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zzz.. every yr, ard dis time, i seemed to be plagued by bouts of coughing and an irritating flu... hate it man.. means i got to rest and rest.. but e illness will most probably last for a mth again.. =.=


even if i wen to e doc, it juz meant meds.. kaoz.. my body so weak sia.. i'm coughing lyk mad dese few days la... quite xin ku.. haiz.. i hid under e lecture table today.. cos i wanna slp.. =.= i'm crazy.. sue me.. lolx


sian ar... cos have to slp early, my maple train until very slow lorx.. so sad.. and i died again juz now.. sianz......... lolx.. i'm a super maple freak sia.. best fren told me to get out of maple to "interact" wif e world... hahaha.. i'll try alrite.. but i simply dun lyk crowds...


ooo... i juz read on e mag dat dere's going to be a Nancy Drew movie!! i wan to watch!!!!!!! i absolutely LUURVE Nancy Drew~~ Hardy Boys too~~ hahahaha.. i read most of e Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys books when i was in lyk pri 6 and sec 1.. keke.. damn nice la.. i love e mysteries.. dunno since when, i stopped reading mysteries and moved on to romance.. now reading J.D.Robb which is mystery+romance.. hahahaha.. a combination of my favourites!!


reading is my 1st love.. even though i'm focusing more on J.D.Robb's books, i wld read others which i find good.. haha.. dere's dis book i found on e mag.. My Best Friend's Girl by Dorothy Koomson.. not bad oso.. inspiring.. haha.. other recommended authors are V.C. Andrews, Sydney Sheldon, Lesley Pearse etc.. hahaha.. apologies if i mis-spelled any names.. i have spelling problems so do pardon me.. >.<


i shall do a proper entry on books another day.. gtg rest le.. hahaha.. adieu~

LRM orientation over le.. though dere's was some confusion but overall, it was GRRRREAT!!!! hahahaha.. kudos to e IG and great job to all OGLs!! kuku is sooooo "ra-ra"!!! hahahha..


it was fun and when i asked my dear 1k04 freshies, dey loved e event!! keke.. *grinz widely* best fren put alot of hard work in dis event and i say it's all worth while!! so take a rest and relax for e moment best fren! hahahaha.. i dunno wat i toking le..


e 1k04 ppl are soooooo united.. haha.. and dey are very happening too!! even after e event, dey stayed back to play water game... hahaha.. i joined in but stopped as i had sth on.. lolx..


have not been feeling well dese few days.. haha.. dunno wat's wrong.. juz drink more water lorx.. my mom's threatening to bring me see doctor.. i dun wan.. >.<


i'm still dat girl who needs ppl to take care of.. hahaha.. currently, 3 ppl are taking care of me.. namely sk, zh and bc.. 3 of my dearest gors.. hahaha.. dunno whether is he's worried or thinks i'm stupid la, but sk has been taking care of me ytd.. haha.. keep shaking my head when he sees me staring into space.. mayb to stop my mind from wandering ba.. haha..


i guess i give ppl e wrong impression dat i'm a strong person... but den again, i'm really a strong person at times.. but i'm totally weak against my own personal demons ba.. chimology.. hahaha.. mayb i'm still immature ba.. dat's y i need bc sk and zh to take care and look out for me.. leave me alone, i might end up in an accident.. lolx.. yes, i'm DAT blur..


i'm trying real hard to quit e habit of thinking too much.. but somehow, i failed.. =x mainly cos i cant let go? who knows.. haha.. i even dream of my problems sometimes.. i've become rather reclusive.. often hiding myself in e world of maplestory.. pathetic rite.. i'm starting to hate going out in crowded places again.. being in a crowd makes me feel lost.. hahaha..


bc says i've become more crude wif my words.. really shld control myself le.. after all, i'm a girl and it's not really nice to be vulgar.. control, qr, control!!!


guess dat's all.. ciao~

here's a quick one:


after lec in e morning, judy and cheryl cut my hair.. hhahaha.. trying to make it look neater.. keke


when over to vivo to buy donuts.. den long john to eat lunch..


