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history talks abt bloody sunday.. me, i talk abt BORING sunday!! was told to tidy my room.. cool.. i'm currently filming mission impossible: the cleaning of my room!! it's common knowlegde dat my room is SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO messed up dat it's impossible to tidy it up.. zzzz...


dat sk go remind me dat i ate 2 packets of skittles so i'm to b very careful of toothache.. sigh... i'm still high on sugar.. juz ate chocolate ice cream (ben & jerry's!!).. yea.. my mission to fatten myself up is going pretty well.. manu!! prepare to collect ur sirloin!!!!!


hlped ivan complete his socio quiz le.. not very gd marks but den again, it's quite ok la.. haha..


kai kai... i wan my toys................ u say will buy for me de.............................


i'm so damn bored dat i'm crapping man..... cannot play maple cos my dad will scold.. zzz.. i told him i'm doing hw.. =.= yea.. blogging's my hw.. but at least i'm not doing mission impossible..


SO BORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRED!!!!!!!!!!


go bathe le.. beta than doing nth.. shall stay in dere for 2 hrs.. ciao~~

last nite.. stayed out e whole nite.. went to watch death note marathon(sp?).. haha.. so nice la!! went wif db, gray, ben, zh and sk.. e usual ppl la.. gor nv go.. zzz.. cos he scared his mother dun allow.. van scared got work den going bday celebration so nv go oso... haha.. who else ar.. oh.. zx dun wan.. sy say he only wan to watch death note 2... keke.. erm.. oh one more person oso nv go.. i beta not mention names or else he'll say i "comman" bad things abt him.. =.=


anyways.. met wif ben at interchange.. den sk and zh at mrt station.. db and gray meeting us at ps.. so we took train and got dere lyk abt 9 15pm.. lolx.. dat sk still go buy tic tac.. end up we a little late.. lolx.. but not very late la...


met db and gray outside cinema.. went in, sit dere.. wah piang eh.. FRONT ROW SUX!!! have to strain our necks to watch la.. after e 1st movie, my neck very sore la.. lucky sk hlp me massage.. haha.. thks bian tai gor gor.. =p watch death note 1 liao got ard 30mins break ma.. so we go buy chips, nachos and popcorns.. lolx.. influenced by L.. but den again, i needed sweets to keep me awake... haha.. i ate 2 packets of skittles(sp?) la..


watch death note 2.. damn funny ok.. haha.. i dun noe which one beta la.. hmm.. 1st one more impressive but 2nd one funnier.. lolx.. laugh lyk mad lorx.. buay tahan sia.. a pity dat L and light died.. =( i lyk dem... so clever lorx.. zzz.. misa oso very ke lian.. go watch e movie and u'll noe wat i mean.. keke..


after movie le.. nth to do le.. go gray's hse to play risk.. lolx.. me, db and ben one team.. hahah.. gray, sk and zh on another team.. it's quite a close game la.. some more some of us is juz learn de.. but i killed gray in e end.. lolx.. by e time we win, already 6am liao.. so go hm lorx.. me, db and ben took cab.. so i reach hm ard 6 30am.. went to slp and woke up at 12 30.. funny is i not tired at all.. i stayed up e whole nite and i dun feel anything.. too much sugar man..


juz now went blog hopping.. came across sth interesting.. is ben tell me de la.. so i went to check it out.. turns out dat db lost a gor.. =.= i got nth to say.. juz dat i less one competition.. lolx.. db got 5 gors de.. now one is her stead, e other is dis guy who "disowned" her.. so now she got 3 gors and 1 jie.. lolx.. closer ties man.. =D


i noe sound bad la.. but den again, i dun care de.. none of my business.. haha.. juz dat i took some time to figure out wat dey were saying.. cant blame me la... blame bad english.. keke... nth much liao la.. go vaccum(sp?) floor le... ciao~


death note 2!!! from left: L, Light and Misa

woo!! i noe i haven been updating for a few days.. dat's cos of e earthquake in taiwan, i think.. it kinda spoilt my internet connection cos i'm a singnet user... super super slow.. zzz.. i only can play maple.. ahaha.. at least nv take away my only entertainment.. =p


well, for some updates over e past few days...


sch: i've completed my POM part.. did e script for jap project.. marketing, i did e pics.. and asked manu to hlp me type report on e-marketing.. reason being dat i suck at reports and i'm doing e website.. yea.. so million thks to manu for helping me out!! =D


thurs: had a guild outing!!! in case u're wondering.. i started playing maple again.. haha.. main reason i started playing was cos wen contacted me and told me dere would be a guild outing so i oughta me online.. lolx.. supposed to have kbox and steamboat de.. but too little for kbox so cancelled.. haha.. got 11 ppl at e steamboat la.. got me, van, zh, db and gray (e piggies).. den got vincent (wen), huan (caitou), lydia (pinkd0ll), pk (ex guild member), fang (sp? oso ex guild member famously known as yao) and water... lolx...


