Thursday, May 25, 2006
Purest Of Painsorry didn't mean to call you
but i couldn't fight it
i guess i was weak
i couldn't even hide it
and so i surrended
just to hear your voice
i dont't know how many times
i've said i'm gonna live without you
and maybe someone else
is standing there beside you
but there's something baby
that you need to know
that deep inside of me
i feel like i'm dying
i have to see you
it's all that i'm asking
vida
give me back my fantasy
the courage that i need to live
the air that i breathe
carino mio
my world's become so empty
the days are so cold and lonely
and each night i taste
the purest of pain
i wish i could tell you
i'm feeling better everyday
that i didn't hurt
when you walked away
but to tell you the truth
i can't find my way
that deep inside of me
i feel like i'm dying
i have to see you
it's all that i'm asking baby
vida
give me back my fantasy
the courage that i need to live
the air that i breathe
carino mio
my world's become so empty
the days are so cold and lonely
and each night i taste
the purest of pain x2
sorry didn't mean to call you
but i couldn't fight it
i guess i was weak
i couldn't even hide it
and so i surrended
just to hear your voice...
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alrite.. today's entry is a little colorful.. haha.. i noe.. well, in case u r wondering.. e above is a song by Son By Four, i think.. not so sure.. song title is, of course, Purest Of Pain.. was listening to dis song juz now and decided to jot down e lyrics.. very sad and meaningful.. great for those who fell out of love.. or have been troubled by love or sth similar to dat.. heard dis song lyk 5 yrs ago.. dug it out of my playlist.. trying to relive e 'old' times.. haha.. no la.. juz happened dat my mp3 was playing dis song.. keke.. anyways, time for some updates...
okie.. let's start wif monday.. hmm.. wat happened on mon?? actually nth much la.. juz after sch, go find db dey all.. play 2 games of mahjong den i went off to go jogging wif sy le.. sy was sick so he couldn't jog.. so i jogged and he walked.. haha.. den it started RAINING.. and we got stranded in Sunplaza park.. haha.. so we had to wait for e rain to stop.. nv say much to each other.. juz sat dere waiting in silence.. den rain stop liao we walked 2 more rounds den go hm le.. so it's nth much.. haha.. den at nite play game.. me go try pangya wat.. sy oso start acc.. den we started playing.. i so louya!!! haha.. den zh and db came to join.. half way thru e game, i got dc!!! damn!!! my exp gone.. =( haha.. so nvm.. i go slp lorx.. onto e nxt day..
tue ar.. oso nth much.. morning go my aunt hse.. i fell aslp sia.. haha.. den went to sch at 11 plus.. study study study until 6.. den go basketball training.. haiz.. my basketball skills ar... tui bu le.. really muz buck up liaox.. or else i dun need to stay in e team le.. sianx.. i can't shoot, can't lay up.. bleahx.. so louya.. train until 8 plus.. went to makan wif my parents den go hm.. bathe le.. den study for test.. den my bro playing pangya ma.. he playing wif sy.. make so much noise sia.. haha.. den i study until cannot take it.. go watch tv.. den my bro shout again.. =.= turn out is he kana dc.. diao... 2nd time le.. haha.. so he told me to msg sy dat he not playing le.. ok lorx.. i msg.. haha.. den i go slp at 11 plus.. onto ytd...
ytd test.. i LATE.. OMG!!! i rushing lyk siao sia.. i think i screwed up my test.. haha.. dunno la.. e tutor told us to plan our essay.. den i plan lorx.. bloody hell.. write out de is totally diff frm my planning.. dun even noe i plan for wat sia.. haha.. waste my time.. den ytdlesson end at 11.. yea!!! met sy at interchange at 11 30.. keke.. actually wanted to watch movie de.. but dun have e show we wan.. bleahx.. went bugis, dunhave.. went ps oso dun have!! =.= actually wanted to go tiong bahru see have anot de.. den on 2nd thots.. haha.. go city hall dere walk walk.. frm city hall, walk to millenium walk.. den walk to marina square.. den esplanade.. aiya.. simply juz kept walking.. haha.. quite fun la.. window shopped, walked and talked.. haha.. 1st time go so many places sia.. keke.. fun fun fun!! den we went back at ard 6..
helped my cousin played game at my aunt hse.. dat crazy guy doesn't want to play on his own.. so he got me to play.. got ghost de.. bloody hell.. i scared of ghost de.. haha.. juz dat i was more leng jing.. haha.. anyways.. went hm, on com.. chatted wif db on msn.. haha.. chat half way, stomach pain.. i think is cos nv eat so pain.. so i go cook noodles.. den dat db dunno send me wat track la.. super dumb but funny.. haha.. abt birds de.. =.= den maple patch.. all of us went to patch.. sy's can patch but he kana dc.. haha.. me cannot patch.. tried using manual patch but cannot.. = ( end up auto patch can.. =.= db totally cannot.. manual or auto oso cannot patch.. i went to ludibrium!!! so cute.. toys everywhere!! haha.. den we play maple ma.. doing quest.. diao.. den i got dc oso... =( sad.. haha.. so nvm lorx.. since very late liao.. i go slp lorx.. haha..