after lunch, guys went bugis.. carol, hua hua, val and fion go gym.. me followed judy cheryl and clara to walk walk ard vivo..


went to bugis to find e guys.. played arcade den i played maple at e LAN shop.. haha.. judy cheryl and clara went off cos dey were bored..


carol and hua hua came at ard 5pm?? not sure.. den e guys left wif dem.. apparently, dey forgot abt me.. haha!!


bin called me at ard 5 50pm.. so went to meet dem.. watch dem eat den i go somerset to meet water dey all..


watched nightmare dectective... not scary de.. juz gore.. zzz.. den dat benedict... i think he oso scared de lorx.. keep "rubbing" his eyes.. hahaha.. me is "adjust" my specs.. keke.. i noe i said not scary.. but during e movie, we thought scary ma.. sy fell asleep la.. den zh bc and sk laughing away.. i dunno abt water, db and gray le.. nv notice..


after movie, walked to mrt station.. along e way, went a little crazy.. so ran off while outside e mrt station.. zzzz.. but got scared in e crowd.. called my trusted gor.. (who else can i call to save me sia..) cried a little.. den nth le.. =.= i think bc noe me e best le ba.. but even he oso dunno how crazy i am.. explained wat happened to me to e relevant ppl.. and ppl who are concerned.. dun feel lyk explaining wat happened to me here.. so yea..


sk met us at ps while bc walked wif me.. took cab hm cos i wan peace and quiet.. end up bc and sk paid e cab fee.. i still think i'm crazy.. lolx.. but who cares..


i think i'll get sick wif dat hot-and-cold treatment.. esp when most part of it is cold..

ok.. i really dunno wat i wan to blog abt.. haha.. juz feel e need to blog.. siao liao.. lolx.. today i helped out at tp-bp mentor's booth.. recruitment drive.. saw some of e freshies whom i took during orientation.. i said i'm their SL.. so my fellow mentors asked me wat's SL.. before i could ans, dat freshie ans, "siao leaders".. lolx.. imagine my surprise.. hahaha.. but i'm indeed siao during e orientation.. keke..


i'm becoming more n more of a siao kia liao lorx.. i dunno y la.. but i've become wilder.. no la.. no one will noe wat i mean.. juz dat i'm more restless than b4.. i keep wanting to do things.. and lyk.. dunno la.. feeling kinda contained.. hahaha.. wth man.. i'm becoming more and more of a wild child le.. mayb i going siao liao.. keke.. who knows man..


super sleepy now.. tml need to wake up early.. heading to sentosa again.. i seriously dunno wat's e reason for us to go sentosa.. i mean we go dere to study.. lyk doesnt make sense la.. if go dere got lyk practical, at least still can understand.. but STUDY??? accounts some more wor.. diao... i'm having a little problems wif accounts.. mainly cos i'm very careless... zzz.. need to seek help liao.. dis sem i very serious.. wan to study.. 1st lecture i pay attention lorx.. even though it's boring.. haha..


i choose my elective le.. tourism, culture and society.. haha.. something lyk sociology.. lyk how tourism impact e society.. i'm interested in dat.. lolx.. i'm sure best fren would choose culinary science.. dat's y i told her, " well manu, dis is where we part.." hahaha.. lyk so formal rite? but seriously la.. i noe i wld choose sth diff from her.. cos she's super interested in food.. but me.. okok nia.. lolx.. no offense best fren!! love u lots!! muacks.. juz dat i more interested in sociology.. lolx..


ppl might think sociology very boring.. but for me, it's super interesting.. mayb cos i'm interested in it, dat's y i bothered to study for it ba.. nxt sem de CDS i'm taking psychology.. i think it'll b rather interesting.. haha.. i'm targetting those tough tough subjects.. but i lyk dis kind of subjects.. cos most of e time, u observe.. keke.. i lyk observing.. i'm still looking for my dream job.. keke..