so fun!! meet new frenz wor.. water is ard my age.. lydia is zh's classmate.. den wen, huan, pk and yao are e older ones.. i think ard mid-20s to early-30s.. very fun la.. eat a lot.. den me, db, water and zh had beer.. keke.. we bought a jug la... so eat and drink, not bad!!


at 1st not much toking.. den slowly all started toking and our table's quite noisy.. but very fun lorx.. haha.. all very fun-loving de.. =D keke.. den ard 9 plus 10 db bring out her cards.. =.= she everywhere oso bring cards wor.. lolx! so play dai di (big 2) lorx.. haha.. at 1st is 4 girls play de.. me, db, water and van.. den zh say he wan to trash us so van let him play.. =.= end up is WE trash him la.. hahaha!!


we found out dat playing dai di wif wen is very, VERY stressful.. lolx.. cos he keep toking and giving false info.. wah!! haha.. very funny lorx.. even when he losing, he still can shout, "wah win liao win liao!!" lolx... play all e way until 11pm.. all in all, very fun.. haha


took cab hm.. wen, gray, pk and yao went wif huan cos he driving.. water waiting for relative to fetch her... me, zh, db, van and lydia waiting for cab.. zzz.. bo cab la.. den call cab oso no use de.. fucking crap lorx.. zzz.. end up 11 15pm den got 1 cab.. me, db and zh go 1st.. cos my parents call to scold liao.. van and lydia waiting for another cab.. turns out dey live a few blocks apart.. haha..


fri: nth much la.. socio project and all... yamakasi is a damn gd movie and it's funny ok.. haha.. den at nite play maple.. keke.. water and zh hlp me hunt cursed dolls.. den huan, yao, db and ice all come over wor.. me and ice dun tok much.. ahaha.. i think she dun lyk me but it's great dat she came over to hlp.. =) db hlp a while den go off.. den huan and yao training dere.. i join their party.. yao say very slow so she went to perion.. me and huan left.. huan train me a while den go le.. thks to huan, water, ice, db and zh!!!!


den i realised not enuff cursed dolls!!! pshh.. i count wrong wor.. den i ask sy to lend me his mage to go hunt.. ahaha.. hunt until he wan to slp i still haven hunt finish.. so he bring his sin over to hlp oso.. den he log in my acc to hlp me transfer e dolls.. keke.. thks so much, sy!!!!


dat lydia ar.. log in a while to say she got stomack ache.. lolx!! she thinks is from e lala.. pshh.. i eat le nth wrong so i told her mayb it's e beef.. cos i nv eat beef.. haha.. den after a while, she say she offline le.. haha.. diao la.. come in say stomach ache and go off.. =.= keke.. but i oso going offline la.. so no harm done.. lolx!


today: oki.. nth much today.. juz dat i going out tonite.. e whole nite.. keke.. watch movie!! whee!!! den i took afternoon nap.. but msges keep waking me up... sigh.. sk say bo car.. zzzz.. no choice lorx... looking forward to tonite.. meeting ben at 8pm.. den sk and zh meeting us at 8 30pm.. db and gray went off to ps 1st.. haha.. most prob is go dere from yishun.. =)


i guess dat's all ba.. i nv go for class outing on thurs cos of guild outing.. and ytd didn't go steamboat cos my parents dun allow and i no money.. sorry to e kukus!! >.<

woo.. dese are some pics taken last nite from e xmas party.. lolx.. i dunno abt u.. but i'm laughing all e way while uploading dese pics.. cos it's too funny.. haha..




























look at dis!! good food!! who can resist man.. i swear i've gotten fatter.. zzz.. manu's getting her 1st sirloin from me.. haha


























all e prezzies under e xmas tree!!! so cool rite.. dere's so many la!! xmas has nv been beta!!



























lolx... e start of e lucky draw.. e adults are seated nicely at e sofa, awaiting their prize.. dey didn't noe dey had to perform a task b4 getting their prizes.. muahahaha.. e cousins are in for a show!!







































keke.. dis is M2.. well.. all my grandma's son are called M1 to M4.. lolx.. and their wives are F1 to F4.. lolx.. easier la.. so M2 here, has to perform a task for our grandma in order for her to get her prize.. lolx.. actually is all M1 to M4 de.. but my dad and uncles sabo-ed him.. lolx!! so here's a funny face!!









































my grandma got her prize!! it's maggie noodles.. lolx!!

































