Sunday, July 29, 2007
was reading a book titled Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho.. interesting read.. only halfway through it but found a lot of nice quotes.. hahaah.. gonna share~Everything tells me that i am about to make the wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back where i came from because i didnt have the courage to say "yes" to life? --> page 25
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personally, i feel dis is quite true.. normally, we fail to do the things we want to do cos we're afraid of taking risks, of making mistakes.. but wat's a little mistake as compared to the experience we will gain? ppl always say, "we learn from our mistakes." but if no one EVER makes a mistake, den where do we learn? wat do we learn from? wouldnt we be shrouded in e clouds of uncertainty?
if we think abt it, it really only requires us to take juz one step.. juz one step to experience wat we are to experience.. it's nv hard to say "yes".. so why are we facing so much difficulties to say "yes" to risks? where have all the courage gone?
I stood for a long time by the roller coaster, and i noticed that most people get on it in search of excitement but that once it starts, they are terrified and want the cars to stop. What do they expect? Having chosen adventure, shouldnt they be prepared to go the whole way? Or do they think that the intelligent thing to do would be to avoid the ups and downs and spend all their time on a carousel, going round and round on the spot? --> page 47
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isnt it true dat we constantly search for adventure but when we really get it, we would wish for it to stop? humans are really weird creatures.. we always dream of things dat are not within our grasp.. but when our dreams really come true, we would wish dat they didnt come true..
take me for example.. deep down inside, i'm scared of horror movies.. ghosts, vampires, gore.. i'm afraid of them.. but i cant help feeling a sense of excitement whenever a horror movie comes onto the screen.. but when e movie starts, i started getting scared and regrets watching it and cant wait for the movie to end.. and trust me, half the time i'm covering my eyes.. it's always e same cycle.. round and round, round and round.. the feelings nv change.. from excitement to dread then back to excitement again.. and it goes on..
i ask myself.. why do i spend $10 juz to scare myself.. different ppl have different reasons for doing the things they do.. for me, by watching these movies which scare the hell out of me, i hope it helps me to overcome my fear.. fear of the unknown.. i do loads of research on such stuff.. but hoping dat nxt time i encounter them, i'll be less afraid.. how abt u? why do u do stuff dat u noe u will regret later?
That's what the world is like: people talk as if they know everything, but if you really dare to ask a question, they dont know anything. --> page 57
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hahahahaha.. tell me how true is this statement.. oh my.. it is soooo true.. my personal take on this is this.. people love "face".. they want to be knowledgable.. or rather, they pretend to be knowledgable.. it strokes our egoistic nature when we know sth that others dont.. it juz simply makes us feel superior.. some will beg to differ but seriously.. why dont we ask questions? mayb becos by asking qns, we are admitting dat we are ignorant.. is being ignorant a crime? it is not but still.. face.. it's always face..
In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. It hurts when i lost each of the various men i fell in love with. Now, though, i am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it. --> page 90
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powerful words which ring true to the heart.. i always lyk to tell ppl, i am my own person and no one can dictate me in watever i do.. i hold true by dat belief.. wat i do, wat i think and wat i feel is no one's business and no one's fault.. ppl often preach to me dat love is between 2 people.. and wat one person do, he/she has to think of the other.. which sometimes, for me, is rather tiring.. cos if loving someone means being responsible for e other person, i would rather not love.. for every min and every sec, i would b worried how my actions will affect my partner and dis would, in turn, hinder me in the things i wan to do.. and dat would take away my freedom, making me a prisoner in love..
rite now, i'm not so yet bound by my responsibilities.. mayb becos our love is still young.. not yet mature.. dat's y i dun feel restricted.. by as time goes by, i hope my partner would understand dat i need my freedom and so does he.. and i hope he understands dat at times, we feel wat we feel and not wat others wan us to feel.. and i am e kind of person who places a lot of emphasis on freedom and if he doesnt understand dat side of me, i noe we will have a lot of problems in times to come..
Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. ..... It is untouched desire in its purest state. When desire is still in this pure state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they lived each moment reverently, consciously always ready to celebrate the next blessing. When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second. --> page 133
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why rush? why not slow down and savour? let's juz say, low self-esteem and insecurities made us rush and spoil the magic moments.. dis is a practical world.. we dun live by desire.. we live by assurance.. assurance of a good life, assurance of a future..
***with reference to: Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes
hmm.. ppl might say dat my inputs are mainly negative which i agree.. mainly becos i feel dat dis world or rather society, is rather bounded by norms and rules.. so much so dat it sometimes feel contaminated.. we are "disallowed" to do certain stuff or mention certain issues..
take dis book for example, how would you react if u knew dis book revolves around a prostitute? how many of us see prostitution as a career? well, dis book, talks abt Maria, who's a prostitute, and she did it by choice.. she wasnt forced into it and believe it or not, she was able to find meaning in her "job".. many would condemn these women but do anyone stop and think.. dat these women were once young and innocent.. dey have dreams too.. dis book really delve into the mind of a prostitute.. and it really changed my mindset on prostitution..
hmm.. i rmb dere's one post where i said i wouldnt mind going ard the world practising safe sex wif various ppl.. lolx.. here's the link:
http://unspoken-dreamz.blogspot.com/2007/05/gym.html
it's ard e last few paragraphs.. i wonder wat ppl's reaction will be when dey noe i secretly aspire to be a prostitute.. lolx.. or a nicer name would be, "companion".. hmm.. i guess it really depends on how well a person noe and understand me ba.. i noe most would call me crazy.. but one person who really understands me inside out is my mom.. i told her abt dis little secret of mine and she told me dis..
"u dun necessarily find good sex overseas. you will only enjoy sex when u do it wif the rite person."
LOL basically, my mom regards my aspiration as a passing phase.. mainly cos i was curious.. but for ppl who dun understand me dat well, their 1st thot would be, she's crazy..
so.. wat's e 1st thot that came to your mind?