3 days all crammed in 1 entry.. haha.. today still dunno wat will happen.. in class now.. keke.. still morning.. so far nth much la.. except i'm supposed to present report but i couldn't say anything.. =x overall nth much la.. keke.. ciao
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
well.. it's lyk 1 30 now.. in abt 3.5 hrs time, i'll b trying out for tp basketball team.. feeling a little nervous.. cos i've stopped playing for lyk 5 yrs.. and can say dat for dat 5 yrs, i wasn't really exercising at all.. so i supposed i'm not as fit as b4 le.. now really noe how it feels lyk to have butterflies in ur stomach.. not a gd feeling sia.. damn.. makes me wan to puke.. might call sy after basketball tryouts to have dinner.. dunno la... hope dat i pass lorx.. i really wan to play again.. e tryouts haven even started and i've faced my 1st problem.. e back of my left knee hurts lyk hell.. dunno y.. every step i took hurts.. die la.. how am i going pass e tryouts with a bad leg.. i dun even noe wat's wrong.. e muscels dere are lyk very tight.. gives me e feeling dat it wld snap anytime.. shit.. how does e muscels at e back of ur knee snap? damn.. i dun wanna find out.. not today.. mayb some other day ba.. gtg le.. ciao
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
keke.. today spent some very quality time wif my frenz.. hmm.. in e morning, met van, db and ben.. we played majong.. and i totally forgot dat i've got sch.. until db reminded me.. as we tried to rush to my sch.. i felt more and more.. i dunno how to say la.. simly lost e mood to go to sch.. and i met val on e bus.. den i told her dat i dun feel lyk going for lesson.. so e 2 of us juz went off to e polyclinic to get mc.. haha.. den db dey all help me bring my bag to van's hse.. cos i was supposed to go over to van's hse after i see doc.. but e funny thing is, me and val reached e clinic at 12 45.. and we found out dat e morning session was over!! ARGH!! muz wait until 1 30.. and val didn't wan to wait.. so she went off 1st.. and i really dun lyk waiting alone.. so i called sy down to pei wo.. haha.. and he really came down.. den we were lyk thinking of how to get e mc.. was rather funny la.. ytd db dey all sent me his photo.. haha.. and he was lyk trying to delete e pics frm my phone.. so we were lyk arguing outside e doctor's rm.. was rather stupid la.. where got ppl sick liao still can argue de.. haha.. den wen i got called, sy went in wif me la.. super funny lorx.. i couldn't even lie properly sia.. den lyk i got my mc la.. den on e way to get my medication, sy say e doc knew i was lying.. and dat e doc say nxt time wan mc, go find her.. hahaha.. wth.. i dun believe sia.. but can see dat i really suck at lying abt dis kind of stuff.. haha..after we got e medication(i duno wat e hell i need it for), sy say go eat.. so we went S11 to eat.. sy treat me lunch lehx.. so gd.. haha.. pai seh to db, ben and van.. nv go back find u guys.. den me and sy go cs and tm walk walk.. trying to decide where to go ma.. walk until 4 plus sy den say go bowling wor.. so i say ok lorx.. go SAFRA bowl.. instead of taking bus, we walked dere la.. haha.. ytd we went jogging, today walking.. haha.. on e way dere we even ate ice cream.. den we go SAFRA bowl.. not bad lehx.. i got over 100 points!! wootx!! finally sia.. haha.. den after we bowl, i say go van's hse take my bag ma.. we actually walked e whole way back.. haha.. today me and sy actually talked a lot.. keke.. we were lyk talking and laughing all e way.. once in a while got silence la.. but it was rather peaceful la.. it's lyk, we dun need much words la.. juz each other is company enuff.. haha.. cos everytime we open our mouths, most of e time we r bickering.. haha..
wen we reached van's hse, db and ben going hm le.. so we nv tok much.. den me and sy went up to van's hse to drink water.. den watch tv and arm wrestle.. haha.. sy found dat me and van quite strong.. haha.. but we lost to sy la.. me and van played against each other.. i win la.. but can see dat van is as strong as me lorx.. cos i really used all my strength.. haha.. and sy was lyk, if me and van lyk dat liao, den he cannot imagine db's strength le.. haha.. which was true la.. cos db stronger than me.. den van's mom return hm le.. so me and sy left.. we walked back to my aunt's hse lorx.. i think i lost some weight frm all dis walking liao.. haha.. and can say dat we talked a lot along e way lorx.. i told him abt pri sch and sec sch life.. mainly is abt basketball la.. cos i talking to him abt tml ma.. keke.. den he sent me back to my aunt's hse la.. cos he helping me to carry plastic bag ma.. so he tried to get me to pass him my hp by not returning my bag.. i die die oso dun let him delete e photos.. haha.. i think he nearly went mad liao..