HAHAHA.. here's my mom!! F1.. she has to do e happy, angry, sad and euphoria faces.. lolx.. dis is e angry one.. zzz.. now u noe y i'm so scared of her.. hahaa.. but is damn funny.. i think she got a box and plastic bags.. lolx!











































heh hehx.. here's my dad, M1... his task is to sing a xmas song.. lolx.. i swear.. up till now, i still couldn't figure out wat he was singing.. =.=







































F2!! lolx.. she is advertising e toilet roll.. hahaha.. she's gd.. potential saleswoman ok... HAHAHA





























here's gu ma.. eating wasabi on top of bread.. see eat so fast la.. i got a shock man.. she say very nice some more.. wah piang.. it's WASABI!!! later we found out it's cos most of e wasabi dropped into e bowl.. =.= she cheated!! oh well.. seeing she's my well-loved gu ma who brought me up, i'll let her pass.. haha











































M4 imitating a family member.. i think he's imitating gugu.. but it looks more lyk an orang utan though... =.=































WOO HOO!!! E HIGHLIGHT OF E NIGHT!!! 1st prize, COFFEE won by F3!!! haah.. her task? is to act a "breaking up scene between lovers" wif her son.. lolx!! is zhang's idea so he has to act.. haha.. he's e female, and she's e male.. zhang is asking for to stay by offering her coffee!! hahahahahaha!! it's M2's idea.. damn funny.. he suddenly knelt down and said, "i'll give u coffee!" lolx!!































boo!! dat's me doing e bunny hop!! T-T i guessed wrongly.. it's guang who gave me my prezzie.. but i said toilet.. zzzzz.. haha.. y no bunny ears? y santa's hat? hmm...






































keke.. gugu oso got.. she guessed we gave her pants wen it's actually a bag.. haha.. forfeit!!!! she had to do a chickie dance!!! lolx!! i think she did it quite a few times cos we weren't satisfied.. alrite.. we're EVIL!!!! hahaha

















overall, e party has been great.. everyone loves their present and everyone's happy.. keke.. so it's me back to maple~~ ciao

1st of all, merry xmas to everyone!! (though it seemed a little too late)


was busy today.. changed my computer desk.. went for xmas party at my aunt's hse.. lolx..


speaking of e party.. had a lot of fun.. got most of e adults to do really stupid stuff.. poor me got to do a forfeit cos i cant guess who gave me my xmas prezzie.. =( dat toilet tricked me.. zzz.. so i got to hop ard e living room and say, "bunny".. major zzz... i feel so stupid.. zhang has to sing a song.. lolx.. update more on wat e adults did tml.. going to slp le.. ciao

juz finished bathing.. while i was in e shower, feelings overwhelmed me.. before i noe it, i started crying.. and it was den i realised how much i love him..


i'm lyk a little girl.. so fickled-minded.. i didn't dare to commit.. missing him, loving him has been e most consistent feeling i've ever experienced.. i'm glad we broke up.. cos it made me see clearly wat my feelings truely are.. i dunno abt him.. i'm juz gonna keep waiting.. and waiting and waiting.. i dun noe if he still loves me.. all i can do is wonder..


i cannot promise him forever.. i dun noe wat e future holds.. dat's wat i'm always afraid of.. haiz.. dunno le.. one min i'm happy, nxt min i'm sad.. wat e hell is wrong wif me..

i'm lazy to update... so many things to update.. haha.. got class de x'mas party... my family chalet de pics nv upload.. den got wat else ar? oh yea.. my crabby meal.. lolx.. aiya.. another day den update using photos la.. let's tok abt ytd~~


went down to soccer after lyk dunno how many months.. uncle says it's 4 months.. dunno.. haha.. he say sy oso dunno how many months nv go soccer le.. so i told him sy "retired".. =.= as usual, toked to uncle.. bloody hell la.. dey fixing e basketball court at tampines so we had to walk to simei so e guys can play.. zzz.. wat's more, simei's basketball court dun have shops ard one lorx!!! dere goes my ice cream la!!!! humphz....


uncle always goes off at 5 plus de.. so he told me nxt time i go, he buy me ice cream.. =D hoho.. my fave past time.. lolx.. eat ice cream and watch dem play... uncle nxt yr 60 years old liao.. still can play wor.. not bad.. muz rmb his bday is on 16 Oct.. haha.. he say dis yr he bday still come down soccer sia.. =.= and i bet none of e guys knew abt it.. haha.. only me and db noe.. =p


hmm.. tml is family de x'mas party.. gift exchange's gonna b fun cos dis yr got forfeit.. muahahaha.. looking forward to it.. =)


guess shld be all ba.. ciao

sometimes i really wonder y i bother.. i mean lyk, if ppl wan to wallow in self pity, let dem go ahead la! but silly me need to try ONE LAST time to drill into someone's head dat he's feeling sorry for himself.. end result? let's juz say i nearly died from excessive loss of blood...


