Sunday, October 01, 2006
HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY EVERYONE!!!! =.= lolx.. let's see.. i have not been celebrating children's day for more than 4 yrs.. really miss being a child.. haha.. holidays and all.. so fun..hmm.. i think i really shld stop calling sy bao bei online ya noe.. after all, it's between me and him.. and it's lyk.. i dun think ppl will keep wanting to see me call him bao bei ba.. dun u think it's super weird? haha.. oh well.. i'm crapping again..
i got a hair cut and highlighted my hair.. lolx.. my bro calls me a shitake (mushroom).. oh well.. not dat i mind.. i mean, my hair's been a disaster ever since i was born.. since wen does my hair looks gd man.. haha..
met van and ben ytd.. talked, watched van study and took neoprints.. haha.. damn funny la.. very long nv see ben le... suddenly find him very tall.. lolx.. last time short short de.. in 1 yr time shoot up.. haha.. his growth is madness man.. *shakes head* and i still remain e same.. haha.. van became my new lao po sia.. ahaha.. how it became lyk dis, i forgot.. lolx.. so now i got sy AND van.. keke..
speaking of sy.. very long nv see him le.. >.< i noe it's my fault la.. stupid me working.. for my dad some more.. dat's worse.. so everytime i go out wif sy, my parents wld noe.. haha.. will b seeing him dis coming wed.. cant wait to see him.. i still dunno wan to go where.. e beach mayb? i very long nv go le.. think will go to e beach.. i need to escape from reality again..
reality: the quality or state of being actual or true.
i dun wan to face e truth.. i guess i always felt life wld b beta for me without reality ba.. juz let my dreams soar.. free from restrictions.. dere's trouble again.. i have no one to turn to.. mayb sy.. but i think he has problems on his own too.. wat's more.. dis trouble is rather redundant.. i dun even noe y it's happening.. sometimes, some ppl are juz so buay zi dong(hokkien).. oh well.. wat can i say.. dis world is so full of imperfection.. and here i am, asking myself wat have i done to deserve dis?
nvm if u dun understand.. it's not meant to b understood..
i'll never forget the pain you put me through
i'll never forgive myself for letting my guard down
i could never understand what made you do what you did
i would never know why i let you hurt me time and again
i guess everything is a lie
you have made me hate reality once again
i'll therefore hide again
maybe you'll feel happy this way...
but i gotta say
that's really sick of you...