so today was a rather fun and happy day la.. haha.. juz a little sorry towards db dey all.. sry dat i nv go back find u guys.. will make up to u de.. promise.. so dat's all for today.. ciao
Sunday, May 14, 2006
well.. was doing some sch stuff for e whole of e afternoon... i nearly went mad.. den my ex classmate HAD to ask me wat i was doing.. and i was lyk, "dun! dun ask me!!" so i simply said i was having suicidal thots... i guess i gave her a huge shock.. keke.. it was super funny and was a breath of fresh air frm all those suicide stuff.. no no no.. dun think too far.. i was doing a research on teenage suicide for my written assignment.. put it nicely is written assignment la.. but it seemed more lyk a test to me.. haha.. now, i'm lyk thinking of suicide.. omg.. wen will i ever stop thinking abt it.. it's lyk.. i dunno is e way i search or wat la... all e result i got frm e internet abt suicide was on US.. damn.. y cant dere b some on s'pore.. anyways.. i think i got enuff info so i stopped.. or else i wld really go mad.. anyways.. for some really quick updates on my life..------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
sch's started.. everyone knew but dat but i simply have to say it.. so as to make it seem real.. everything is so unreal to me.. new sch, new frenz, new environment.. a place for me to start over.. but i find myself asking dis qns.. so i really wan to start over? really not sure.. a new start is gd.. but at e same time, e present's great too.. hmm.. aiya.. dunno la.. so confusing.. poly life's happening.. but at e same time, it's confusing to me.. mayb cos i'm a little blur ba.. sch work i still can cope.. juz dat i'm not very expressive in class.. or anywhere in poly for dat matter.. mayb cos i'm a little autistic ba.. lyk real.. dunno la.. i guess sch's ok ba.. i suppose i'll b able to cope.. i'm going to try out for e basketball team in tp.. really wan to play again.. if cannot get in den, nvm ba..
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life outside sch is fun.. still keeping in contact wif db dey all.. gray in ns le.. he says he's suffering in dere.. haha.. oh yea.. and i seriously established an ice-cream friendship wif sy.. haha.. he became my ice-cream mate.. =P seriously.. wen we meet, confirm got eat ice cream de.. haha.. i supposed it gd ba.. it's nice dis way.. gd frenz and all.. sy going to ns le.. soon la.. dunno wen yet.. hope it doesn't fall on his bday.. and hope dat it's after 12th june.. so i can still ask him out to play b4 he go in.. have fun abit.. cos i sch holiday on 12th june.. haha.. not dat he noes..i nv say.. keke.. but wen go in oso nvm la.. i made him promise to msg me.. so dat i will noe he still alive.. haha.. joking ard only la.. going to seoul garden wif him on fri.. dunno who's he's going to call.. haha.. dunno la.. as long as everyone enuff money can le.. hmm.. i guess dat shld b all for today ba..
i forgot wat i wan to type le.. ciao
Monday, May 01, 2006
kz.. today my com is being very civil, so i'll try blogging.. haha.. hmm.. today's entry is to update abt e past 2 days ba.. cos got a lot of happy stuff.. =P anywayz... on sat, i had lecture in morning.. (sobs) and den in e afternoon, i met db and zh as well as ben and we went to watch e guys play soccer.. (yeah!!) haha.. nth much la.. watch dem play soccer, see db kanna "chased" by ball.. haha.. it's almost lyk e gd old times le.. me and db, i mean.. e two of us were lyk joking and laughing.. oh.. and i met e uncle lim, i think.. he was very nice to talk to.. and he taught me a game!! haha.. i felt dat i became cleverer.. haha.. as all we did dere were talk, laugh and play.. haha.. oh.. and i asked sy for ice cream again.. haha.. he very gd de.. always treat me ice cream... keke.. actually is i keep hounding him so he buy de.. hahaha.. but i promised him seoul garden.. so muz save money le.. haha.. hmm.. dey told me dat zx got earring.. i nv notice sia.. haha.. but den.. it's only a earring.. db notice can liao.. =P haha.. was kidding nia.. so i guess dat's all for sat ba.. rite?on sun, which was ytd, i went to escape if sy, sk and zh.. haha.. had a lot of fun.. tried most of e rides.. those boring ones we didn't play.. haha.. really fun.. oh.. and we bought lyk dis candy floss for $3.. it was lyk HUGE!! i mean, really huge.. lyk mountain sia.. ok.. dat's stretching a little too far.. but yea, u get e idea.. haha.. anywayz, e day was juz filled wif fun, fun and more fun.. haha.. really happy lorx.. nv had so much fun.. and it's my 1st time to escape.. keke.. lyk so sua ku lyk dat.. haha.. i supposed dat shld b all for e two days..
i started poly last wk.. it was ok la.. a little tiring but overall, i understood e lectures and i made a couple of frenz.. mostly r girls.. i dun tak much to e guys.. haha.. not lyk before le.. in e past i always talk to guys de.. but now, i think i click beta wif girls.. haha.. becoming more girly liaox.. keke.. i supposed dat's a gd thing? dunno la.. haha.. i guess dat shld b all for today.. cya.. ciao~~