i only asked u whether u wan to go watch movie wif us.. u said no.. so fine.. i ask u y.. if you said cos u feel dat is wasting money, i still can understand.. but y muz add, "and i dun wan to be extra." wat e hell la... we r frenz lehx.. where e fuck does extra come in??? self pity oso not to dis extend lorx...


u everytime say u lonely.. who not lonely sia.. if lonely, go find company le.. wat? sit dere and ppl will come find u? dun b crazy la.. ever heard of e word "initiative"??? dun understand? check dictionary...


and e funny thing is you wld say stuff lyk, "i cant find joy in anything.." obviously u cant feel joy cos u've been too busy feeling sorry for yourself!!!


regarding wat u said to me.. i said i wouldn't care what PPL SAID TO ME.. i did NOT say i wont WORRY for ppl... dere's a HUGE HUGE HUGE difference u noe... obviously ppl change.. if not will end up lyk u.. self pity...


juz so u noe, e earth does not revolve ard u.. if u cant buck up, hey, dun blame us if u got left behind.. dun say wat we dun care abt u le and all dat shit.. u r e one who didn't wan to be extra.. but e funny thing is, u MADE yourself e extra by keep saying dat... contradicting man....


u beta think b4 u say anything... everyone has their own life.. if u no life, den do sth abt it.. wat's e point of complaining.. complain liao still no life.. if u really treat us as frenz, den treat us as frenz... say until lyk we're e ones who made u unhappy wen is u urself got problem..


guess dat shld be all le... ciao

lolx.. i'm back hm again to bathe.... haha.. den going back again.. today ar.. nth much la.. nv slp last nite so i whole afternoon slp lorx.. den toilet dey all playing majong.. haha..


anyways, only interesting thing today was dat we went cycling wen e rain stopped.. it was raining e whole day... so we cycle ard pasir ris park lorx.. den my bro leading e way.. go dunno where la.. along e way got see pony.. haha.. den lyk wan to rain le.. so i say if can, ride faster.. den at some part of e park, my bro fell.. den fen fell.. den ling oso fell down.. toilet and min min oso.. weird thing was, dey fell at e same place one after e other... haha.. see e 5 of dem fall, me and guang noe liao.. so we SLOWLY ride past.. den RAIN!! REALLY HEAVY RAIN!!!


zzz.. had to stay under e shelter until it doesn't rain so heavily lorx... all of us totally wet la... den e bloddy thing was, wen we got back to e chalet, it was drizzling la... WTH!! y cannot rain heavily AFTER we got back???


i dunno if i'll get sick anot la.. but i confirm will catch a cold de... haha.. but it was exciting... gtg le... ciao!!


will post pics de...



i dunno y.. but going back to dat place, brings back our wonderful memories.. and i cant help missing u all over again...

haha.. today is 1st day of chalet and i'm at hm now to post... hyuk hyuk.. cos i came back hm to bathe.. dun say i bo liao.. it's more convenient cos dere's too many ppl le.. haha..


1st, all met up and wei drove us to e chalet.. all e normal stuff of unloading stuff and all.. only thing is dat we dun seem to be going to chalet for 3 days.. we look lyk we're going to stay dere for a month!! haha.. imagine e things we brought man...


fast foward to bbq... lotsa alcohol(oh boy!!!) and lotsa food(YUMMY!!).. haha.. sk, bc, zh, ben, db and gray came.. all of us drank beer and all.. i drank 3 cans of beer.. haha.. and no, i'm not drunk.. haha.. mostly we played card games and majong la.. den ard 10 45 dey leave le.. cos me and my cousins going to KTV!! woo hoo!!


sang from 11 till 2 am.. den we went hm to bathe.. so here i am, typing today's events.. nth much la.. planning to go back, drink some more and play cards and majong wif my cousins.. haha..


i really hope dat piggy club will have a chalet soon.. lyk a REAL one.. wif me, db, van, ben, gray, sk, bc, zh, sq and mayb some others lyk zx, sy, jk... and e list goes on.. i dun wan e all boys one la.. not fun de.. mayb we can stay up and drink!! woo.. i love drinking!! haha.. ok ok ok?? was great to see u guys today~~


keke.. muz prepare to go back le.. ciao

hmm.. today, went out wif e piggy club!! well, juz half of dem.. haha.. so we met up at e interchange dis morning.. dere's me, db, ben and zh.. we were waiting for sq.. den wait for some time le he still nv come so we call him lorx.. end up he say db told him dat it was nxt thurs and dat he's in sch.. =.= so we went off without him lorx..


