Sunday, May 14, 2006
well.. was doing some sch stuff for e whole of e afternoon... i nearly went mad.. den my ex classmate HAD to ask me wat i was doing.. and i was lyk, "dun! dun ask me!!" so i simply said i was having suicidal thots... i guess i gave her a huge shock.. keke.. it was super funny and was a breath of fresh air frm all those suicide stuff.. no no no.. dun think too far.. i was doing a research on teenage suicide for my written assignment.. put it nicely is written assignment la.. but it seemed more lyk a test to me.. haha.. now, i'm lyk thinking of suicide.. omg.. wen will i ever stop thinking abt it.. it's lyk.. i dunno is e way i search or wat la... all e result i got frm e internet abt suicide was on US.. damn.. y cant dere b some on s'pore.. anyways.. i think i got enuff info so i stopped.. or else i wld really go mad.. anyways.. for some really quick updates on my life..------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
sch's started.. everyone knew but dat but i simply have to say it.. so as to make it seem real.. everything is so unreal to me.. new sch, new frenz, new environment.. a place for me to start over.. but i find myself asking dis qns.. so i really wan to start over? really not sure.. a new start is gd.. but at e same time, e present's great too.. hmm.. aiya.. dunno la.. so confusing.. poly life's happening.. but at e same time, it's confusing to me.. mayb cos i'm a little blur ba.. sch work i still can cope.. juz dat i'm not very expressive in class.. or anywhere in poly for dat matter.. mayb cos i'm a little autistic ba.. lyk real.. dunno la.. i guess sch's ok ba.. i suppose i'll b able to cope.. i'm going to try out for e basketball team in tp.. really wan to play again.. if cannot get in den, nvm ba..
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life outside sch is fun.. still keeping in contact wif db dey all.. gray in ns le.. he says he's suffering in dere.. haha.. oh yea.. and i seriously established an ice-cream friendship wif sy.. haha.. he became my ice-cream mate.. =P seriously.. wen we meet, confirm got eat ice cream de.. haha.. i supposed it gd ba.. it's nice dis way.. gd frenz and all.. sy going to ns le.. soon la.. dunno wen yet.. hope it doesn't fall on his bday.. and hope dat it's after 12th june.. so i can still ask him out to play b4 he go in.. have fun abit.. cos i sch holiday on 12th june.. haha.. not dat he noes..i nv say.. keke.. but wen go in oso nvm la.. i made him promise to msg me.. so dat i will noe he still alive.. haha.. joking ard only la.. going to seoul garden wif him on fri.. dunno who's he's going to call.. haha.. dunno la.. as long as everyone enuff money can le.. hmm.. i guess dat shld b all for today ba..
i forgot wat i wan to type le.. ciao