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muahahaha!! i came back again! juz finished my socio quiz.. guess wat? i got FULL marks for it!!! wootx!!!! lolx.. den i hlped zh do his socio quizzes.. GOT PRETTY HIGH MARKS TOO!!! hahahaha.. call me e socio god!!! i'm getting beta at it!!!! man i love sociology!!!!! lolx...


anyone wan me to hlp u do ur socio quiz? i dun mind hlping!! lolx! i'm totally bonkers..

ah... e benefits of singlehood... damn... if i knew being single was so beneficial, i wouldn't even have ventured in relationships... yup! i found one super goody benefit abt being single.. (to me la) haha..


i was on e bus hm juz now.. and oh boy.. i literally mean boy! so many cute guys on board!!! lolx.. i'm SOOOOOO into boy watching, i nearly fell flat on my face juz now.. lolx! anyways.. really quite a few eye-candies on e bus... and i stood in e middle of dem... yum yum!! haha.. and e best thing is, i could finally look at a cute guy and not feel guilty abt it!! haha.. no la.. kidding.. juz dat dere's a diff between guy watching wen u're attached and wen u're single... but.. most of dem got off at e 201 bus stop... sigh.... dere goes e guys... haha...


but dere's still 3 left for me to watch!! yippee! haha... i am mad... lolx.. den one stop before mine, 2 of e cuties got off.... double sigh... so dere's one last one left.. lolx.. and i dunno where i got dis weird theory.. sth abt most guys lyk girls who are either cute or cool.. so since i'm rather tired.. i opted e cool one.. haha... so i acted cool, lyk i dun care abt anything.. and dat guy was watching me la!!! lolx! den juz as i was abt to get off e bus.. my purse dropped! dere goes my "coolness" flying out of e window!!!!! sobs!! i juz ran off la.. haha.. damn stupid la.. i guess i was uber bored so i did all dis lame stuff.. guy watching alone is so fun! but wif a bunch of gf.... it would be a PARTY la! haha.. so either way, guy watching's a gd hobby... yup yup.. MY favourtie hobby!!! lolx...


val told me to make paragraphs.. SEE! i did wat u told me, val!! lolx..


sq: it doesn't matter le ba.. i juz wan to forget.. to me now, nth is more important than studies le.. i guess dat's all i've got to say..


OKIE! i go finish my socie (sociology) quiz le! I SKIPPED BOTH JAP AND SOCIE TUTORIALS!

i guess it's time for some updates.. haha.. 2 days ago, that's fri, e kukus (me, dhah, carol, ivan, hui ling, hua hua and nikko) plus jo, siva (linus.. lolx~) and chua, went to watch a movie.. at cine... lolx... guess how we got dere? ivan drove all 10 of us dere! haha.. e car's a 7-seater.. but squeezing in 10 ppl is really funny.. me, dhah, carol and hui ling were stuck at e back.. lolx.. cos we find it too squeezy to sit in a row, we got hui ling to sit on our laps!! haha.. siva got to sit in e front cos dey say he's "big-sized".. lolx.. so it's jo, nikko, hua and chua in e middle.. haha.. den e funny part is while we're on e way, a police car was behind us.. den everyone panicked.. and hui ling slid down our laps and lay still, while jo bent down to keep out of sight.. haha.. so it'll look lyk dere's only 7 ppl in the car.. so damn funny la... lolx.. all e way to cine, a lot of ppl kept looking at us.. haha.. i think it's cos dere's so many of us in dere and all of us look lyk teens.. heck, even e driver doesn't look lyk an adult! haha.. can u imagine one car full of teens?? lolx.. muz have been quite a sight.. so anyway, we reached cine and told siva to buy e tix cos we scared not tix.. den dhah told us her mom checked and said dere's NC16 for Happy Feet.. haha.. den hui ling was lyk, "imagine e penguin say 'fuck you!' so cute!!" lolx.. dat got everyone laughing.. but siva say dun have... haha.. he said e guy wld laugh his ass off if he really asked for NC16 Happy Feet.. lolx.. wen he bought e tix, we were told dat 2 more ppl were joining us.. erm.. i think e names are.. laura and grace? not very sure.. think is jo ask dem to come de.. =.= so we went long john to eat dinner.. den e other 2 came to join us.. eat le den go watch movie lo!!!! haha.. e movie's great!!! give me fin!! after e movie, we went to take neoprints.. e kuku girls.. e guys dun wanna take wif us.. =( sad rite.. but nvm.. we had fun taking e pics! haha.. ivan's sending 8 of us hm.. dat's carol, me, dhah, hua, jo, laura, grace and siva.. haha.. me and hua were one of e last to go hm.. so we went from orchard to ang mo kio, to toa payoh, to yishun den back to tampines and i'm hm!!! lols.. almost midnight le.. lucky my mom still not hm yet.. she went to happy.. lolx.. and my dad nv scold me.. ;p all in all it was fun la.. ytd, cousin's wedding.. nth much to say... cos i dun lyk e wedding cos it's held at a church and it's damn boring la! i went out half way through e service wif some of my younger cousins.. lolx.. other than dat nth liao la... time for some pics!



















































