e 4 of us went to Marina Square de kbox.. haha.. sing from 12 - 3.. no voice liao.. cos mostly me and db sing de.. lolx.. 3 whole hrs lehx.. but ben and zh oso got sing.. wah liao.. ben's voice very high-pitched lorx.. even higher than mine.. pei fu pei fu.. haha.. den sing hao le go yoshinoya(sp?) to eat lunch.. wah.. we sit dere for 2 hrs la.. cos db brought cards.. ended up playing dai di(big 2) dere.. haha.. den gray msged db say meet pasir ris play pool.. i oso called sk to come along.. along e way, i keep looking at bridal photos la.. haha.. and no, i dun wanna get married.. juz find e photos very artistic..


fast foward to pasir ris.. met gray dere.. den headed over to downtown to play pool.. haha.. we actually sneaked ben into e place la.. he's underage.. hyuk hyuk.. anyways, we oso taught ben how to play.. db still dun dare to play cos no confidence.. haiz.. nvm.. i wait until u have confidence le den we play together ok? go take secret lesson frm ur donut.. haha..


ard 7 sk den come.. =.= so we played for 1 more hr.. at 8 den leave.. den cos db and ben wan to noe how's sk and his gf ma.. so i help dem ask cos dey dun dare to.. =.= lolx! den found out dat dey broke up wor.. dere goes my er sao.. (ps. sk's my 2nd god bro) but den, e reason was understandable.. and i told sk not to be too sad and commit suicide.. lolx! he live opposite my block nia so if he die, i'll noe.. haha.. it's juz a joke though..


went to mac cos gray hungry.. didn't feel lyk eating so i juz sat dere and play dai di wif sk, ben and zh.. i keep winning at 1st.. but later dun have le.. haha.. den later db take over me.. so i chiong my F&B lorx.. since tml got test.. i chiong frm chap 1 to 5.. still got chap 6 to go.. den wen i study, i'll get really tired, den irritated, den really sick de.. dat's wat happened.. zh told me dun b so stressed.. i say,"it's my normal reaction" haha.. ppl think i very relaxed, exams still can read storybooks.. actually, i got study de.. juz dat my method is different.. i tend to study e nite before exams.. it's a habit of mine.. so i'll tend to b quite weak during exams period cos not enuff slp and irregular meals.. i didn't eat dinner..


while i was studying, e rest playing dai di la.. den ard 10 30 keep all e cards den go hm... by dat time i very quiet le.. dun even wan to tok cos very tired.. all of dem thot i sick.. actually, a little bit la.. at bus stop, gray take e bus opposite of our bus stop, db, zh and ben took bus 12.. left me and sk take bus 21.. den sk say, "u ok anot? ur face is white lehx.. not red.." lolx! i think he meant i'm pale.. i guess i was getting sick ba.. haha.. headache, cold and tired.. zzz.. no wonder i'm white instead of red.. plus, i'm wearing white today.. hyuk hyuk..


so here i am, after sk sent me hm.. sitting here, blogging abt today while waiting for my hair to dry.. still having dat bloody headache.. and tired.. zzz.. tonite slp le tml wake up continue revision.. i still rmb wat i revised ok...


Freshwater fish: Catfish, Carp, Trout
Brakish fish: Eel, Sea bass
Seawater fish: Grouper, Sardine, ???
lolx! i only forgot one seawater fish!!



saturated, monounsaturated and polyunsaturated..
see.. i rmb e oil and fats...



beef grade: Prime, Choice, Select
veal grade: Prime, Choice, Good, Utility
lamb grade: Prime, Choice, Standard, Utility
hyuk hyuk.. dat's chap 2!! hmm.. wat else...



univalves: abalone, (i forgot it's name but i noe wat it looks lyk! >.<)
bivalves: cockles, clams, mussels, scallop (haha!! i rule!!)



got onion family, cabbage family and potato family..
haha.. actually got more la.. but cannot expect me to list down...



offals: ROCKY MOUNTAIN OYSTERS!!! (testicles), brain, liver, kidney, tongue, tripe, and so on...



venison: elk, deer, antelope.. hur hur.. it's furred game which are not rabbits or wild boars..



marbling of beef, pork, veal and lamb muz b white!!! beef's marbling can b creamy in color.. meat shld be firm!!!



looks lyk i'm doing a revision online.. and i swear i'm not reading off my notes!! it's all in my brain!!!



coffee: long black, short black, espresso, latte, cuppucino, double espresso.. and so on...
tea: black tea, green tea, oolong tea... hur hur..



turkey: wild turkeys are colorful.. farm turkeys are white.. (it's FYI... will not be tested.. haha!)



