Monday, October 23, 2006
hmm.. i wonder if i said my dad bought me a lap top.. i guess i didn't.. haha.. oh well.. now u noe.. haha.. i'm getting quite lame here.. anyways.. not feeling very happy.. cos juz now argued wif sy.. or rather i lost my temper at him.. well.. let's juz say it's a disagreement ba.. haiz.. i guess not every relationship is smooth sailing.. i dun even noe who's fault is it.. i mean, how could it be his fault dat he's feeling inferior? is it my fault dat he's feeling inferior? i mean lyk, both of us r not at fault.. so y dis unhappiness? it's weird.. how we can b very happy one min, and very unhappy e nxt.. it's almost lyk a rollercoaster ride.. wif all those ups and downs.. but i dunno if it's mostly ups or downs.. i've lost track.. actually, i've lost track of a lot things.. sq asked me if i was really happy.. my ans is i dunno.. how to explain dat sometimes i'm happy but sometimes i'm nt? it's hard for ppl to understand and it will only make dem feel dat i'm weird.. i've lived my whole life wif ppl telling me how crazy i m.. not dat i mind.. but sth sy said really hurt me some.. yea, i'm weird.. but dat's a part of who i m.. you cant expect me to show u a diff side of me cos u cant accept e eccentric part of me.. wouldn't it b lyk cheating? i'll nv forget how he told me dat i'm a burden in his heart.. i'll oso nv forget him saying he's very xin ku cos i'm weird and dat he dun understand me at all.. haiz.. it's lyk.. everything i've said or done, he told me not to.. once i stopped all my "weird" behaviour, he says he doesn't understand me.. =.= wat does he wan me to do? i oso dunno le.. i've got nowhere to go.. no matter wat i do, it'll only add on to his burden.. dat's not wat i wan.. damn.. i really love him but how long more shld i accommodate him b4 i totally lose who i really am? how ready am i to change 17 yrs of how i spend my life for one guy? i really dunno.. and i really hope i dun have to do dat.. really wish he could learn to accept me.. be it eccentric, weird or normal...
Introduction
“I have often been downcast, but never in despair;
I regard our hiding as a dangerous adventure,
romantic and interesting at the same time.
In my diary I treat all the privations as amusing.
I have made up my mind now to lead a different life from other girls and,
later on, different from ordinary housewives. My start has been so very full of interest,
and that is the sole reason why I have to laugh at the humorous side of the most dangerous moments.”
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Me
BabyQR
I don't think there's anything wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.
Wishes
To have a future
New phone
New laptop~
To be with him
Travel around
To be with him and have a future~
Past
♥ March 2006
♥ April 2006
♥ May 2006
♥ June 2006
♥ July 2006
♥ August 2006
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♥ October 2006
♥ November 2006
♥ December 2006
♥ January 2007
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♥ March 2007
♥ April 2007
♥ May 2007
♥ June 2007
♥ July 2007
♥ August 2007
♥ September 2007
♥ October 2007
♥ November 2007
♥ December 2007
♥ January 2008
♥ February 2008
♥ March 2008
♥ April 2008