yawnz.. think i shall go slp now.. nitex nitex

i'm tired.. seriously tired of all those stupid arguements(sp?).. it juz made everyone seem so petty.. and i'll most probably being e one to apologise when it's not even my fault.. yea dat's dumb.. but den again, i'm dumb.. dumb me is always e 1st to apologise.. dumb me always make a mess out of things.. i noe db thinks it's rude of me to not say anything to her when i not happy wif her.. but i wld rather be rude so as to prevent another meaningless arguement.. for e 1st time, i scolded her fuck and i mean it.. i was damned confused and damned pissed off... i dun think i did anything wrong.. and no, i dun wan to fuck her.. i'm trying to ask her to fuck off but dumb me used e wrong words.. haiz.. come to me when dere's happy stuff.. arguements, leave me out of it.. i dun need so much drama in my life.. water asked me to settle stuff between me and db.. cos she dun wan to see us sad.. but i cant help wondering.. does db even care or does she prefer to ignore it.. 4yrs of frenship.. still got dis kind of problems... think too much tok too little.. zzz..


sch start le.. going to sentosa later.. hahaha.. TAS, here i come!!! will b in sentosa for lyk 1 sem so ppl at tp dun miss me alrite!! lolx.. bhb.. hmm.. i think i shall go prepare for sch le.. ciao..

1stly, a very happy belated bday to both ivan and carol!! =)


ytd, went to NP in e morning cos of mentoring.. zzz.. only one word could describe how i was feeling.. BORED.. e whole ceremony was draggy and trust me.. e seat was so comfy, i nearly fell asleep.. oh well..


after e ceremony, headed down to tampines for mentoring session.. it was so-so only.. had de-briefing and headed hm at 5 wif sk.. bathed and went out to meet e rest for movie.. turns out dat we cant watch e movie cos no more tix.. had dinner at pasta mania and walked to PS.. played arcade and i went off to ivan's bday chalet..


by e time i reached dere, it was ard 10 30pm so obviously, e party has ended.. a million apologies to ivan for not being able to make it dere earlier.. =x i didnt do much dere lorx.. juz watched dem play cards.. surprisingly, i did not touch mj at all.. lolx.. mayb i've lost my passion to play?? who knows.. all i did dere was wander ard, mingle here and dere.. den sms ppl.. lolx..


however, at ard midnite sq msged me.. dat's when he told me abt wat happened at his blog.. haiz.. i'll elaborate later.. called bc or rather asked bc to call me at 2am.. talked for abt 30mins and hung up.. den i went back to wandering.. hahaha.. weird thing is, i dun feel tired even though i've not been getting enuff slp.. i'm lyk a walking dead.. drank a beer or rather, a few sips of beer.. den stopped cos of gastric problems..


time juz passed by and before i noe it, it's 4am le.. carol, val and hua hua went to bed.. so me followed too.. but i didnt slp.. sms ppl again.. cos i cant slp.. hahaha.. too cold le and i'm quite hyper.. sms until 4 30am lyk dat den managed to rest a while cos i wasnt feeling well.. however, i did not slp.. juz slipped in and out of consciousness(sp?).. hahaha


morning ard 9 30am, i got up to brush my teeth.. saw this bowl at e basin.. i thot it's dere to store water so can rinse mouth.. but i didnt touch it.. lolx.. lucky i didnt do anything.. cos i later found out dat hua hua oso curious abt e bowl.. i think she washed e bowl.. and guess wat.. dat bowl actually contained ivan's fren's contact lens!!! hahahahaha!! so funny.. poor guy!! but e funnier part was, carol thinks dat e nite b4, dat bowl actually contained dentures! lyk wth!!! hahahahaha


ate mac breakfast, den headed back to tampines.. juz nice sq called me.. den i meet him at tm lorx.. we were supposed to meet at tm mac.. so i stood dere and waited.. waited for quite some time den sq msg me say he at tm mac wait for me.. i was lyk, "huh? i oso at tm mac" turns out we were both dere but didnt see each other cos of one giant poster between us.. =.=


called bc and sk to join us.. sk still slping la! and it's already 12 20 liao sia.. lazy pig... bc's at tm too.. lolx.. he's wif his mom at NTUC.. so we went down to meet him.. followed his mom as she buy stuff den hlped to carry e stuff up to their hse.. end up slack at bc's hse.. sk joined us at bc's hse..