FYI, FYI = For Your Information..


haha.. i noe a lot of randomness.. studies make me mad.. dat's y i dun lyk studying.. lalala.. i think my hair dry le.. finally can slp... whee!! gd nitex!! ciao

lalalalala.. woke up early in e morning and feel happiieeee!!! haha.. holidays' coming!! one more paper to go and i'm freeeeeeeee~~ i'm crazy.. =.=


anyways... was gaming last nite.. haha.. i was training alone de.. den got dis warhero guy add me in party.. so we train together lo.. den we started toking.. haha.. den one thing led to another, we became frenz!! lolx.. he's a m'sian.. so i told him we are neighbours.. haha! so we ended up toking more than training la.. he's working as desktop publishing artist.. cool huh.. both of us have common interest too!! haha.. i told him dat i'm a bookworm.. den he said he lyks reading too!! cept dat he reads comics.. i read storybooks.. haha.. tok a lot la.. cant possibly write all down.. lolx.. manu got her shuai ge.. i got myself a gaming buddy!! lolx.. but i dunno his name.. sigh.. forgot to ask him.. but he say if today no OT, he'll meet me online again.. =D


no, i'm not interested in him.. juz find it fun dat i can make frenz from other countries.. i oso knew one guy from australia.. but now dun tok much.. cos he busy.. sigh.. looking for a canadian fren.. lolx! mayb i'll go to chat centre to scout a bit.. haha.. i met quite a few frenz on e net.. and no, i dun think dey will cheat me cos all met in games de.. so we're juz fren.. haha.. but looking forward to toking to warhero tonite.. hope he dun have OT..


well.. gtg le.. need to study a bit den i leave for kbox le!! haha.. i noe exams.. but wanna relax.. cos i'm in a holiday mood le~~ ciao

oh well.. wasn't feeling happy dese few days over certain things.. den had dis sicko who tags my blog juz to say bad things abt me lyk my english sux? oh well, my english was always a borderline pass.. try outspeak me in chinese den.. i'll bomb u to hell and back again.. juz went i was a little too stressed up over sch work and a certain idiot, ben came along.. haha.. and wat he told me, was wat nobody else wld have said to me.. not even my closest fren db..


i guess ben noticed i was stressed so he toked to me and all.. den we mentioned dat someone and ben was quite angry over dat.. haha.. and he said dis, "Typical. Straight descendant from orangutan probably, where everybody else have a trace of monkey blood, they are e straight descendants of monkeys. Cant expect human behavior from ppl like tt.." LOLX!! dat seriously got me laughing and e weight sort of felt lighter on my shoulders.. trust ben to say dis kind things.. and wen he said dey, he meant certain idiots.. lolx!


and wen i told him he's good, his reply was, "Of course, ur looking at prospective future lawyer for a son.." haha!! and it's not wat he said.. it's e way he said it dat made it sound so true and comical dat it got me laughing... haha.. super proud of him.. even though he's my god son, he's even more mature than certain ppl.. lolx..


he's truely e bright spark in my life.. always able to bring laughter wen i'm down.. haha.. i think he's e only one who can make me feel so much beta ba... e bond we have.. haha.. thank you ben for standing up for me! =) u're a really gd son and i dun regret knowing u..


now dat i'm focused.. TIME TO STUDY!!! haha.. ciao

been studying for econs.. finally finish.. nxt up is POM.. den can finally rest.. phew.. my hse looked lyk a tornado(sp?) juz came by.. wat e hell la... my pens are everywhere and papers are flying all over e place.. haha.. but i du care.. juz let dem fly.. i need a break anyway.. haha.. went to db's blog, den went back to my old blogs to read thks to db.. haha.. so much drama in my life and i can still see some similarities between me in e past and now.. haha.. still haunted by unwanted dreams.. and creating more fantasies by daydreaming..


reading my past postings allow me to see myself in a different light.. i didn't noe i was so drama in e past!! haha.. mayb i still am.. lolx! all those happy and sad memories really taught me a lot of stuff.. haha.. my mind's in a mess rite now cos i'm thinking of a lot of things.. need to sort it out 1st b4 i can start on POM.. haha.. shldn't take quite long ba.. dis time, i'm seriously staying single until i noe wat e hell is wrong wif me.. no point hurting other ppl.. blah blah blah.. i dunno wat e hell i toking abt la.. haha.. i locked myself up again.. dis time is at hm.. not in e toilet.. keke..


