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dis morning, was supposed to study wif ivan and carol.. hahaha.. but we ended up going to Adidas shop cos we (ok.. i started the idea) were looking for clothes which will make dear look "younger".. =x so anyways, the Adidas shop @ Vivo is super fun lorx! hahaha dere's dis computer game.. which is very interactive one.. boxing.. haha.. carol and ivan had fun wif dat.. den dere's hopscotch.. woo hoo~ so long nv play le.. i played dat while carol and ivan watched.. haha cos carol wearing heels and skirt.. LOL
dere's also dis giant snakes and ladders at e shop.. HAHA e 3 of us started playing dat lorx.. carol won.. and obviously, i'm e last.. =x but it was super fun throwing the cotton dice and walking up the ladder.. LOL
after dat, we played foosball.. i dunno y e hell it's called foosball but whatever la! me and carol teamed up and played against ivan.. haha.. we won e 1st round, lost e 2nd.. e last round, ivan said "winner takes all" and me and carol WON!! =D HAHA we are e winners!! but hor, after we happy a while den realise we quite dumb.. cos win liao oso no prize.. >.<
anyways, e bottom line is, i didnt study much for my test so go figure how it went.. zzz... had dinner wif huahua, dhah, kuku, ivan, judy, clara and many others at food republic.. wah.. e food dere all ex lorx.. psh.. after dat went walk walk wif hua hua, dhah and kuku.. den dhah and kuku went off.. me and hua hua go shopping.. hahaha.. hua hua bought a necklace wif an angel.. so cute~ i bought 2 keychains too.. for a special reason~ =D

met ivan and e rest after we shopped.. den me ivan and hua hua headed to ivan's hse for mj.. HAHA gian lorx.. we really gian mahjong.. we played $1, $2.. super big lorx.. we started at $130.. by e end of 2 rounds, i lost $103.. LOL ivan and hua hua won la.. den i bluff dear say is actually money.. only use chips count 1st den later pay.. wah he scared lorx.. LOL it's pretty bad of me to play such a prank on him.. =x sorry dear.. >.<

anyways, it's kinda late now.. 1 30am in e morning.. lolx.. it's a long day today.. so i beta stop here.. ciao~

hmm.. sth weird today happened.. for god knows wat reason, while on the train ride hm, i'm surrounded by kids and babies.. yea.. e size is lyk one-third of a cabin, and dere's lyk 9 kids.. i'm standing rite in e middle of dem.. well.. seeing all dis kids reminded me of who i wan to be and wat i wan to have in future.. i dunno if it's a coincidence or wat, but seeing all dese kids made me yearn for sth dat i hope to have in future.. and y e hell are dere so many kids today.. in one cabin some more... *wonders*

seeing all those kids made me kinda happy.. dey drove away all my troubles.. haha.. and dey were all fasinated by my Mr Bean toy.. a couple of dem went to grab my toy.. lolx!! and e parents were all smiling cos their kids are happy.. got one girl grabbed my keychain too.. e ones at my hp.. lolx.. so when she pull, i have to follow her cos i scared my keychain will break.. HAHA so funny but it's really cute.. =)

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i bought a shirt today while shopping wif best fren~ =) cost abt $36 but it's worth it.. cos it can be worn formal and with e help of a belt, casual too.. so i'm gonna wear dat nxt thurs for resorts op presentation.. hahaha.. impress my tutor.. LOL i think i enjoy shopping wif bestie.. hahaha.. cos we always have so much to talk abt.. and we tend to have e same thots and mayb taste.. =p

well.. time for me to go study a little.. dun wanna fail resorts op.. =x ciao

me n dear had our 1st arguement juz now.. i'm not gonna say wat's it abt.. let's juz say things are cool rite now.. juz dat it's quite tiring arguing.. i noe dat it's my fault.. dat he doesnt deserve to be treated dat way..

all i have to say is, stop and listen.. can u hear wat i'm saying?

i juz wan things to go stop, stop, stop, stop,STOP!!!!! i'm so damn frustrated can!!!! and i dun even noe frustrated at wat!!! lyk WTH can!!!!! pshhhh!!!!!! i juz noe i've been chionging lyk a spider but work juz keeps piling and piling!!!! WTH!!! i dun wan to do anything!!!! nuh uh!!!!! i juz wan to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now dat feels great.. guess i'm beta.. wootx.. time for bed~

well, it's been some time since i last blogged.. haha. dear's complaining i nv update.. =x lazy la.. cannot blame me.. LOL so here's an update..

