing no respect to e others la.. it's a group work!!! juz cos e tutor say it's good means we muz put it in.. dun be so idiotic as to hide behind e tutor can.. juz cos i nv say anything doesnt mean i'm pissed off..


i'm pissed off worse dat u made manu cried.. damn u to hell and back.. fuck u man...

finally completed my F&B.. whee~~ lolx.. took me dunno how many hours to compile my recipes la.. so happy lorx.. finally can relax a bit.. so i went blog hopping.. as usual, some ppl nv update.. val updated on her MOS.. lolx.. so funny.. and very interesting to read her blog..


manu oso updated with lotsa pics.. lolx.. i think is she and her BA ppl.. keke.. my stupid laptop cant access carol's blog.. zzz.. raudhah always has e best blogskins but it's a pity she doesnt blog dat often.. lolx..


oh.. came by dis blog which seriously tickled me to death.. it's abt me de la.. can see dat.. and e author of e blog actually thinks dat he/she can actually dictate where i can or cannot go... HAHA.. wat? juz becos he/she says i cant go to a certain place, i would die if i went dere? i dun think so ba.. to quote from the blog, "once again, u can go down to ****** la".. (i'm listening to db by not putting down e name.. lolx!)


can u imagine my mirth when i read dat line.. i'm lyk, "OMG, dis is so funny!" but seriously, i'm not going to listen to him/her.. yea, i'm so "glad" i'm allowed to go dere but does dat mean i WANT to go dere? i think not.. haha..


i've said before to many ppl.. "dun try to control me" and i mean it.. juz becos he/she allowed me to go dere, i'm not grateful nor thankful.. it means totally nth to me.. i am, after all, my own person.. funny how things always gets twisted up.. all becos too much has been said..


i shall only say dis one last time.. put dat matter to rest.. it might explode into a worse problem if we keep toking abt it.. dat's all..


ps. i'm still laughing

hmm.. went for e tp-bp mentoring today with kai.. planning to join dis CCA.. haha.. i think i might learn to lyk dis CCA alot.. e members dere went out their way to make me feel welcome and e kids dere were juz fantastic.. haha.. quite playful la but hey, dat's how kids behave..


i think it's not bad ba.. e feel it gave me was e same i had when i joined library in sec sch.. so i guess i'll b super committed to it and put alot of effort in it lorx.. it's almost lyk wat i wan for my CCA la.. it might seem bookish of me but i really enjoy teaching ba.. haha... so dis CCA kinda gave me e chance to teach..


i was damn serious during e interview when i said i didnt care abt SEAL points.. it's e experience dat counts ba.. it makes me a beta person overall.. haha.. and it's juz one session and i've already got so much to say.. lolx!


bought my CNY clothes.. both long sleeve de.. yea, i'm into long sleeve.. oh, and a black skirt too!! and bought e hua yang shao nian shao nv DVD too!!! wheee!!! oh.. new mahjong table's in the hse!! foldable some more!! haha.. so e min we set up e table, my whole family sat down and played.. keke.. i won!! i'm e big winner~~~ haha..


played mahjong all e way till midnight la.. haha.. den finally stop.. so tired.. had a great day lorx.. really glad dat kai intro me to mentoring.. looking forward to e nxt mentoring but now, concentrate on exams!!!!


sheesh.. i'm so shagged.. guess i'll ask manu wat has to be done for F&B tml.. mon deadline le!! OMG la!! but for now, i'm off to bed!! nitex~~

lolx.. listening to nandu's songs.. in case u're wondering who's nandu, he's my sec 3 classmate.. migrated to england.. glad to hear dat he's doing very well dere.. hey, dat guy's going to uni ok.. so fast la!!


emailing him now and den.. haha.. and oh boy, he's still singing.. ok la.. not singing.. more lyk rapping.. i still rmb he's such a HUGE fan of eminem la.. haha.. i'm so darn proud of him la!! i'm listening to his songs now.. haha.. him and his frenz call themselves Assasins.. i kinda lyk their music.. lolx.. mainly, i'm supporting my gd fren who's currently miles away la.. miss him so so so so much!!


wonder when he'll come back.. i rmb in sec 3, i performed onstage wif him once.. lolx.. we sang a Hindi duet.. lolx.. HINDI SONG OK!!! i took me quite some time to master the song though.. haha.. if i rmb correctly, my class won 2nd prize though i seriously think we shld have been 1st.. haha.. ok la.. i'm biased..


had lotsa of fun when we're together.. me, nandu, cat, nikki, don and e others.. haha.. i missed playing soccer at e void deck.. heck.. i even miss kicking e light bulb down.. lolx!! i oso miss lazing ard in nandu's room, singing Like a Rose by A1.. ahahaha.. yea, all of us would juz lie on e floor and start singing.. it's a wonder we didnt start a singing grp.. haha..


all e wonderful memories in sec 3.. alas, all gd things muz come to an end.. nandu migrated and dere goes one really gd fren.. haha.. at least we stayed in contact.. i rmb dat time when he called me all e way from england, hell, i was so excited la!! and we chatted for quite some time too.. but now is mostly emails.. hee hee..


to those who are interested in listening nandu's music, go to http://www.soundclick.com/bands/pagemusic.cfm?bandID=628752


i swear it's not bad.. haha.. though pls take note dat e language is kinda... @#%$@%#^*#^ lolx!! i kinda lyk e song So Into You.. so listen alrite.. i go off le.. ciao~

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