coming up nxt! storytime: a tale during a boring econs tutorial.

juz now playing game.. tok to sq online.. den we sort of debated over certain stuff.. i told him i muz always pretend in front of him.. and dat i find it hard to be happy wif him and some others.. den i told him i changed le.. no longer lyk b4, care so much.. cos i cant account for everyone's feelings.. and he said i'm mean.. cos he treat me so gd and i did dis to him.. hello? i didnt ask u to b gd to me.. wat if i died one day? no one will care for u? isn't it crap? and dun tell me u'll cry for me if i die.. i'm totally not touched at all.. cos it'll juz b another burden to me.. dun preach to me abt true love.. it's bullshit to me... yea.. mayb true love exists.. but dere will nv b a happy ending.. dun b gd to me.. cos it wouldn't change anything.. it'll juz make me suspicious abt wat u wan from me.. i am not e old qr who always feel guilty over someone's minor complaint.. i've changed.. i'm no pushover now.. u might not lyk wat i write here but get e fact into ur head.. we've been together and broke up 3 times.. enuff is enuff... ur love is too much for me to handle.. i dun need u to love me.. i juz wan a normal fren.. if u cant do it, tell me.. so i wun gif u e wrong idea again... yea i noe i hurt u bad.. but it's beta than giving u hope.. i'm a big girl now.. dun keep caring for me.. juz care abt urself ba.. i still have bc(my bestest gor) and e kukus(the bestest classmates) to take care of me.. i'm not obliged to do or b anything to u other than a casual fren... i cant b a close fren.. dun expect too much from me..

lolx.. i'm stuck at hm for e whole of today.. was supposed to chiong my marketing and jap.. i finished half of my jap and half of marketing.. =.= i juz do and change, den do and change again.. haha.. and now here i am, slacking away.. haha.. gif me a break man.. e words are swimming in front of me.. i'm seeing stars already!! in broad daylight some more!! haha.. anyways, found out dat kl has a blog.. lucky i eng until go read toilet's blog.. haha! so i got meself a new linky buddy!!! lolx.. dun worry if u dun understand.. it's a private jk between me, myself and i.. -___- lolx! i'm bonkers!!! haha.. so does dis justify me crapping here?? haha.. oh well.. guess i'll go back and continue... cheerx!

finally made e decision.. broke up.. i keep telling myself dat i wld be alrite.. but i cant seem to believe myself.. oh yea.. i definitely love him.. but at e same time, we cant b together now.. not now.. i oso cant explain y... is it possible to love a person and not b wif him? i dunno.. but dat's wat i'm doing now isn't it.. and all i can do i call him bao bei one last time... i guess i'll be alrite after all... somehow, i'll live...

new hair

Hii!!! i supposed i promised to update a proper one later today so here i am.. keke.. recently, manu taught me how to add pics into my blog.. haha.. so i'm making use of dis 'new' knowledge to put a few pics in.. keke.. enjoy~~











me smiling for the camera wif a new hairstyle.. lolx.. nice?




















my new tattoo!!!!! cool huh.. lyk it a lot.. haha..



















i dunno wat is so interesting but all e guys seemed to flock towards e com.. lolx

















haha!! from left: fion, ivan and huiling.. damn funny.. i dunno wat e hell dey doing but i especially love fion's expression!




















keke.. most of the kuku family here!! smile!!





















lolx.. carol looks retarded here.. but she's so kawaii, rite!!
























dhah's pooh is SO comfortable in dere.. btw, dat person's carol.. haha


















oh... dis is ivan wif his "son" bibi.. haha.. ivan LOVES soft toys!! keke.. he's e sentimental guy in e kuku family.. lolx..













