Sunday, November 05, 2006
hmm.. dese few days nv blog.. i starting to update irregularly le.. cant find e time.. haha.. muz think i'm being very busy rite.. actually no la.. juz dat i dun feel lyk using e com.. and wen i'm using e com, it's only for sch work.. and no, sch has not been too busy.. it's juz me burying myself in books.. storybooks.. mayb i'm starting to go back to how i was before.. dat idiotic bookworm who noes nth but her books.. dat's who i am ba.. i mean lyk.. other than my classmates, i dun have any social life le.. oh yea.. i hear sq complaining dere's still him.. i noe.. dere's still him, dere's still sy, db, bc, zh and all those ppl.. but we dun contact each other dat much le rite? even db, as my close sister, i oso find it very hard to contact le.. yea.. she has her own life le.. and little idiotic me is still dat idiot who, wen faced wif a problem, will go find db.. only dat now, she's not ard le.. called her, not dere.. hp oso not on.. den it's lyk.. y am i so dependant on her? mayb cos i'm used to her being dere and all.. so we i couldn't find her, i'm juz a little lost ba.. but luckily at dat time, dere's sk.. one thing i'll nv understand is y is it dat wen ppl tok to me, dey'll ask me abt me and sy.. makes me all e more worse cos i suddenly realised dat sy is so far.. almost lyk a stranger.. i realised dat i dunno who he is, wat he is doing anymore.. i think he noes wat's going on in my life cos i always tell him and all.. he nv told me anything.. not even once.. i always have to ask specifically b4 he tells me.. haiz.. dunno la.. life's a mess and it sux.. wat more can i say rite? hah.. i think sk will come ask me wat happen wen he sees dis.. dun ask me kz? cos i oso dunno wat happen.. i'm already all alone le.. dun make me think how alone i am can?crapping rite here le.. dunno y so unhappy.. mayb cos life's not going as smoothly as i wan ba.. haiz.. dunno la.. guess i'll stop here b4 i write sth i didn't mean.. bye