Saturday, April 14, 2007
i'm glad i followed kai to soccer today.. lolx.. i'm going dere again nxt wk.. hopefully, i'll be able to see wat i wan to see again.. hah.. mayb i can continue dreaming..for a min dere, i totally forgot dat things have changed.. so imagine how disappointed i was when i realized it was all my wistful (sp?) thinking.. walked hm alone today.. keke.. thot of alot of things.. as i thot, getting more depressed by e min.. it was den i realized how hard it is to let go..
i had ice cream today.. one of e best i've ever eaten.. yum yum.. i was happily eating e ice cream as i watched dem play.. and i thot to myself, how i wish dis could last forever..
as i sat dere, i kept thinking to myself.. "qr, u are so damn stupid.. look wat u're missing out.." yea.. i'm stupid.. immature too.. sigh.. wish i could change all dat.. i nearly said, "can we start one more time" out loud.. imagine how awkward DAT would be.. dumb me..
mayb one day i'll express my feelings.. or mayb, i'll keep it in my heart... who knows... after all, it is dis separation which led me to realise how impt he is to me.. but isit too late now?
dis is a sad sad post.. quote from resident critic, ZACK "being emo is not cool".. yea i get it.. but i cant hlp being emo alrite.. cos i was stupid and immature enuf to let e guy i love go.. over a stupid and immature reason of being insecure..
diao.. QR, WHEN ARE U GOING TO BUCK UP???? i've had enuf of dis.. i really have had enuf.. YA LA.. I LOVE HIM LA.. BUT DAT DOESNT MEAN HE'LL WAN ME BACK... wake up girl!!!!