Sunday, April 08, 2007
dese past few days have been a whirlwind for me.. mainly it's cos so many things happened so fast that i find myself having troubles keeping up.. is it really that hard for frenships to remain forever and ever? or is it juz dat everyone has stopped trying?looking at e so-called "sq saga", i realized how simple words could cause huge misunderstandings.. and how simple words, could hurt a person's feelings.. yes, 4 yrs is a very long frenship.. and i hope it wld not stop juz at 4.. if it was up to me, i wld lyk it to last for 40yrs at e very least.. but dat doesn't seem possible does it? cos everyone's shutting everyone out..
now, let's analyse e "sq saga".. it all started wif a chalet, wif certain ppl not being invited/invited but did not wan to go.. i've "interviewed" (lolx.. i'm trying to b neutral here) both side of e parties and realized dat it was all a misunderstanding.. apparently, both parties misunderstood e words exchanged..
now from e sociological point of view, e element which has sparked dis event is agent of socialisation.. and dis agent is peers. after dis misunderstanding, both parties did not meet again.. and within their own circle of frenz, dey discussed e problem without actually facts or precise understanding of e whole situstion.. thus dese frenz started adding in other irrelevant stuff, causing greater misunderstanding.. and from den on, everything juz went BOOM!
back to my own view, i personally feel dat it is not dis one incident which led to dis break-up lorx.. even i oso dunno when all dis started.. all i noe is where dere's happiness, dere will oso b bitterness.. no matter how vague, dat bitterness wld be dere.. for me, it's lyk dat ba.. and i kept thinking how dat speck of bitterness came into my life..
as we grow up, we experience more things.. some gd, some bad.. e gd ones, we tend to forget.. but we wld nv forget e unhappy ones.. mayb dat's where all e bitterness began.. i guess we can only accept dat dis world is a sad sad world.. i mean, no matter wat, dere would always b dis memory of us being unhappy.. it nv leaves u.. every single disappointment, we nv forget.. yea, we might forgive but we nv forget..
it's no longer a matter of being welcome or not.. it's more lyk we are unable to bare our hearts and souls.. cos of past experiences, we've learnt and we're oso more careful.. i can bare my heart and soul to a person i've juz met but nv to those who knew me for yrs.. dat's cos strangers dun judge u.. dey juz listen.. but frenz, knowing who u are, wld judge u.. when all u need was a listening ear..
as life goes on, as yrs passed, our circle of frenz wld expand.. we wld meet new frenz and confide in dem.. but dat doesnt mean we forget old frenz.. yes, we confide less in dem.. but dat doesnt decrease their special status in our hearts.. e depth of our hearts are limitless.. old frenz wld still hold e same special status in our hearts as we meet new ones.. it doesnt require to let anything go.. more likely, it meant moving on instead of letting go..
letting go means leaving.. i'm sure dat's not wat u mean.. i guess u meant moving on.. it'll b a gd thing for u ba.. time for u to open ur heart to others.. u'll noe how gd it is to have ppl listening to u without judgement.. we will always remain as frenz.. though we've had a lot of arguements and differences, u'll always b special to me.. cos dere's all those sweet and happy moments.. i still rmb during sec 3, both of us were squatting outside e CPF building laughing away.. laughing over wat i oso dun rmb.. but i rmb dat we laughed till we couldnt stand.. now dat's a memory worth remembering.. =)
dere's a saying that goes "nth lasts forever".. i dun think it's true.. cos MEMORIES last forever.. for i'll nv forget all those great memories cos those are parts and puzzels of my life.. even as we move on, we wld still rmb and in my case, i wld keep in contact.. haha.. i might hang out more wif e kukus now but dat doesnt mean i've forgotten piggy club..
all i can say is dun feel sad and dun regret.. cos u wld nv lose me as a fren.. i'm still ur jie.. unless u dun wan me liao la.. hahaha..