Sunday, September 23, 2007
was watching Hanazakari no Kimitachi e on youtube.. Mizuki said sth which i wanna say to someone.. hahaha..i want to laugh with you when you laugh. i want to have fun with you when you have fun. i want to grieve with you when you are grieving. and when you are sad, i want to cry with you.
loving someone, is not possessing.. and to me, being dere for him is e best thing dat could ever happen to me.. though at times, he's not responsive (=.=) but when he starts crapping and joking wif me, it makes me feel satisfied.. even content.. he told me he moved on.. dat he feels troubled.. in his words, "xin hen fan".. and i told him, concentrate on wat is in front of you.. dun bother too much abt wat is between us.. dis time round, when i say i would wait, i would.. unless....
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hmm.. db has been nagging me abt going to kbox.. hahaa.. i oso wan to go lehx.. but dunno when free.. towards db, i've got alot of things to say lehx.. one of them is sorry ba.. cos everytime i go out, i nv jio her.. and dat i've been neglecting her.. until dis frenship between us is almost lyk non-existent.. i've got no excuses and no reasons how things came to be lyk dis.. one thing i've got to emphasize is i nv 重色轻友 so dun say dat of me.. >.<
i do still regard db as my mei and best fren.. juz dat nowadays, we talk mostly abt serious stuff ba.. haha. cos lyk db said, she mature le.. while me.. keke still acting lyk a kid.. hard to believe i'm 18 aye.. LOL talking to db sometimes makes me feel as if i'm useless.. still dependent on my parents, dunno abt alot of things lyk work, no plans for future and still not realistic.. haha.. dat's why through talking to db, i am hoping i'll be able to grow up.. dunno whether is it working anot.. LOL
hmm.. muz be wondering why i'm suddenly talking abt db rite.. cos i'm thinking of her ba.. (i'm straight by the way.. =.=) but mainly becos i dun see her dat much.. blogging is a way of communicating wif her ba.. i'm mostly talking rubbish la.. cos i dunno wat to blog abt.. =x anyway, here's a little tribute to db ba.. no pics though..
i met her when i was in sec 2.. in dmn lib somemore.. when i was in sec sch, i kept mostly to myself.. not bothering to talk to ppl.. after sch will juz run hm.. not because i guai.. more lyk dere's nth dat makes me wan to stay out.. so anyway, during recess, i hole myself up in the lib.. so dat's where i met db..
we started out wif a simple hello.. slowly, we started talking to each other.. bitching abt teachers, principal.. abt our lives, family.. studies.. started opening up to each other.. den we slowly developed a frenship whereby we went out almost everyday.. at 1st, it's e 2 of us wif another guy called Albert.. den i dunno how it went to e 2 of us only..
i still rmb going out wif her.. juz e 2 of us.. it was fun.. though we only go TM and CS lyk almost everyday.. it doesnt bore us one bit.. cos we simply juz enjoy each other's company.. i rmb we can sit at mac for lyk hours, juz eating one meal and talking alot.. i oso rmb we were talking abt sth funny.. and we laughed and laughed.. couldnt stop.. ended up squatting in front of CPF building and laughing till tears nearly flowed down our cheeks.. now dat's fun..
i would always be thankful to db for bringing me out of my shell.. if dere's no db, i wouldnt have met great frenz lyk bc, zh, sk and sq.. and through them, we met other great frenz lyk gray, sy, zx, jk, and so on.. and within dis group of frenz, db found her love.. i noe she's happy.. and i'm glad dat she's happy.. cos we've really been through alot to be where we are now..
db's my confidante.. she's my sister.. though we've drifted apart but in my heart, she's always someone whom i noe i shld be grateful to.. without her, i wouldnt be where i am today.. so thank you db, for all dat you've said and done for me.. when i say frenz forever, i really mean it.. love ya~