FRI:
was in pasir ris cos my dad had some business dere.. so me and my bro were lyk bored.. and went to e playground nearby.. haha.. 2 big kids climbing here and dere.. den all over e playground, got a lot of writings.. vandalism.. zzz i'm used to dis kinda things. cos i was a vandal once.. got caught and wrote a thousand words essay on why i should not vandalise.. but dat's besides e point.. wat caught my interest was dis:
i was a little surprised.. hahaha.. it says, "QR, tell me you fantasies & i'll tell you my lies. F*** larh" LOL i was lyk, "who me??" my bro said, "si liang come here write isit?" =.= wat e hell sia.. for ur info, my dear lives in ubi.. so why e hell he go pasir ris write dis when i living somewhere else? LOL oh well.. it's juz rubbish anyway.. i juz found it interesting.. haha

SAT:
nth much.. mentoring session at east coast park.. sk "didi" drove.. haha.. =p anyways, it was fun but tiring.. e food's good.. haha.. i dunno wat to say abt sat sia.. cos it's really nth much.. so let's move on~ LOL

SUN:
oki.. went to cut my hair.. haha.. looks toot.. =p but it's quite.. i oso dunno how to say.. not straight.. haha.. thks to darling carol for bringing me to cut hair~ loves.. =) after dat went hm, chatted wif dear for a couple of mins and off i went to my aunt's hse.. =D was craving for durian but i saw e pasar malam dere.. and went to buy sausage instead.. =p i lyk!! ahhaa

went up to my aunt's hse and saw my cousin.. i took one look at him and burst out laughing.. i was totally surprised and here's why:

so cool rite.. omg la.. dis is totally not his usual style.. i totally dig dat tail at e back!!! HAHA so darn cool sia.. i wish my bro oso has dis hair style.. haha.. i think he might look good in dat.. keyword's MIGHT.. =p

anyways, if u're wondering how toot i look wif my new hair, here's a pic of me.. looks so toot and chubby.. buay tahan.. lolx.. oh well.. i super 自恋 sia.. i keep taking pics of myself.. hahaha.. here's a collection of 自恋 pics:
act cute.. but still cant hide e fact dat i'm chubby.. LOL
damn.. i think i look good after i shower!!! hair so straight!!! HAHA
okii.. 自恋-ing away.. lolx.. sometimes i cant stand myself.. but who ask me to love myself so much~
ugly ugly.. hahaha.. oh well.. one mustn't be scared of being ugly.. lolx.. heard of Ugly Betty? i kept forgetting to watch it.. sighs...

well.. as much as i love myself, i still love dis guy more:

=p now ppl will complain dat i'm mushy.. but hey! i'm only mushy when blogging ok.. normally i dun do mushy stuff de.. hahaha.. hey i bhb.. but in rl, i very shy lehx.. *pukes* anyways, i got to eat durians ytd!!! yea!!! ahahahah.. i was craving for durians for quite some time.. keke.. now i shall move on to another food.. hmm.. haven decided on wat to crave for yet.. hahah..

well.. i guess dat's all ... dear's complaining i'm taking a long time.. =x ciao~

whee~ dear dear's back and he bought lots of stuff for me! =D i'm not going to flaunt wat he bought for me.. wat matters is he has "got e heart" to buy stuff for me.. thks dear cos i loved e presents.. =)

there's a saying.. dat's wat frenz are for.. HAHA rebonded hair and same smile!!! dat's me and best fren!!!! =D both of us are so cool~ hahahaha.. dis pic is made by best fren.. =) dis is wat best fren said when she made dis pic:

*+*K3LLY*+* [[ 01.06.07 marks the start of our journey ]] *+* ("\( ^ _ ^ )/") *+* says:
so dat pic u used to make e best fren pic is ur new do?
manu* says:
haha yupp
manu* says:
cos when i took, i rmb a photo i had of you when you just rebonded
*+*K3LLY*+* [[ 01.06.07 marks the start of our journey ]] *+* ("\( ^ _ ^ )/") *+* says:
NICE
manu* says:
so i thought maybe i do same style and take when i reach home

so sweet rite~ omg.. i've got e greatest best fren!! =D hmm actually i got alot to blog abt de.. but now.. haah.. forgot wat i wan to blog liao.. lolx.. and dere's so many things i wan to say but i simply dunno how to say it.. not even in my blog.. sighs.. it's lyk everything's jumbled up and i dunno how to separate dem..

oh well.. i noe me and dear has alot to tok abt but.. BUT.. it's always e but.. argh.. i need understanding.. i need to tok to someone.. i cant forget.. omg.. i juz need someone who will listen...

i've been watching youtube dese past few days.. haha.. it started wif zh showing me dis..




lolx.. den i started searching for more South Park vids.. den came across dis...



haha!!! oki it's rather crude.. but it's super funny.. here's another one!!