i noe it's not much of an update but at least i uploaded some pics for your enjoyment.. haha.. i knew i enjoyed it though.. keke.. k la.. dat shld be all for today.. dunno wat else to say le... haha

lolx.. i got my own tatoo!!!! haha.. it's juz a temp one so no worries.. can be washed off.. but i kinda lyk my new tatoo though.. gotta do sth new once in a while.. haha.. waiting for class to start.. haha.. will post sth longer wen i'm free.. cheerx.. =)

hmm.. today's quite an emotional day.. went out wif db and we talked for a moment.. started toking abt my probs wif sy and it's lyk, i started crying.. in middle og CS some more! damn la... so it led me to e decision of no matter wat, muz settle dis prob by today.. so i msged him and we nearly quarreled.. cos both of us are really tired so we were not very patient.. anyways, i told him i couldn't take it anymore and dat i'm miserable.. i guess dere's still some hope cos he sort of apologised.. and said dat i need to study and dat he need to work.. so i told him might as well put dis relationship on hold.. NOT break.. juz both of us do wat is impt (eg. my studies and his work) den we'll wait until after his NS den decided whether we shld continue.. i guess for e both of us, it meant starting anew ba.. it's better than e both of us hanging on and being stressed.. i guess dis is e best solution.. i noe we cant promise each other dat our feelings will remain unchanged after dat but we'll nv noe... so juz let time decide ba.. guess dat's all for today...



i wonder things will ever be the same again??

today, a lot of things happen.. but i shall not mention anything here to respect others' privacy.. anyways, really grateful to manu, nikko, joseph, linus and bin!! haha.. cos dey going to some filming today.. den need to speak chinese.. so manu asked me to tag along to "hlp" dem wif their chinese.. though i think bin is gd enuff for dem.. haha.. but den again, dat gave me e excuse to skip lecture!! yay!!! haha.. so yea.. headed over to sentosa.. and wen dey started filming, i hid behind e sounds-man.. and me and him started toking abt e importance of chinese and all.. haha.. so me get to skip lecture, go sentosa and watch dem film!! haha.. it's dis fri, 10 30pm on channel 8.. so watch it if u can ok.. haha.. i guess today dun continue le.. joseph showed me a video on how we got meat.. fuck man.. i hate those ppl... think i beta not continue le... bye

hmm.. dese few days nv blog.. i starting to update irregularly le.. cant find e time.. haha.. muz think i'm being very busy rite.. actually no la.. juz dat i dun feel lyk using e com.. and wen i'm using e com, it's only for sch work.. and no, sch has not been too busy.. it's juz me burying myself in books.. storybooks.. mayb i'm starting to go back to how i was before.. dat idiotic bookworm who noes nth but her books.. dat's who i am ba.. i mean lyk.. other than my classmates, i dun have any social life le.. oh yea.. i hear sq complaining dere's still him.. i noe.. dere's still him, dere's still sy, db, bc, zh and all those ppl.. but we dun contact each other dat much le rite? even db, as my close sister, i oso find it very hard to contact le.. yea.. she has her own life le.. and little idiotic me is still dat idiot who, wen faced wif a problem, will go find db.. only dat now, she's not ard le.. called her, not dere.. hp oso not on.. den it's lyk.. y am i so dependant on her? mayb cos i'm used to her being dere and all.. so we i couldn't find her, i'm juz a little lost ba.. but luckily at dat time, dere's sk.. one thing i'll nv understand is y is it dat wen ppl tok to me, dey'll ask me abt me and sy.. makes me all e more worse cos i suddenly realised dat sy is so far.. almost lyk a stranger.. i realised dat i dunno who he is, wat he is doing anymore.. i think he noes wat's going on in my life cos i always tell him and all.. he nv told me anything.. not even once.. i always have to ask specifically b4 he tells me.. haiz.. dunno la.. life's a mess and it sux.. wat more can i say rite? hah.. i think sk will come ask me wat happen wen he sees dis.. dun ask me kz? cos i oso dunno wat happen.. i'm already all alone le.. dun make me think how alone i am can?

crapping rite here le.. dunno y so unhappy.. mayb cos life's not going as smoothly as i wan ba.. haiz.. dunno la.. guess i'll stop here b4 i write sth i didn't mean.. bye