went online and looked at sq's blog or rather, e tagboard.. apparently, someone used db's name to wish sq "happy deathday" which was really rude.. so sq scolded e person.. but i oso dunno wat happen, db say it's her.. we're lyk WTH.. wishing ppl deathday is not sth db wld do.. esp not to sq.. not even as a joke so we were rather shocked when she said it's her.. so bc recommended dat we call her to verify.. so i called her la.. den i oso dunno y she so angry la.. say until we accusing her lyk dat.. all i said was someone used her name to wish sq deathday and why she say is her.. i noe it's all a misunderstanding lorx.. but when db hung up on me, i was damned pissed off.. so when she msged me, i told her to fuck off.. so now both of us are angry wif each other.. =.=


all i wanted to say was dat someone's using her name to hurt sq.. but she interpreted dat i'm saying she's starting a quarrel... wat e hell man.. hanging up on ppl is damn rude la.. so even if she say she's damn angry, it's still rude lorx.. i'm pissed cos she hung up on me.. not because of e sq stuff cos we noe it's not her.. but i think she shld really control her temper ba.. she's not e only one who's confused lorx.. how does she expect us to react when dis kind of things happen.. and it's lyk, she's not helping by blowing her top lorx.. i cant hlp thinking why dis frenship so unstable sia.. over small things oso muz argue until lyk dat..


i'm super tired of having to explain everything i say and i noe db oso dun lyk explaining.. but instead of scolding fuck back, how abt thinking wat led to all dis? dis world is a fucked up world and e internet's a bitch.. why not sit down and think why such things happen instead of arguing over nth... crap crap crap.. i lost my temper too.. heck.. i threw my hp at bc la.. lolx.. sorry gor.. but i was seriously pissed off la.. small matter oso muz blow until so big.. sigh..


sch starting tml.. not gonna think abt all those fucked up things.. i'll leave it to db to see wat she wan to do.. all i can say is she's been made used by some stranger to hurt sq but apparently, it also resulted in us arguing.. diao.. ONE stupid comment.. it was all it took...

lolx.. dat title is so damn random.. it doesnt have anything to do wif my entry.. hahahaha!!


neways, haven been blogging for quite some time and even if i did blog, it's abt sth sad... haha.. my bad.. =x so i decided to blog sth lighthearted.. keke.. went for LRM orientation briefing today.. i'm OGL.. keke.. i'm so enthu dis yr.. =.= dat's cos manu convinced me to join.. allowed me to take my mind off certain unhappy stuff...


it's quite ok la.. i think LRM orientation wld be entertaining.. though i didnt quite lyk e last game.. =.= it feels lyk courting death.. lolx!!! cant say in case i gave it away.. haha.. we played some games to test test.. quite fun.. i love e "monkey see monkey do" game.. lolx!! e kukus will noe wat i'm toking abt.. actually, i think e whole OGLs wld noe wat i mean.. hahahaha.. kudos to manu for pulling me into dis activity.. lolx.. i'm enjoying it even though it has not start.. keke..


met up wif kai after e OGL thingy.. borrowed a book... den went to his hse.. i played maple.. he slept.. =.= i went mad in maple again.. hahaha.. ytd, i bought a 24hrs 2x exp coupon.. lolx.. so frm 9 30am to 12 30 midnite, i was playing maple.. occasionally stop to eat lunch (thks sy!!!), get my watch (thks kai!!!!), eat dinner ( thks zh!!!!) and slp... lolx.. yea.. i got hlp frm my 3 fave guys.. hahahaha.. currently my fave but EVERYONE noe who i lyk best.. *grinz*


yea.. i can hear best fren saying i'm maple mad.. lolx.. but seriously, i've nv been more enthu in one game other than maple.. hahaha.. due to ytd's training, my lv jumped frm 61 to 64!!!!! and i'm lvling tonite again!!!! yes!!! going to 70 soon~~ knight and ice cream~~ dad, i wan e mango sorbet from HD!!! =D pls say yes!! keke