HAHA!!! i think i would get expelled if i tried dat in sch.. =p den i came across any funny cartoon.. heard of family guy?? dat's funny too.. HAHA here's one:



lolx!!! i love stewie best.. he funny~



HAHA.. dat's all.. hope u guys enjoyed it~ =D

oo la la~ it seems dat dear dear will be back sooner than expected! yea!!! hahaha.. he'll be back by thurs morning~ whee!! =D so i'm feeling super happy.. and so happens i'm baking cookies on wed.. haha.. shall save some for dear dear and e kukus.. =)

dere's another reason y i'm feeling super happy.. and dat's cos i hlped nandu.. hahaha.. nandu's my sec 3 classmate who's migrated to London.. he's been having problems wif his gf.. and so happens his gf was using his msn acc and talked to me... and she told me abt her problems and fears.. so i sorta advised her based on my knowledge of nandu.. and dey're back tgt!!! i'm soooo happy!!! dis incident made me feel so useful.. =D i wish nandu and li all e best~

recently i've taken a liking to taking buses.. hahaha.. i dunno y.. i juz liked sitting dere, looking at e "scenery" and stoning.. hahaha.. yea.. dat means i dun mind taking buses alone.. but even if i were to board a bus wif someone, i doubt i would make a good person to talk to.. haha.. i tend to have e habit of keeping quiet on bus rides.. =x i liked it even more when i'm taking a new route and dunno where to alight.. ahaha.. dat sense of excitement... so fun.. exhilarating(sp?).. hahaha.. i might even get used to being lost.. hahahaha.. i wonder wat dear would think of my new "hobby"... hmmm

i'm a happy girl~ cos i had a smoothie (which i made myself!! =D) and i received another msg from dear dear.. seems dat he bought me pressie~ =D ok la.. it's not becos of e pressie.. more lyk cos he's thinking of me.. *blush

hahaha.. anyway, i'm looking forward to him coming back.. cos i think e both of us have a lot to say to each other.. i guess me is more words ba.. =x i'm guilty of hiding too much.. >.< oh well.. gotta learn how to open up more..

was watching a stupid show juz now.. lolx.. i juz watched e last 5 min so dun bother asking me abt story plot or title of movie.. hahahaha.. dumb dumb's back wif her eccentric ways~ yea yea yea!!! hahahaha

special thks to lover cos she taught me how to make my own smoothie~ =) my dear dear's coming back in 5 days time!!!! i'm counting!!!!!!!

today had IG meeting for sports comm.. it was ok i guess.. haha.. i'm going to have to complete my proposal after blogging.. anyways, brandon came up wif a sequence for the LRM mass dance which i totally love~ hahaha.. brandon is gd! oh well.. gotta discuss wif laura though.. she's cheorographing e dance.. hehx..

after IG meeting, followed grace, bernard and smith down to com lab.. nth beta to do.. haha.. completed some part for resorts op report.. i noe i have alot to blog abt but.... lolx.. moving on..

i thot it would be fun to take a bus to my dad's workplace.. i went to check e bus route and noe dat 15 would pass by eunos.. den from dere, i can walk over to paya lebar.. i even noe i'm supposed to alight at e bus stop opposite eunos mrt station..

so happily i went on board bus 15, listening to my mp3.. halfway through e journey, mummy called me.. and i told her happily i'm taking a bus to dad's workplace.. den she asked me if i noe where to alight.. and i said confidently, "ya! i got check.. opposite mrt station.." when i said dat, i was at a bus stop.. and many ppl alighted at dat stop.. i didnt notice anything amiss at dat time.. as e bus continued on, i thot sth is not rite.. 2 stops later, i knew i missed my bus stop! omg la.. apparently, i missed it while toking to mummy on e phone.. =.=

i alighted quickly and called mummy to tell her abt dis "good" news.. for heaven's sake.. i ended up at some ulu place can.. dunno wat telok kulau.. zzzz and guess wat mummy did.. she laughed! out loud somemore.. *&(*&^ as i think now, if dear was to be wif me, i wouldnt end up lost.. here's e ulu place:

anyways, crossed e road and took bus 15 back to my original bus stop and from dere, walked to paya lebar.. i WALKED from EUNOS TO PAYA LEBAR ok... and e best part.. my dad drove back to EUNOS FOR DINNER!!! WTH can... i'm lyk.. I WALKED FROM HERE TO PAYA LEBAR AND NOW U'RE DRIVING ME BACK?!?!?! might as well i wait for you guys at eunos.. den dad replied, "u nv ask ma.." dang... =.= nvm lorx.. take it as exercise.. lolx.. blur me.. haiz

during dinner, ate and toked wif my family.. toked abt sth kinda deep (in my opinion).. toked abt managing finance.. haha.. muz be wondering wat's so deep abt dis subject.. well.. i'm not an independent girl.. in fact, i'm very dependent.. cos everything i want or need have either been provided for or all i need to do is to ask.. thus leading to dis dependency.. so i decided enuff is enuff.. made a deal wif my dad instead of daily allowance, he would give me $250 at e start of every month and let me manage it on my own.. time to learn to be independent.. time for baby qr to grow up..

