Monday, December 11, 2006
maybe it's juz me.. mayb it's not.. i oso dunno wat e hell dis is happening to me.. haha.. so many thots, so many memories.. starting to have nightmares again.. really dun wan to close my eyes and go back dere.. but i dun think i can stop it.. mayb by saying it out, i invited e memories back.. so many regrets.. yet i cant do anything abt it.. trying my very best burying myself into my studies.. but it always snakes it way back into my mind, clouding me until i could no longer breathe.. i really wish i didn't do all those things in e past.. but it's too late for regrets.. y am i always to late.. i nv seemed able to stop it.. all i can do is to continue burying myself.. until i could no longer take it.. until i do something to end it...really muz concentrate hard on my work.. some idiot who came to my blog to spout nonsense.. i shouldn't care abt him.. cos he doesn't noe who i am.. only my frenz understand me.. it's really great to have such great frenz who stand by me.. it's really great.. lyk wat val said, dis grp of kukus really is a great bunch.. can relax ard dem de.. =)
i've nv forgotten e piggy club.. but it seemed dat everyone is more busy and have lost contact.. mayb it's me but i really hope to see u guys again.. as a grp.. dun wan individual ba.. everyone go out together and have fun.. forget e past and everything.. really miss db but den again, she has her happiness.. haha.. gd for her.. really gtg le.. slp early so tml can study..
hate dis feeling.. juz leave me alone!