Thursday, August 16, 2007
i chose to remain silent.. i chose not to talk abt it.. i chose not to think abt it.. so as to not feel anything.. not to acknowledge anything.. i realised i'm not prepared at all.. not prepared to face watever i'm facing now.. yes, it hurts me.. but i hold on to the belief dat things will be ok.. dat if i tried hard enuf, waited long enuf, all my efforts would be worthwhile.. i guess i'm getting more positive.. cos normally, i would wallow in self pity and mayb be sad.. however now, i chose to be positive and hope for e best.. yes, perhaps once or twice, i wanted to cry.. perhaps once or twice, i feel really lonely.. but all dis is wat everyone went through.. ppl experience all dis at least once in their lives.. so why not do so wif a smile, and feel a whole lot more beta... dat's my take on it.. i've matured, in a certain way.. and for dat, i'm happy..i might not be prepared.. i might not have expected it.. it happened.. and all i can do, is take it in my stride and hope for e best.. all i wan to say is, i really missed those times.. i really missed us..