den after dinner, we were sitting at e coffee shop drinking.. not alcohol.. juz normal coke and tea.. lolx.. anyways, was reading one newspaper article.. i was so engrossed dat even mummy's surprised.. haha.. i'm not one who reads newspaper.. i dun even keep up wif current affairs.. lolx.. tok abt living in my own world... after i finished reading, i exclaimed, "wat e bloody hell has dis world come to?!" e article is abt some pri sch kid in hk who was raped by 3 of her classmates or schmates.. watever la.. e main point is, dey're all juz 10 la! how sick has dis world become sia.. where e hell is sex education?!?! wat e hell are e parents doing?! at e tender age of 10, i'm still playing at e playground can.. and here i am, reading abt some 10year old kid raping another 10year old.. wat e f*** man.. dis is totally NOT right.. dun ask me y i'm so indignant.. i juz am.. cos i feel dat when u're 10, you shld be enjoying kids stuff lyk games, playgrounds, or watever la.. definitely not sex! dis world is so f***ed up.. i feel ashamed to be living in dis world sia.. it's too darn sick and twisted.. it's crap.. it's really crap..

on a happier note, met up wif lover for smoothie date.. brought president out to meet her.. haha.. cos she said she missed him.. so i put president into e exercise ball and brought him out.. when i 1st left e hse, he was very active.. jumping here and dere.. but as i walked to the playground near hua hua's hse, president got settled down.. at one point while i was walking, i looked down and found president slping! i'm lyk, awww... dis is e 1st time a hamster slept in my hand.. so sweet.. =D

anyways, sat at e playground and waited for hua hua.. while sitting dere, i started thinking.. one of e scariest things abt me is when i think, i tend to think too deeply, think too much.. ahaha.. lucky i nv get emo.. oh well.. den hua hua came wif a mug in her hand.. so funny~! hahaha.. she brought strawberry smoothie~ i took one sip and fell in love wif it!!! HAHAHA.. e 2 of us sat at e playground, wif president slping in e middle, sharing a mug of strawberry smoothie and chatted.. from s'pore to india to brunei to china.. hahaha.. explore so many countries but still come back to s'pore.. while chatting, i started drinking e smoothie and found dat i couldnt stop.. cos e more i drank, e happier i felt.. haha.. i told hua hua juz dat.. and she was lyk, "ya!! drink le will super high!!" hahaha.. i agree cos i'm still high now ok.. lolx!! but yea, e smoothie really made me happy.. hahaha

anyways, today's a day of surprises for me.. found out abt alot of stuff.. and toked e most today.. hahahahaha.. proves dat i've been living in my own world for too long cos i missed out on alot of stuff.. and i confided in hua hua abt certain stuff.. i made her promise not to tell.. too many ppl noe oso not good.. i have to solve it myself.. lolx.. i guess e reason i told hua hua was cos she's a virgo lyk me.. so will most probably understand how i feel.. i was rite, she understood.. =) carol told me being emo is hua hua's character.. which is true.. but i oso gotta say, being emo is oso in my character.. juz dat unlike hua hua, i hide it really well.. haha.. one thing i agree wif hua hua is when we're quiet and not smiling, we're thinking.. and thinking really hard.. normally abt negative stuff.. yea.. but unlike hua hua, i get cheerful easily.. mayb cos i'm a simple person.. haha.. i'm simple yet complicated.. simple to satisfy but complicated in thinking.. yup.. i think dat's me.. but as i promised carol, i wun emo too much cos dear will worry de..

actually, dear got msg me when he's in china.. but i dun quite dare to reply cos he's using his aunt's hp.. so i scared is his aunt read e msg.. =x so when i received his msg, i juz read and smile.. but nv reply.. so far only replied 2 out of 3 msges he sent.. haha.. might seem bad of me not to miss him but i'm thinking.. wat's e point of missing him when i noe he'll be back nxt wk.. i noe he'll be thinking of me while he's dere.. and me, i'll definitely think of him.. in fact, i swear, absolutely SWEAR, i heard his voice dis morning.. i didnt catch wat he said but i DEFINITELY heard his voice! i'm not kidding!! and i'm not being mushy here...

anyways, i'm thinking whether i shld change my blogskin.. cos apparently, firefox can see my blogskin e way it shld be.. haha.. some ppl already asked me to change.. lolx.. oh well.. guess i'll be scouting for beta blogskins..

i think it's a long entry.. so i shall end here.. it's 2am in e morning.. i'm still feeling e effect of the smoothie.. hahahah.. more smoothie dates wif lover~ oh and we're going to esplanade to read books!!!! how cool rite!!! happy happy~ dear come back soon~~

been moody dese past few days.. thks to hua (darling) and manu (best fren) who cheered me up unknowingly.. =)

well.. me and bestie had a very "interesting" conversation which cheered me up alot.. i dunno how e conversation got to dat point but we were toking abt dis world being weird..

me: it's a weird weird world..