actually supposed to watch movie wif kai, bc and zh de.. but due to some "miscalculation", we managed to miss e timing.. how, i'll nv find out.. hahaha.. so we ended up eating ice cream (i still lyk e orange ice cream best!! =D) and went to playground and chat.. i oso asked dem for their opinion on my new songs.. kekeke.. can say is alot of problem but no worries... i have time.. muahahaha.. one gd thing abt planning early.. tee hee


oh yea, i ordered a cake for mummy.. it was supposed to b a surprise la.. but apparently, my dad and bro gave it away... =.= i was lyk, "WTH!!!!!! how can u let her noe?!?!?!!?" lolx.. sianx lorx.. dere goes e surprise.. at least she dunno wat cake.. keke.. is her fave mango.. hee hee hee..


tml is orientation le.. me is SL = Synergy Leader = Orientation Leader = OL.. lolx.. i think will b fun ba.. i noe i had fun last yr.. keke.. excited~ need to wake up early tml.. haha..


truth to be told, alot of things have been running through my mind.. and i sorted alot of things out too.. 1st and foremost is nth remains e same forever.. as time goes by, as life moves on, we change.. haha.. feelings change too.. keke.. db says, " time heals all wounds" i disagree.. dun ask me why but it simply doesnt apply to me.. for me, i think time will teach me patience.. haha.. i think dis time, i'm serious..


listen to e song.. e chorus.. it represents wat i wan to say.. haha.. i noe it's in canto.. so i shall translate..


我要爱情不需要登对 不许得你允许 (i'm dun wan compatibility and dun need your approval)
兄妹真有趣 不需要分居 ( dere's no need for separation as siblings are interesting)
忘掉悲份再追 (forget sadness and continue pursuing)
我要爱情吹毁 也不失一个创举 (lolx.. dunno how to translate)
相恋的证据 假使要争取 ( if i have to show love's evidence)
唯有约定和大哥喝醉 ( it's to accompany him to get drunk)

lolx.. my translation sux.. hahaha.. actually, e 1st line simply applies to me.. e rest is juz put dere for fun.. haha!! to carol: not only my spelling got problem.. as long as it's language, i sux!! lolx!


my point in doing dis is to say dat in love, dere's no need to think so much abt compatibility and all dat kind of stuff.. if u love each other, juz love.. loving doesnt mean being together.. being together doesnt mean love.. lolx.. love is juz simply DAT special feeling.. i'm happy wif how things are now.. and i dun think i wld wan it otherwise.. i've made my stand clear.. so all i can do now is to look forward, and be patient.. keke..


so now, i'm supposed to concentrate on my studies.. zzz.. not easy lehx.. esp now dat i dun have a goal.. once, i thot hospitality was wat i wanted.. but now... haiz....

i'm red lyk a lobster now...


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i'm radiating heat lyk nobody's business..


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i'm currently feeling high.. lolx

i'm glad i followed kai to soccer today.. lolx.. i'm going dere again nxt wk.. hopefully, i'll be able to see wat i wan to see again.. hah.. mayb i can continue dreaming..


for a min dere, i totally forgot dat things have changed.. so imagine how disappointed i was when i realized it was all my wistful (sp?) thinking.. walked hm alone today.. keke.. thot of alot of things.. as i thot, getting more depressed by e min.. it was den i realized how hard it is to let go..


i had ice cream today.. one of e best i've ever eaten.. yum yum.. i was happily eating e ice cream as i watched dem play.. and i thot to myself, how i wish dis could last forever..


as i sat dere, i kept thinking to myself.. "qr, u are so damn stupid.. look wat u're missing out.." yea.. i'm stupid.. immature too.. sigh.. wish i could change all dat.. i nearly said, "can we start one more time" out loud.. imagine how awkward DAT would be.. dumb me..


mayb one day i'll express my feelings.. or mayb, i'll keep it in my heart... who knows... after all, it is dis separation which led me to realise how impt he is to me.. but isit too late now?