guess i beta to prepre lunch.. so i can continue my POM later... piggy club was once my life and i'll nv forget dem.. the kukus are now in my life and i sure am having e time of my life.. hope to see e piggies soon and i will definitely see e kukus tml.. =)


ciao

maybe it's juz me.. mayb it's not.. i oso dunno wat e hell dis is happening to me.. haha.. so many thots, so many memories.. starting to have nightmares again.. really dun wan to close my eyes and go back dere.. but i dun think i can stop it.. mayb by saying it out, i invited e memories back.. so many regrets.. yet i cant do anything abt it.. trying my very best burying myself into my studies.. but it always snakes it way back into my mind, clouding me until i could no longer breathe.. i really wish i didn't do all those things in e past.. but it's too late for regrets.. y am i always to late.. i nv seemed able to stop it.. all i can do is to continue burying myself.. until i could no longer take it.. until i do something to end it...


really muz concentrate hard on my work.. some idiot who came to my blog to spout nonsense.. i shouldn't care abt him.. cos he doesn't noe who i am.. only my frenz understand me.. it's really great to have such great frenz who stand by me.. it's really great.. lyk wat val said, dis grp of kukus really is a great bunch.. can relax ard dem de.. =)


i've nv forgotten e piggy club.. but it seemed dat everyone is more busy and have lost contact.. mayb it's me but i really hope to see u guys again.. as a grp.. dun wan individual ba.. everyone go out together and have fun.. forget e past and everything.. really miss db but den again, she has her happiness.. haha.. gd for her.. really gtg le.. slp early so tml can study..


hate dis feeling.. juz leave me alone!

hmm.. super bored.. juz read my tag.. lolx! got one guy called someone tagged me.. and told me to keep my "heated" comments to myself!! haha.. dat is so funny man.. well, *news flash!*


A blog is somewhat lyk an online personal diary dat is for e public eyes.. i emphasize on the word PERSONAL DIARY.. so if it's a diary, i'm sure i can say any comments dat i wan to make myself feel beta..


to dat 'someone': i dunno who u might b.. but my anger towards both jo and peggy is justified.. if u cant take it, simply leave.. dun gif all dat crap.. e way u tok, u make me think of jo and it really sux.. i might not b as pissed, but it doesn't mean dat i forgive him.. for a guy who's supposed to b a "gentlemen", he doesn't behave dat way.. if all he can do is throw kiddy tantrums, dere's really nth i can do.. wat's worse, dat kiddy tantrum was directed at me and manu.. how do u think dat wld make us feel? y dun u tell jo to keep his "heated" comments to himself 1st b4 coming to me? i'm already being very fair by not going directly to him to argue.. wat more do u wan me to do? leave me alone man..

today is a SUPER bad day!!!!! 1stly, i slept late for 2 nites straight so i'm already quite moody le.. i dun understand y certain ppl love pissing me off so much!!! and hell.. DIS IS MY BLOG SO I'LL NAME ANY BLOODY NAME I LYK AND U CANT DO A DAMN THING ABT IT!!!!!!


1st person is of course, peggy.. same old marketing project problem again.. dis time, she's dragging me along... i need e bloody report for my own.. SO PLS PASS IT TO ME.. but NOO.. she drag and drag and drag.. wat e fuck is wrong wif u? 1st say dun understand.. later say sick.. now dun understand again.. might as well i do ur report for u.. even beta for u rite?? wat e hell la... BUCK UP!!! e world doesn't stop spinning wen u're sick.. so dun gif me crap abt MC.. it doesn't mean a fucking thing to me!! for all i noe, u can juz BUY e stupid piece of paper from a clinic.. so it doesn't hold much credibility alrite... so juz do ur work.. for god's sake, i'm sick too but i still do my work! so y cant u? are u special?? last time i checked, u are not superior than us so it doesn't gif u e rite to stop work juz cos u're "sick"...