bestie: very weird world. HAHA. i think we're the only two sane ones left. reminds me of the story, veronika decides to die

me: lolx. yea

bestie: hahah. everyone drink from the poison well. maybe we shld go find the poison well

me: lolx. but where is the poison well... hmmm

bestie: hmmmm. good question. lets teleport there! *hold hands and close eyes* *thinks very hard* *1, 2, 3 POOF!*

me: are we there are we there?

bestie: hmmm. doesnt look like lehh

me: ya lorx.. zzzz

bestie: i think we need to think harder

me: haha

bestie: sianz lehh

me: oki

bestie: lets try again!

me: close eyes!!

bestie: *thinks super duper hard* *1, 2, 3*

me: *POOF*

bestie: are we there?

me: *looks around* i guess......?

bestie: hmmm. maybe today the portal got prob? or shall we try again? third time lucky?

me: spoil ar?

bestie: maybe lehh

me: 7 times lucky lehx.. dun tell me try 7 times..

bestie: aiyo

me: blood vessel burst sia..

bestie: like that we try until die

lolx.. dun ask me why it brightened me up.. it juz did.. and hua hua coming to ask me for a smoothie date is simply e icing on e cake.. yum~

hua hua asked me if i missed dear dear.. i said, " surprisingly, no.. mayb cos i'm too moody to miss anyone.." yup.. dat emo virgo girl is back again.. and lyk hua hua said, " 2 virgos = troubles" lolx.. i agree man.. it totally spells disaster esp when both of e virgos are emo.. lolx..

so many thots running through my mind.. so much so dat i'm getting frustrated.. i wan dear dear to come back soon.. but on e other hand, i juz wan to hide in a hole and forget everything.. die la.. emo liao.. zzz i dun wan to be emo...

hmm.. i think if dear dear reads dis, he'll be super worried ba.. hah.. i dunno.. i'm not someone who can express myself well in speech.. but in words.. i can express myself reasonably well.. i cant block out e fact dat i'm afraid.. dat deep down inside dere's dis fear dat i'm not good enuf and might nv be.. and it's precisely becos of dis fear dat i started running and hiding.. yes i love him.. and i noe he loves me.. i'm juz afraid dat one day, he would tire of me.. or mayb find me irritating.. lolx.. so negative rite.. i think it's e time of e month liao.. haha.. i'm still wondering when did i become so moody.. hmmm.. guess i shld stop thinking.. wat's making things worse is, i dunno where and who to turn to now..

time beta travel faster so my dear can come back sooner.. mayb when he comes back, i'll be happier..

i'm back from cruise~ was supposed to blog ytd but was super shagged.. hahaha.. i fell asleep at 8pm can... zzzz slept for lyk 13hrs.. hahaha.. rejuvenated!!!

boarded the ship on mon evening.. i forgot e time though.. haha.. camwhored throughout.. me and best fren were e ones providing e cameras.. hahaha.. took lots of pics wif dear dear.. =) anyways, had chinese for dinner and off we went to the casino to see see look look..

played and lost in e casino.. haha.. den we went to walk ard some more, ended up drinking and playing blackjack among ourselves.. i won some in blackjack.. den went off for mini basketball match and ktv for a short while.. went back to our rooms to bathe.. me and dear dear were in e same room.. hahaha.. no, nth happened.. we did NOT make babies.. =.=

met e rest in ivan's room.. we were trying our very best to stay awake.. super duper shagged.. hua and val were e sole survivors.. me, i tried but i ended up slping for half an hour.. lolx.. went off board as soon as we could.. me dear dear ivan and hua cabbed hm.. e min i got hm, i started cooking.. hahha.. ate and went to slp..

when i was slping, hua msged me.. zzz TWICE.. omg... den i woke up at 2 10 to bathe and off i went to ivan's hse for mj.. hahah.. still shag sia.. won a little in mj.. val was big winner.. dear dear was playing dota wif ivan but joined us later.. he is super lucky.. e min he sat down and help hua, she won.. zzz.. but last game he hlp me win.. ahhaha..

after mj, everyone went hm.. dear went back to pack his stuff.. me went to my dad's work place den dinner and home sweet home.. dropped dead in bed n here i am.. bursting wif energy.. dear's in china now i guess.. miss him alot~ hahahha.. 9 days... oh well.. will upload e photos from cruise soon.. haha lazy.. =x

i'm off to cruise~

boy oh boy! my 200th post and i'm gonna post sth dumb.. =.=

sundays are always boring days.. cos i'm stuck at hm wif nth to do.. today is no exception.. i'm stuck at hm, watching wrestling which zh passed to me ytd.. haha.. juz finished it.. anyways, my dad was vacuuming e floor today.. den he wanted me and my bro to move away..