dis is a sad sad post.. quote from resident critic, ZACK "being emo is not cool".. yea i get it.. but i cant hlp being emo alrite.. cos i was stupid and immature enuf to let e guy i love go.. over a stupid and immature reason of being insecure..


diao.. QR, WHEN ARE U GOING TO BUCK UP???? i've had enuf of dis.. i really have had enuf.. YA LA.. I LOVE HIM LA.. BUT DAT DOESNT MEAN HE'LL WAN ME BACK... wake up girl!!!!

i'm back from chalet!! lolx.. it was fun although it's short... ytd worked as per usual.. den headed off to aranda at ard 6plus.. met van den walked dere.. e chalet is bc's family open de.. hahaa.. so his family members were dere but we were e ones staying over...


bc's niece is soooooo cute!! hahahaha.. i lyk her alot.. bc's mom is a really great cook~ i love e curry veg and e dessert.. lolx.. so nice!! ate and played mj for a while den we headed down to bbq le.. kekeke.. me, sk, bc, zh, van n sq toked and ate.. zh very gd at bbq.. lolx..


drank some vodka and had a little rum.. rum has a very strong taste which i didnt lyk.. so i guess i'll juz stick to vodka.. hahaha.. me amateur at drinking.. dat sq n sk ar.. to stop me from drinking, dey actually threw me into e rm and onto e bed, den used a blanket to tie me up.. =.= lyk wth.. and dat zh nv save me... =(


played cards n toked till quite late.. van went to slp cos she got sch today.. me went to bathe den e rest oso bathe.. went to e living rm to play mj again.. lolx.. but after a few rounds, bc need to slp cos he has to drive van hm at ard 6plus am.. so all go slp la.. me, zh, sk and bc shared one bed.. queen or king sized, i dunno.. lolx..


i'm stuck in between bc and sk la.. den dey say wat three-some.. =.=" yea rite.. all dey did was trapping me in between dem.. zzz some three-some dat was.. lolx! after dat i juz went to slp le.. dunno anything else.. hahaha..


was told dat zh left in e middle of e nite to where i oso dunno.. den when bc send van hm, sk tagged along so only me alone slping.. so sq slept in e same rm on e floor nxt to e door.. he say is to protect me.. from wat i oso dunno.. lolx.. cos he slept nxt to e door, e door hit his leg when bc opened it.. hhahahaha.. and i was still slping.. not dat i can wake up... tired.. lolx..


woke up at 9am cos need to check out le.. clean up and all.. nth much la.. juz normal lorx.. den bc drove me hm.. reached hm and unpacked.. oh ya.. i came hm to find one of my red bull gone.. wondering who drank it.. zzz.. dere goes my lunch...


cant wait for sun to come.. sentosa~ so fun!! lolx.. guess dat's all le.. ciao

i'm busy lyk a bumble bee~~


bc's chalet tml.. wed n thrus mentoring training camp... sat has normal mentoring.. going to sentosa dis coming sun.. mon: SL tea party and meeting e kukus.. nxt thurs n fri is orientation.. plus, ivan's 21st bday chalet on e 21st and 22nd.. PACKED!!! MY SCHEDULE'S PACKED!!!


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i've received news dat we're changing classes?? lyk wth man...


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chionging maple lyk nobody's business.. going on to 60~~


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e rat's back in my workplace.. i kept standing on e chair..


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i'm using 2 hp cos i currently have 2 no... stupid singtel and m1...


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i'm so darn bored, i think i shall dance~

dese past few days have been a whirlwind for me.. mainly it's cos so many things happened so fast that i find myself having troubles keeping up.. is it really that hard for frenships to remain forever and ever? or is it juz dat everyone has stopped trying?


looking at e so-called "sq saga", i realized how simple words could cause huge misunderstandings.. and how simple words, could hurt a person's feelings.. yes, 4 yrs is a very long frenship.. and i hope it wld not stop juz at 4.. if it was up to me, i wld lyk it to last for 40yrs at e very least.. but dat doesn't seem possible does it? cos everyone's shutting everyone out..


