Saturday, June 17, 2006
hmm.. today went out wif sy.. he finally recovered... he was sick for a wk... =.= and now it's my turn... i'm lyk coughing lyk crazy now la.. anyways... went east point wif sy to play pool... i won 4 times.. haha.. cos sy keep hitting e black ball in.. i won by default.. haha.. easy win~~~ keke.. den went to soccer wif him... gray still no voice.. =.= sy coughing.. 2 sick cats... and dey have a soccer match tml... -____- how r dey going to play?? are those 2 going to cough throughout e game?? dat wld b interesting to watch.. not dat i will b dere... cos tml's sunday and it's father's day... i might not b dere physically, but my mind wld b wif dem all e way de... haha...anyways.. watched dem play soccer today.. finally noticed how sy plays.. not bad la.. nth to complain but oso nth to praise.. haha.. i have high expectations kz... overall is not bad.. lyk gray.. i oso no comment on gray... juz hope dat dey play well tml.. halfway thru, my past caught up wif me... he msged me.. nvm who.. juz noe dat he's not someone i wan to contact.. not now, not ever.. i mean, after 3-4mths, i thot he left s'pore.. but he suddenly contacted me and said he still miss me.. haiz.. y... he asked after me.. i was afraid to reply.. gray oso told me not to reply.. i deleted e msg.. i told sy abt it and he was joking ard abt going to whack him.. i noe sy's joking but i'm troubled.. cos he's supposed to get married early dis yr.. but it didn't happen cos he said he couldn't forget me.. for heaven's sake!!! i'm an innocent 3rd party here!! i unintentionally ruined a person's marriage.. and i wasn't even in love wif him.. he said he's in love wif me.. i didn't ask for dat... i can't and won't accept his 'love'.. i dun believe then, i dun believe now.. i already made it clear to him dat it impossible.. he knows.. but still... he continues to 'show' me dat he loves me.. by asking me out and giving me gifts.. i didn't agree and i didn't accept.. i've made it clear dat i wld not accept him.. his family wldn't accept me too.. wat's more, i'm attached.. and i'm not even in love wif him.. my heart's wif sy.. i thot he went back to m'sia.. but i reckoned he came back.. let's juz hope dat he's not working at dat place again.. or else i wld surely meet him.. one thing which i dun ever wan to happen...