now, u noe those kind of armchairs wif wheels? well me and my bro were sitting on dis kind of chairs.. den when my dad told us to move, my bro started "rolling" away.. haha.. me being lazy, juz grab hold of his chair and got pulled out of e way.. HAHA.. super funny.. den me and my bro were giggling away.. den we started playing ard.. we started taking turns to pull each other along.. =.= i noe.. we're dumb.. but it's a form of entertainment for us.. haha

on a special note, today's sy's birthday!! happy 20th birthday!! =) and here's a special greeting to him:

last yr dis time, i loved you as a lover.. dis yr dis time, i still love you but as a fren.. qouting you, we might not be together but our hearts are linked.. i might have found someone else who loves me probably more than you did.. i'm not sure.. but all i wan to say is, i hope you noe dat i'm thankful you've loved me once.. thks for giving me e lovliest times..

i hope dat you'll find someone else who will love and cherish you more than i did.. i noe you'll definutely find dat someone.. on ur 20th birthday, i hereby wish you all e best.. and i love you, my dear fren.. =)

project meeting today~ met sm, van carol and kev for brunch.. haha.. my carrot cake sux.. =( feel cheated of my money can.. zzzz den e funniest thing was, carol bought carrot cake for ivan.. n i didnt say it sux.. HAHA so ivan oso got stuck wif sucky carrot cake.. =x oops my bad..

anyway, project meeting was... hahahaa.. we watched hse of wax when we reached ivan's hse.. lolx.. well it's gruesome but entertaining.. =x discussed project after e movie.. den halfway through, dear dear called to see need him to buy anything for us (ok.. me.. HAHA) to eat.. and everyone started ordering but turns out, everyone eat cup noodles.. mine more special.. HAHA.. even beta is e brand of the cup noodles is President.. -.-

while dear dear was buying food, we played a trick on him.. ivan's idea.. hahaha.. ivan called him, told him dat he won a prize worth $100.. den ask for his add and ask whether wan to dedicate song.. hahaha.. and dear dear said he dedicate This I Promise You to me.. (aww~) HAHA but it was super funny.. we were all on e floor laughing away.. i noe it's very bad of us.. but dis is wat we call YOUTH.. HAHA

oh yea.. for project, we drew lots to see who's going to compile AM report cos kev cant possibly compile 2 reports.. he'll die.. lolx.. yea well.. if i mentioned it, obviously it meant i got e lot.. -.- so i'm going to compile AM.. a little nervous lehx.. my baby work.. i nv compile report b4.. so i scared i'll screw everything up.. >.< oh well.. guess i'll juz do my best..

i got e game Crazy Taxi from sm.. hahaha.. so fun la!! i keep losing.. >.< think i shall play more to improve on my "driving".. HAHA

dear dear's going to China nxt wed.. so sian.. cant contact him for 9 days.. ='( anyway, he told carol dat he's going E-mei.. haha.. and carol thot he going to be a monk.. -.- den when she realised E-mei is female sect, she told me not to let dear dear go.. HAHAHA.. but dear dear oso going Jiu Zai Gou (sp?) lehx.. envy him can... >.<

i think me and dear dear make a nice combination.. hahaha.. he worry for me and i worry for him.. lolx.. so funny.. den everyday we'll be lyk, "take care of urself..." but i think it's kinda nice.. caring for each other.. it's different from e other r/s i had.. i hear dear dear saying, "look forward, dun think of e past." hahaha.. yea.. i kinda lyk how e 2 of us will 互相照顾.. it somehow made dis r/s work..

i find myself looking out for dear dear, not wanting anything bad to happen to him.. i mused to myself, "mayb i've found true love.. mayb i got my fairytale.." and if dis is my fairytale, i noe it'll be filled with uncertainty and certain amount of hesitation.. but at e end of it, i noe it'll be a happy ending.. cos of dear dear's sincerity, he melted away e protection which i've built ard my heart.. and dat is why i love him so.. i dun have to be wif him every min, every sec of e day.. yes, i will miss him but i oso noe when i see him, he'll be dere wif a ready smile..

i'll miss him a lot during e 9 days he's overseas.. haha.. but i'll spend my time meaningfully by reading books.. have been reading books dese few days.. borrowed a book from hua hua and i found out how shallow i am.. haha.. e books i've read in e past is typical brainless stuff which doesnt allow me to reflect.. all it did was entertain me.. but dis book i borrowed from hua hua.. it really made me think.. it's a very spiritual kind of book and even though it's abt love, my focus is on e spiritual journey of the characters..