now, let's analyse e "sq saga".. it all started wif a chalet, wif certain ppl not being invited/invited but did not wan to go.. i've "interviewed" (lolx.. i'm trying to b neutral here) both side of e parties and realized dat it was all a misunderstanding.. apparently, both parties misunderstood e words exchanged..


now from e sociological point of view, e element which has sparked dis event is agent of socialisation.. and dis agent is peers. after dis misunderstanding, both parties did not meet again.. and within their own circle of frenz, dey discussed e problem without actually facts or precise understanding of e whole situstion.. thus dese frenz started adding in other irrelevant stuff, causing greater misunderstanding.. and from den on, everything juz went BOOM!


back to my own view, i personally feel dat it is not dis one incident which led to dis break-up lorx.. even i oso dunno when all dis started.. all i noe is where dere's happiness, dere will oso b bitterness.. no matter how vague, dat bitterness wld be dere.. for me, it's lyk dat ba.. and i kept thinking how dat speck of bitterness came into my life..


as we grow up, we experience more things.. some gd, some bad.. e gd ones, we tend to forget.. but we wld nv forget e unhappy ones.. mayb dat's where all e bitterness began.. i guess we can only accept dat dis world is a sad sad world.. i mean, no matter wat, dere would always b dis memory of us being unhappy.. it nv leaves u.. every single disappointment, we nv forget.. yea, we might forgive but we nv forget..


it's no longer a matter of being welcome or not.. it's more lyk we are unable to bare our hearts and souls.. cos of past experiences, we've learnt and we're oso more careful.. i can bare my heart and soul to a person i've juz met but nv to those who knew me for yrs.. dat's cos strangers dun judge u.. dey juz listen.. but frenz, knowing who u are, wld judge u.. when all u need was a listening ear..


as life goes on, as yrs passed, our circle of frenz wld expand.. we wld meet new frenz and confide in dem.. but dat doesnt mean we forget old frenz.. yes, we confide less in dem.. but dat doesnt decrease their special status in our hearts.. e depth of our hearts are limitless.. old frenz wld still hold e same special status in our hearts as we meet new ones.. it doesnt require to let anything go.. more likely, it meant moving on instead of letting go..


letting go means leaving.. i'm sure dat's not wat u mean.. i guess u meant moving on.. it'll b a gd thing for u ba.. time for u to open ur heart to others.. u'll noe how gd it is to have ppl listening to u without judgement.. we will always remain as frenz.. though we've had a lot of arguements and differences, u'll always b special to me.. cos dere's all those sweet and happy moments.. i still rmb during sec 3, both of us were squatting outside e CPF building laughing away.. laughing over wat i oso dun rmb.. but i rmb dat we laughed till we couldnt stand.. now dat's a memory worth remembering.. =)


dere's a saying that goes "nth lasts forever".. i dun think it's true.. cos MEMORIES last forever.. for i'll nv forget all those great memories cos those are parts and puzzels of my life.. even as we move on, we wld still rmb and in my case, i wld keep in contact.. haha.. i might hang out more wif e kukus now but dat doesnt mean i've forgotten piggy club..


all i can say is dun feel sad and dun regret.. cos u wld nv lose me as a fren.. i'm still ur jie.. unless u dun wan me liao la.. hahaha..

hmm.. ytd, went to sao mu wif my parents and other relatives.. nth much de la.. wat's interesting is dat sq called me and said he wan to come my hse play mj.. lolx!! i told him see how cos i outside.. so he asked me to call bc and zh to stand by.. hahah


asked my parents and dey were kinda ok wif dem coming over to play mj so i called dem.. turns out zh at chalet so cannot come.. in e end called sk.. den i only will reach hm at nite ma.. so dey waited for me to go hm lorx.. at 1st i told dem ard 8 plus will reach hm.. but hor.. i went to singtel to check my phone line.. turns out expire liao.. so i changed over to M1... had a new line but still keeping my old no.. so ppl, u dun have to worry not being able to contact me.. =) my new no's really interesting and easy to rmb.. hahaha


i only got hm at ard 9plus la.. den sk oso can only reach my hse at 10 cos he went to his grandpa hse.. only started playing at 10 30pm.. lolx.. i lost at 1st ok.. lose until very jialat.. lucky nv play money.. but slowly, i started winning and i win big de.. lolx.. turns out me and bc big winners but alas, no money... =( we played all e way till 2am.. only play dong, nan and xi.. haven reach bei lorx.. but bc got archery today so we stopped.. hahaha..