nxt up is jo.. hoho.. u have stepped on my tail (yes i have a tail cos i'm a snake!!) far too many times... and man... u've gone over today.. u've made me feel lyk an idiot far too many times already.. i'm always ok wif ppl being beta than me.. but i cant stand ur "all talk" attitude.. i've always been tolerant but boy.. u seriously pissed me off.. juz so u're e president, it doesn't mean dat u can force, ok mayb "talk", me into a talk dat i have totally NO interest in!! i dun care abt fucking make-up lectures!! it's my choice, my life!! i dun see how dat talk will benefit me in any way.. so pls la.. keep ur "i'm ur boss so listen to me" attitude.. i dun take kindly to dat kind of attitude.. plus, it oso doesn't gif u e rite to shout at us.. grow up la.. juz cos things doesn't go ur way, u shout.. be more mature pls.. if u cant, tell me.. i will treat u as a small kid.. nikko keep telling me dat u're stressed and she kept apologising on ur behalf.. HELLO?! NEED SOMEONE ELSE TO CLEAN UR MESS FOR U??? u are not e only one who's stressed.. get it through ur THICK head!! so wat gives u more rite to throw tantrums? all of us are stressed! if u cant handle stress, DAT'S UR PROBLEM!! DUN TAKE IT OUT ON US!!! i dun expect u to apologise.. u too damn stubborn for dat le.. but i'll tell u dis.. piss me off one more time, i'm not going to b courteous.. i might even b barbaric to u man... so juz keep ur smirk to urself.. and ur little tantrums FAR away from me... i dun lyk kiddy tantrums.. mayb u shld go for anger management.. i dunno.. it's up to u if u wan to hlp urself or continue this way.. and learn some human skills along e way.. might hlp u..


i noe i sound bitchy here.. but pls understand.. try having 2 ppl pissing u off and u tell me if you'll b kinder than i am... i'm hot-tempered alrite.. i'm not even afraid to admit it.. so juz gif me a break.. i need some place to vent my frustrations.. and seeing dis is my territory, i have every rite to crap here...

hmm.. juz completed my comm skills assignment online.. quite boring... haha.. anyways.. i bought router ytd!!! yay!!! now no need to fight wif my bro over the com le!! haha.. ask sk over last nite to hlp me set up... lolx.. he came over at 10 30 la... cos me and my family went to the john little sales ytd... bloody hell la... fucking long queue.. i queued for 2 fucking hours.. and according to my mom, we spent over $300.. and it's a sales... =.= wat e hell...


anyways, since i've got a router, i could use e net.. so me and my bro added each other on msn.. den we toked to each other.. even though we're sitting nxt to each other... -__- i noe we're super lame... but we're damn excited la! haha.. jio him to play jx.. lolx.. i can help him.. haha..


today was a boring day.. haha.. went very far ahead for marketing project.. yay!!! i think should be able to complete the report in e 2nd term.. i mean start of 2nd term.. haha.. team's moving forward!! though peggy's a little lagging behind but i'm sure we can make it through ba... *crosses my fingers*


i think i got e biggest part in marketing.. cos i doing e-marketing but i dun mind.. i kinda lyk it.. haha.. at least i'll noe wat i doing... =)


den POM ar.. i a little confused but oso moving forward.. =) SO HAPPY!! haha.. i noe i contribute not much for POM.. so sorry guys! >.< i'll improve de~~ i'm glad i can still contribute a little to the SWOT analysis.. :) hua say if Isaac nv pass her the 2 strategies, me and her need to do one each.. i dun mind.. haha.. i juz need to keep referring to my book.. =p


den today i skipped marketing lec.. bad qr.. haha.. went to CS and TM with Ivan, Carol and Val.. ivan and carol went to watch movie le.. hahaa.. so me and val walked ard to buy her earpiece.. i bought the xmas present for my classmate le... i'm not saying who.. *zips* lolx! still haven buy for e Chua cousin.. i'm not saying who too!! lolx... so hard not to say.. haha.. val noe who i buying for le.. but it's ok.. she wun say.. =p


as for e chua cousins... who's buying for me?!?!?! i'm in need of a bag to carry my laptop!!! a nice cute zipper bag for my lap top pls!!! =) haha.. but i will appreciate anything u buy.. no pressures!!!

i really bai gei wo de parents.... i told dem i not feeling well.. den we still went to marine parade and ate sashimi!!! omg la... haha.. den nvm lorx.. i thot can go hm liao.. dne my dad walked into harvey norman!! and bought me a radio... ok la... ren abit can get radio i oso dun mind....


super random la... i pissed peggy off today.. lolx.. actually more lyk carol, manu, val, ivan and me piss her off... but since i "shoot" her e most, she will b damn pissed wif me.. but u think i care??? i juz regret nv telling her to "shove her fucking moolahs up her ass!!!" lolx... i'm bad.. a little feverish... keke... anyhow talk liao... haha.. beta stop....


gtg le.... bye and nitez.................................................................................

my bro msged me and told me tml muz watch shrek.. cos dere's going to b harry potter and order of phoenix trailer.. -___-


i got a new char in jx and i dunno how to harvest... zzz...


i was sick dis morning.. terrible stomach ache and all and i still played game...


i found 3 articles for my econs project.. hurray..


i am preparing to go to sch for a meeting and tutorial.. zz.. i missed e 1st 2 but i'm going for e 3rd.. i'm muz b mad...


i'm crapping online here cos i dun wanna go sch...


life's aint dat easy after all...


bye...