i think i shall start reading dis kind of books.. those that allow me to reflect de.. however, my favourite would still be those brainless stories.. haha.. my entertainment.. sometimes when i read, i'll suddenly laugh out loud or curse.. ppl might think dat i'm crazy but when i read, i go by this principle:

read with your heart, not with your eyes

it's my philosophy.. dunno how many ppl will agree la.. haha.. my mom called me siao when i told her abt it.. -.- dere's one brainless book which touched me so deeply dat i nearly cried.. i will not name e author and title of e book here lest i get accused of labeling a book as brainless.. and yes, i idolise e author.. juz dat e books were not sth which allow me to reflect.. when i said brainless, it's brainless on my part.. =x

i lyk reading alot.. allows me to let my imagination fly wild.. haha.. it's oso allows me to escape from reality.. i love escaping from reality.. cos anything can happen in my fantasy~ mayb one day, i'll be able to include dear dear into my fantasy world.. a world which i created.. haha.. sounds cool aye? =p

another thing i'll most probably do is to watch VCD.. hahaha.. my mom bought Angel Lover.. so mayb i can chiong e show while dear dear's overseas.. lolx.. nice show~

i feel lyk playing mj lehx.. anybody wanna play?? lolx

ytd went kbox wif dear dear, carol, ivan, huahua, manu, val and kuku.. hahah.. it was fun~ and when dear dear started to sing, everyone was stunned.. omg la.. he's really good can.. and in REALLY good.. ahahaha.. everyone sang and had fun.. ahaha.. me and dear dear sang e most.. =x guilty of singing too much.. >.< hahahahaha

after dat was dinner at billy bombers.. linus' late birthday celebration.. e food's not bad.. talked alot.. hahah.. split between e girls and e guys.. guys' talk was mainly abt DOTA.. -.- typical.. lolx.. on e other hands, us girls' conversation was super interesting.. HAHA.. all dat talk abt levels.. hahah.. yup.. we're hyper..

talked abt some stuff wif dear dear.. and ya.. i noe wat he meant when he told me not to think of e past and to look forward.. all i wan to say is thank you for accepting me as who i am.. thank you for loving me.. hahaha.. and ya.. i love you and i hope our love lasts~

i feel so angry at myself.. it's supposed to be a happy day.. but i have to pour cold water over dear dear's happiness by making him worry.. so darn angry at myself.. haiz.. i hate thinking of wat i gave up when i let go.. wat did i actually let go? is stepping into a new life meant losing a fren? i dunno and i dun wan to find out..

dumb dumb juz realised she haven wish linus happy birthday...


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LINUS~!

lolx.. gym ytd was slack.. haha.. but i did work out.. den went CS for lunch.. all i ate was dessert.. =.= anyway, helped judy and cheryl out in accounts den headed hm.. got hm, bathe, play maple, wanted to blog but instead, went off to slp.. lolx..

i only woke up when it's time for dinner... haha.. den i totally forgot abt blogging le.. zzz.. ytd nite, dear dear toked to my 3 gors.. wah lao.. it's chaos la.. all 3 at bc's hse.. den only using bc's acc to tok.. sometimes i oso dunno who is who liao.. den e 3 of dem were happily threatening dear dear and he said dey are funny guys.. -.- super diao..

ok la.. my gors are really funny guys.. and dey love me alot.. hahaha.. dey treat me very well de so obviously hope dat dear dear will treat me well too.. haha.. i noe he will treat me very well de~ lolx..

later is accounts paper.. zzz.. i dunno i can do it anot.. hope can la.. i think i can.. dumb dumb says i can.. but if dumb dumb takes e test, she's screwed... hahaah..

well i gtg.. refresh my memory abit.. =x

小时候 渴望爱情 现在得到了爱 便渴望幸福
但愿我们能快快乐乐 因为我希望能天长地久

if i were to wish, i wish for our love to last till ever.. =D

study session at terminal 2!! yea.. lolx.. did accounts and found it do-able (finally!).. hee hee.. i did it without much help from dear dear ok... lolx.. anyways, my stomach hasnt been well e past 2 days.. thk god it's behaving itself today.. lolx!!

met dear dear at my block at ard 10 30.. den went off to terminal 2 to meet e rest.. keke.. ivan and laura were early~ lolx.. ok la.. is e rest of us late.. =x studied, toked, crapped and looked at cute guys.. hahaha.. did all dat until lyk 3 plus.. hua hua left early.. so did best fren.. best fren's sick! take care alrite!!!

left me val carol ivan laura and dear dear.. went to staff canteen for lunch.. lolx.. i was super hungry and lucky my stomach is feeling ok.. nth wrong.. wootx! so i ate until very happy.. hahaha..

after eating, we took train back.. ivan went hm.. den carol oso going hm.. val went novena.. left me laura and dear dear.. he supposed to go meet his family to watch Shrek 3 de la.. but hor.. he say wan to spend more time wif me (aww) so he followed us.. haha.. followed laura as she shopped.. i'm not a shopping girl la.. haha.. but i enjoyed myself cos laura's enjoying herself.. *grinz*

in e end, dear dear had to leave for movie.. a little bu she de.. hahaha.. oh well.. said goodbye and me and laura went to orchard.. ahaha.. went to taka for dinner.. *yum yum* den walked ard looking for a bag she wanted.. lolx.. i forgot e brand le la.. quite sporty de.. in e end, we found it in some place.. i oso forgot e name of e place.. =x i noe i'm bad at rmbering stuff.. >.< had a great time toking to laura.. hahah.. was thoroughly entertained.. keke.. i dun mind shopping wif her.. even if i dun shop.. HAHA.. but den again, anyone ask me to shop wif him/her, i wun mind de.. i'll juz follow.. keke

going to gym wif carol hua hua and mayb val? not sure.. haha... i mayb going la.. need to see how my "dear" stomach behaves tml.. =.= oh ya.. carol said me and dear dear got fu qi xiang.. i'm lyk where got.. den she said, esp when e 2 of us give e "huh" look.. my reply, =.= lolx!!!