now i super tired lorx.. hahah.. think i go slp liao.. gd nitex..





bc invited me to go his family chalet.. but not yet confirm.. watch out for dis column.. lolx.. i'm being lame here

i changed a new no....






and i finally understood e meaning of BUTTERFLY EFFECT

yea, finally back from SL le.. kekeke... time for some updates yea..


1st day was zzz.. i've been telling best fren dat i wan to go hm.. lolx!! and she took my shoe bag away.. =.= and i'm sooo not going hm without my shoe bag so i stayed.. it was really nth lorx.. ice breaking games.. den briefing.. i got into a group called Delphi.. met a lot of ppl.. all very fun de.. hahaha.. dere was an auction at nite.. all 8 grps muz auction for our ingredients to cook breakfast e nxt morning.. my group only bought 2 items but it was sufficient for all of us.. to tell e truth, i cant rmb much abt day 1.. =x


day 2, was ALP... well.. half of it ba.. it rained in e morning.. zzz.. and guess wat.. i actually saw hj dere!! lolx.. turns out she joined ELF.. nv thot i wld see her dere.. and according to e ELF ppl, she very pro.. haha!! who wld have thot...


e high elements, i only tried one.. cos i play b4 so quite sian.. hahahaha.. i wanted to try flying fox but decided against it.. hahaha.. lazy to put on e harness.. lolx.. anyways, got sun burnt la.. so i became a pink dolphin.. LOL


dere was a nightwalk.. actually, it's cluedo.. i nv play e game b4 but it was fun.. dere were clues on lv 2, 3, 4 & 5 of business sch.. lv 4 only can have 4 ppl from each grp to go.. my group send 2 teams of 4 to go dere.. i belong to e 2nd team.. i went wif raymond, taher and wen ya.. muz really thank raymond lorx.. cos i have dis fear of e dark.. so while at e 4th lv, dey brought us to e "death" room to look for clues.. e whole rm was dark la.. so raymond held my hand and hlped me find my way cos i totally cant see in e dark.. taher oso help on to me while raymond was searching for clues.. lolx.. super funny lorx.. cos taher said, " raymond, i look after e girls. u go search for clues" HAHAHAHA.. so u can see how useless us girls were but e rules stated muz have MINIMUM 2 girls so yea...


day 3 was e best of e camp... we went outside sch.. it's almost lyk amazing race.. haha.. fun fun.. den we had lunch den WATER BOMB!!! i mean final clash.. lolx.. my grp was e 1st to die cos all target us.. =.= muz b we too strong liao.. hahaha.. channel news asia came to film our SL camp.. lolx.. so fun.. dere's performance nite.. every grp did their best to perform.. den we danced.. kekeke.. love e business dance!!! and TP mass dance!! plus chickie dance!!! lolx love ALL e dances..


e camp broke at 9 30pm.. i went off at ard 10... called sk and zh down for dinner.. den on e bus, saw bc so i asked him to tag along.. called sy but he nv pick up phone.. =.= had dinner.. talked and caught up wif recent happenings.. haha.. zh actually convinced water to go to their chalet!! oh my god sia!!! hahahahhahahaha.. i nv go cos my camp.. ahahah.. so bc and sk dere keep teasing zh over water lorx.. lolx


went hm at ard 12.. bathe and slp.. woke up at 1 30pm today.. lolx.. i so love my bed and soft toys.. kekeke.. met ben in e afternoon, shopped and talked.. ahahhahaa.. den i headed off to my dad's.. ate at long john... den went hm and here i am.. lolx..


dat's all ppl.. gd nitex and i'm off to maple.. lolx!