another cock up conversation between me and my bro..
dun get e joke? well let's juz say e 2 of us got a weird sense of humor.. cos when we saw wat we typed, we started laughing.. haha

hmm.. dear dear's off to war again.. haha.. ivan and linus wan to bully him.. so here i am, chatting wif hua hua and waiting for him to complete his game.. lolx.. a little bored.. oh well..

i noe i shld train maple.. after all, it's only 50% to level 70.. knight lehx.. but i'm tired.. cos hasnt been feeling well.. so might as well blog a little while waiting for dear dear.. lolx.. everything is so sweet.. but den again, i've got a sweet tooth.. haha

i finally got my new bed~ lying on it rite now.. so fun~ ahaha.. very comfy.. hehe.. i got into IG as an associate member.. hahah.. nth important de la.. so i no need elaborate de.. i got into IG hoping to hlp manu.. hope dat i'll b able to.. haha.. many ppl think i wan to join IG cos of dear dear.. haha.. actually not lorx.. is more of interest and best fren.. cos whether i join IG or not, he still holds e same place in my heart.. =D

i think i shld stop le.. ahaha cos it's getting too sweet here.. lolx.. think i go play some game.. ciao

well... after lyk dunno how long, (trust me, it's not long) me and liang are together.. lolx.. i hear cheers cos some ppl (namely val) are getting impatient to see e 2 of us together.. well.. i gotta say.. today is e sweetest day of my life.. haha.. simply touching..

met liang, ivan and carol for breakfast dis morning.. and i swear sth is wrong from e way dey were toking behind my back.. lolx.. but me being dumb, didnt care and went abt eating breakfast.. haha..

things started getting weird when ivan called and said to go pet safari.. i'm lyk, "huh.. lecture starting le.. u still wan to see dog?" lolx.. but in e end i went and got e surprise of my life.. lolx.. saw liang standing at e entrance.. he told carol dat ivan's inside.. den carol went in.. den he say wan me to listen to one song.. so i listen lor.. den he started to sing la!! omg!!

can see dat he's very nervous.. lolx.. he even had problem asking me.. lolx.. so i juz nodded my head and said yes.. lolx.. cos i was so touched dat he sang a song for me.. haha.. and e song is so touching.. and he gave me e large baby seal which i wanted.. =D yea.. dat's abt it.. hahaha.. we finally ended our scandal..

however, going to TAS was quite scary today.. =x cos it's lyk suddenly a lot of ppl notice us.. den i'm lyk not used to it.. >.< but still, i'm feeling happy and 幸福.. haha.. even some lecturers oso noe abt us can.. lolx.. today's a long day.. tiring yet fufilling.. went for e IG recruitment thingy.. haha.. liang say i nv tok much.. yea well.. i cant seem to open my mouth..

after dat played some bball.. haha.. so funny.. dey keep teasing me and liang.. den e 2 of us were trying to be normal.. lolx.. shy sia..... suddenly in e spotlight.. =x oh well.. who asked me to be wif a president.. haha.. nope, i wun regret being wif him.. haha.. he's too cute~

we only separated for a couple of hours but i'm already starting to miss him.. haha.. well.. i'm gonna see him tml.. keke.. cos he borrowing my cam.. waiting for tml to come quick~~ ok.. i'm a happy girl.. lolx!

well.. r/s stuff aside, went bloghopping.. came across db's blog.. and i gotta agree.. things have changed.. but memories are always intact.. i gotta say.. i rmb dat day clearly.. cos it's e 1st time i cried over a guy.. haha.. sometimes i really miss those days.. but sometimes, i'm glad those dramatic days were over and peace reigns.. lolx..

sometimes i do miss db.. i miss toking to her.. going out wif her.. mayb even laughing wif her.. but she has her life and i have mine.. currently we're both pursuing different stuff, have different goals.. mayb one day, both of us will sit down and tok abt wat we've went thru..

do not cry over e loss of our closeness.. smile because we noe we've been close once.. not many ppl can be close to me ok.. so if u're close to me, guess how lucky u are man.. lolx! i'm so bhb.. but yea, it's hard to find a friend who'll always be dere.. frenz walk in and out of our hearts.. but it's important to noe dat at e very least, dey left their footprints in our hearts.. haha.. dun ask me wat kind of crap i'm toking kz.. i'm a little blur.. =x

oki.. i shall stop here.. missing him so much!! >.<